In an ep thatâs all about Buck and Ravi getting to the point where they can work well together, what screams out to me is the parallels to Eddieâs introduction in 201. On the surface, the storylines are very similar: while Buckâs going through some personal stuff, he has issues with a teammate, but those get resolved by the end of the ep, with one key moment along the way when Buck, without appearing too happy about it, congratulates said teammate on their work. But the truth is these similarities actually emphasize the differences. For starters, remember how Buck insisted on finding Eddie a nickname? He tried âDiazâ as well as âG.Iâ. Interestingly, Buck says they have to find Eddie a nickname because everyone on the team had one. But he never called Eddie by the more generic âprobie,â all of his attempts were more personalized, tailored specifically for Buck. Itâs as if even during the time Buck thought he was rejecting Eddie, on some level he was already accepting him into the fold.
More than that, if Hen points out to Ravi in this ep that Buck wants to make sure heâs worthy, back in 201 Buck never seemed to doubt that Eddie was. Thatâs another reason why he never tried âprobieâ as a nickname for Eddie, it was clear it wouldnât do. I wrote in my pre-season 3B meta that the real underlying reason for Buckâs immediate hostility towards Eddie was never that Eddie was awful, it was actually because Buck was overwhelmed by how awesome he thought this new guy was. Everything about the storyline with Ravi makes that even clearer.
But it doesnât stop there either. When Ravi is hiding from Buck, Hen tells him this isnât about what heâs doing wrong, itâs about Buckâs personal issues. Iâve always thought (and first mentioned in my 406 meta) that there was a good chance Eddie asked to hear more about Buck, since at the gym confrontation in 201 he knew Buck was going through a crisis, Abby leaving. We donât know for sure, but the fact that weâre not shown a scene where this info about Buck is offered without Eddie asking for it (which is what happened in Raviâs case, weâre clearly shown that Hen was the one to bring up Buckâs personal life), framing this info as more closely related to Eddie, and when he was also clearly trying to win Buck over at the beginning of the gym scene, that Eddie openly talked about this info with Buck while Ravi only discussed it in private with Hen, it makes it feel like from the start, Eddie had a level of interest in Buck that Ravi just doesnât have. Itâs the small difference between teammates and soulmatesâŚ
And of course, Buck is never truly hostile towards Ravi. Heâs tough, but itâs because he feels responsible for him. He wants to help Ravi be better, make less mistakes. Buck told Eddie, âyouâre meant to respect your elders,â but he never acted like he was an elder vis-a-vis Eddie, not like Buck did with Ravi. If anything, Buck was intimidated by how good Eddie was from the very first call they went on together. Itâs what makes his âgood jobâ admission to Eddie at the end of that call painful - itâs this moment where he has to entertain the possibility that he might be replaceable with the team. But the resolution to that storyline was that Eddie turned out every bit as good as he seemed and even better, he was the first person who saw Buckâs competence as a firefighter AND said that to his face, which clearly left Buck basically enamored with Eddie. In contrast, when Buck comes to the conclusion that Ravi is good enough to replace him, he decides they need to do it, that Buck has to ask for a transfer. Because in 201, the issue really was that he was intimidated by how amazing Eddie was and was scared of being replaced. Abbyâs leaving might have made it harder to deal with, but it wasnât the real cause. But in 505, the personal matter Buck struggles with IS the real reason why he was treating Ravi differently than before. The storyline even concludes with Ravi declaring his independence from Buck and that heâs content with it. Thatâs because this storyline was never about Ravi and his connection with Buck, not in the same way that 201 was about Eddie and the bond that was beginning to form between Buddie. But the 505 Ravi storyline does prove just how hard 911 decided to go when it introduced and integrated Eddie into Buckâs life.
