i genuinely do think that 'distant past' by everything everything qualifies as a 10/10 perfect song and i couldn't rlly tell you why exactly.. ig bc no matter how many times i listen to it i'm always blown away and get full body chills. it just does everything perfectly to me

also not to sound ungrateful or needy or what the fuck ever but im so sad i can't even get myself all the recent diego merch bc I cannot afford it, I have to prioritize other things. I work so hard SOOO goddamn hard I spend so much of my life at work and I can't even reward myself with a stupid plastic version of my favorite character.. and I watch other people buy everything, all of it, every single piece of merch even while not working a job and im like ???? oh my god. I can't even indulge in the one thing that makes life feel worth being alive for sometimes. I should die bc what do I do all this for lmfao

im tired of being overly employed for my fatigue levels and exhausted and depressed when the world is so large and I could be spending my time on this planet doing other things that make me even a little bit happy. oh my god im so tired