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Waking up at 7 am, have a nice cup of coffee and watch the sunrise. Just relax and then maybe go for a run or hike, take some photos. I don't know. I've learned to have a pretty relaxed life. I still have routine but I'm not constantly driving myself crazy with a strict schedule either. There's no sense in it.

I don't even know where I see myself in five months let alone five years. I can be a planner but I don't see the point in long term plans like that. I'll be where I'm meant to be in five years.

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…can’t be this bad? You’re right. Except, now everyone knows that I’m responsible for my best friend’s death because one night in my life I broke the rules, the ex-love of my life is back in town and making me feel things I haven’t felt since the last time I saw her– which has me pushing away someone I care a lot about– and did I mention I was outed against my will?!

You’re right. It can’t be this bad.

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Alright. I take it back. I don’t even really know you so you can’t quite bite my head off for not knowing your dirty laundry. As far as your best friend unless you physically did anything to them to cause their death it can’t possibly be your fault. Though, I don’t know the details. For all I know I could’ve moved to a town with a murderer living among us all. I am sorry about you being outed. No one should ever have to be forced out of the closet. Whoever did that is someone who should rot. 

From Lima? No one has really caught my eye except for maybe one person but I don't think revisiting the past is such a good idea. It's tempting but probably not a good idea.

There isn't anything I can think of. If there's something they don't know it's for a reason.

You are returning here just as I am packing up to go back to Paris.  Feels a little ironic.  Congratulations on the sale of your house though, and signing a lease here.  That’s…I hope it’s a good chapter for you.  

I’d hate to sour you on Lima though so I’ll just say, yeah you did kind of miss something.

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Oh, wow. Talk about crummy timing. How long are you planning to be in Paris? I hope it is it, too. Though I do have a good feeling. And worst case scenario I only signed the lease for a year and if I find out this place it’s for me I can leave in a year.

Something involving you? You okay?

My cameras. Whether it be to take photos with or shoot film with.

My love affairs. Is that cliche? It probably wouldn't do well in sales anyway. I like to think my ventures are more exciting than they actually are.

I wouldn't be doing anything different than I'm already doing. I've got a good career with my photography and I've won a couple awards for some of my short films. So I don't see the need or want for change.

I don't really have a type. I am more prone to being interested in someone who I can carry an intellectual conversation with. Mostly about the arts but that's not a deal breaker or anything. I just can't stand to be around someone romantically if they act like we're still in high school.

No, thanks.

Though, I feel there’s something off in the air here. Someone care to tell me does Lima always feel this gloomy or did I miss something?

I guess I should go ahead and just publicly say that I understand if I’ve disappointed any of you by keeping these secrets, It’s completely valid and I’m sorry. I had my reasons and I thought it was the right things for me– but it seems I’ve just hurt myself and everyone further by doing so. 

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You leave town for a little bit and it seems the whole city has been rocked. I’m not quite sure what secrets you’re talking about but it can’t be this bad.

Some would call me boring because I throw myself into my art and work most of the time. Some would call me stuck up because of my family's background. I'd say I'm more of an introvert for sure, but I can break out of my shell around the correct people but it's very rare. I do shine and can be kind and a happy person when I'm working with clients. It's part of the job. So I guess I'm mostly boring with a smile here and there? Is there a word for that?

Well, then put out a looking for models on here.  Again, I’m sure you will get your pick and then some.  Or I can ask and direct them to you. You know why I came here, well to Ohio anyway; the experience of working with my dad.  That kind of opportunity doesn’t just present itself to everyone right out of law school.  I like the quiet too, I like most of the people, and I don’t know, I feel like there is good work to be done here.  You were living in Paris?  That’s not really surprising.  I am sure it continued to do a lot for your creativity and inspiration.  

Even still, setting up shop is a big enough commitment for small town Ohio.  I would have never thought I’d see the day.  

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I’ll figure it out eventually. Right now I’m just trying to get the fall nature more than anything. I’m sure even if I just advertise myself online with my portfolio I’ll get clients, no issues. Yes, I do remember. How has that been going for you since your move here? For a little, yes. But before that I traveled around Spain, Portugal, Italy, and then finally ended up in Paris after a two month long stint in Germany.

Sure, I can do that. I have a lot of time right now for things like that, that other people do not.  I don’t know, give me pristine white snow anyday over the slush.  

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Well, I guess I should properly introduce myself to my future tour guide. I’m Jack McCarthy. Oh, trust me I would rather spend my time in a fresh blanket of snow than get my shoes dirty in slush. But I guess I can always find the beauty in everything.