it started with a whisper

I’m going to get into a lot of trouble for making this statement but I’m done fighting and I don’t care. The studio is going to be mad with me but next weekend we have open casting for my next film. We need to fill the lead female role and the lead child role. I refuse to use big name stars. I’ve had some in past films but I want to try and give up and coming artists a chance.

So if you are someone with not many credits or know of someone with talent and are up and coming please have them send me an e-mail to get more information. Now it’s time to wait for my studio to rip me a new one.

I’m glad I haven’t needed to piss off studio people yet. I’m sure the day will come eventually because Hollywood is what it is but it’ll be so annoying when I do have to.

I might know someone for the kid though, I’ll let them know to check it out.

── Ring-a-ling-ding! One second you’re just sitting at home doing nothing, and the next you write a catchy jam that ends up being a better Christmas movie than all of the Hallmark holiday movies combined. It’s gonna be hard to top Northville High, but I guess I could make something work. Seeing the fans tweet about watching Black Friday again on Black Friday instead of going out and risking losing their limbs to a random angry lady makes me feel like I’m doing something right with my art. This one’s for you, Stu from high school, who said I’m not gonna achieve anything in life. Where’s your Christmas special? Yeah, that’s what I thought.

I feel like picking literally anything is better than going out on Black Friday. I don’t get the people that go nuts during it.

You forget how good being away from the craziness of LA or even Atlanta (especially when you’ve only been there for filming big, sometimes very secret, projects) until you’re gone for a little bit. By no means is Portland perfect, but it’s pretty freaking great. And before you ask, yes, even the former Captain America even has to unbuckle his pants after a Thanksgiving feast.

I feel like I have the opposite happen, I forget how much I miss the craziness of LA whenever I’m gone for not work related things.

Today’s been a bad day…. Well, it’s been a good day, but also a bad day. I guess it’s more like a rough day? Production is going great right now for the next Spidey movie, but, I’m really feeling it today… Physically, I’m gone, mentally I’m fine. I ruined a few takes today because of my stomach doing flips, all I ask is that this passes through quickly. I need to be in tip top shape.

I’m sure you’ve already heard it from your Marvel buddies or whatever but if you’re not feeling well, take a break. Director’s would rather pause for a little than have their lead get even worse. Good ones would, anyways.

I have so much leftover food, it’s friggen awesome! 

Did everyone else have a good turkey day? I hope everyone ate their weight in pie and sweet potatoes and turkey, and the bacon that’s definitely the best part of the turkey cooking process. 

I’m proud of myself, because I cooked a big ass dinner and didn’t burn my house down. 

You put bacon on your turkey?

My turkey day was chill, watched movies, ate whatever I had in the fridge, nothing to complain about.

I have so much to be thankful for right now between my amazing brother & sisters, my sweet Freddie boy, my mom, and my amazing celebrity dance partner, Nev. Without him, I probably wouldn’t have made it through the season in one piece.

In other news, it currently looks like the North Pole exploded in my house and I couldn’t be more excited to finally be able to decorate now that the season is over.

I’m thankful that Thanksgiving being over means we’re one step closer to next Halloween.

── I swear, Thanksgiving spirit hadn’t even passed yet and Eric already asked me what I have prepared for the Christmas set-list this year. Is time really flying that fast? I wonder if we’re gonna have Bublé pay Carlyle a visit on Christmas Eve again. That would be quite something.

Everyone survived the Black Friday madness alright? Any plans for the upcoming holiday season so far?

People have been getting ready for Christmas shit since the Halloween spirit passed, it’s ridiculous.

Alright, alright…. so, I made the genius idea to get director-style chairs for my kitchen island in the loft. And they look awesome, they’re each a different colour of the rainbow, they even have glittery backs… like, they’re awesome. The only problem with this? They are not … the most comfortable chairs for dinner parties, or parties in general, and do not work as extra seating in the living room since they’re so high.

Aesthetics? 10/10. 

Practicality? 4/10 

Guess I’m goin’ back to IKEA.

This is making me think my furniture choices are boring as hell. I don’t think I ever worried about aesthetics so I just have whatever.

I genuinely can’t remember when my birthday didn’t end the next day at like sunrise, but that honestly sounds like you had a great birthday. 

I did, it was fun. Good sex and good parties.

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Either way, still lost it so I still win. And you’re practically ancient.

I can go lose my leg. And you’re very rude.

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Relaxing with the people I’m close with. Genuinely enjoying people’s company.

I enjoy people’s company when I sleep with them. But yeah, definitely different ideas.

Ohhh, two amazing classics. I say get both!  I have a couple of small ones already. I wish I had more and my Shorty one will probably be my biggest one. I have to be careful in my line of work with tattoo size and placement.

I’ve never worried about being careful. Perks of mostly being behind the camera.

Oh damn. Are you guys close though? Well, then when are we going away?

Close enough, I talk to him, see him once in a while, shit like that. Whenever you want, babe.

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Dude, if getting laid is your only goal for your birthday, then you really need to step up your game because that is weak as fuck, bro.

I don’t need any other goals. I already dress up, I already find parties, nothing else I need.

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Yeah, and your point? It’s November. I’m allowed to decorate now, especially given that stores have had their stuff out since September now. Hey, I’ll have you know that I’m a good singer, thank you very much!

That’s the stores issue. I never said you weren’t, just hearing that song all the time sounds enough to drive someone insane.

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I would certainly hope so. Plus, have you ever had real poutine? I may not be big on greasy food, but that Canadians got that right. 

Considering I’m from Canada, I have.

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Yeah, it was the hardest. Not being able to talk about someone I love? Never expected I would have been married before 25, or divorced by 35. You might have the right idea though, don’t date… Seems like a lot less effort. No risk of falling in love with a closeted man. 

I’ve never done the love thing but yeah, being with a closeted guy for more than just sex sounds difficult.