i'm trying so fucking hard but i just can't fucking move on because every night i close my eyes and he's there... like he'd never left. but he did. like a coward. and i couldn't even ask why. and it haunts me. and he haunts me. and i only wanna know why. but i can't ask him. cuz i'm too much but also not enough. and when i wake up, it rattles me. and i don't wanna wake up, cuz i can only see him and be with him when i sleep. and i wish he wasn't such a big ass disappointment. and i wish he could love me like i did him. thank god i never told him i loved him tho i think he probably already knew. and i hate that. so much. so so so fucking much.

bro i'm sucha fucking bitch 💀💀💀💀

anyway my musical cringe fest is over, i've reached home and i am now gonna sleep g'night

also nobody has complimented me on my new theme n pfp i'm diltooted :(((

also sorry for the cringe fest music spam, i'm currently on a road trip back home and have nothing else yo do besides watch rain outside the car lol