Oh, and that Buddie connection is another aspect that is emphasized in this ep through contrast. Because from the moment Buck and Eddie had reached the resolution of their issues in 201, theyâre never out of sync on the field. Actually, even before that, since Buck chose to go in with Eddie into the ambulance where a live grenade was awaiting them. Bobby even asked Buck if he was sure and he doubled down on his choice. In 505, he doesnât choose to be paired up with Ravi. In fact, I find it interesting to see exactly how Bobby, who is the one to make the decision, declares the new pairings. He could have just said âHen, youâre with Eddie, Ravi, youâll team up with Buck.â But instead, he tells Buck that Eddie has to be paired up with Hen, so that leaves Ravi as Buckâs partner. Itâs small, but the phrasing stresses that Bobby understands this will not be easy for Buck, to be separated from Eddie. Itâs followed by showing us that both Buck and Eddie struggle with their new partners far more than weâve ever seen either of them struggle with each other even before they struck up a friendship. In fact, in this ep, while Raviâs rookie mistakes are essential to Buckâs storyline, Eddie constantly getting in Henâs way (and a little on her nerves) isnât essential to any plot, yet the show makes sure we witness that, too. Just to stress the point even more, we still get moments between Buddie in the field. The two of them exchange the kind of look spouses who know each other all too well do when Buck begrudgingly tells Ravi that heâs going to get the honors of breaking the door at the fitness mirror call, they do it again when the vic there exclaims that theyâre pretty jacked (the guy is all of us, LBR), and then during the saw call, after Buck sends Ravi to throw up away from the vic, he himself kneels down and, again without even needing words, works together with Eddie seamlessly. Because they ARE battlefield boyfriends, alright? Always have been, always will be.
One of my fave recurring themes on this show is connected to that. Itâs that weâre shown Buck and Eddie struggle on the job when the other one isnât there. Eddie is the only one out of the 118 to voice his displeasure in ep 218 because Buck isnât with them (even though the others have worked with Buck for longer), while Buck echoes the sentiment over Eddieâs absence in 414. In 505 heâs once more saying itâs weird at work. Without a doubt heâs talking about Chimâs absence, but the word âweirdâ itself threw me back to his choice of the same exact word in 414. So I do think that while the bigger issue is the guilt Buck feels over Chimâs departure, the fact that he was no longer being paired with Eddie added to that.
Which brought us to a scene with Taylor. Back in ep 408, she had told Buck (when she was hurt, angry and intent on getting back at him), that heâs needy and desperate for people to like him, meaning she knows these are sore spots for him. In this ep, despite not being angry or hurt, she said something very similar - that heâs making everything about himself. Ep 316 has shown us how much this idea hurts Buck, so I have to admit that I cringed. Especially when comparing this with Eddieâs words to Buck in 504, âyouâre the guy who likes to fix things.â Eddie sets Buck straight, yes. But he does so while seeing the good in Buck and reflecting that back to him.
I guess thatâs the thing weâre meant to see with Taylor here. In eps 501-4, she has been an absent gf (even when she was physically there). This is the first ep where sheâs both present and focused on Buck. And she tries to be a good gf in this ep, thatâs evident in the scene where she has bought him breakfast. Yet, throughout her scenes, she doesnât quite get it right. First, thereâs the fact that she did tell him something she knows would hurt him before he goes off to work, and itâs easy to tell that while her overall intention is to be reassuring, it doesnât quite land. Then, thereâs how Taylor tries to do something domestic for him, but everything about this screams that itâs not really her thing. She didnât cook herself, which is itself isnât that big of an issue, but sheâs also dressed more like theyâre about to go out for a night on the town, and add to this that sheâs pouring an alcoholic beverage into a cup of orange juice for a firefighter whoâs just come home early in the morning after a 24 hour shift, and itâs all just⌠itâs well meaning, but it IS off and ends up demonstrating that she knows how to celebrate and have fun more than how to be domestic and care for a partner. She does try, and Buck is clearly both surprised and touched by this. His surprise tells us that this is an unusual occurrence, and while he is touched, his reaction is also kinda subdued. His little âthank youâ is cute, and he smiles, but itâs shot in profile and some shade, so we donât really get its full effect. Compare that with the way he was absolutely beaming at Eddie in 504 and it was filmed from the front, in the open air and sunlight, so the shot was fully focused on Buckâs reaction. Then, after he updates Taylor on what heâs learned at work, he looks sad and she seems a bit upset as they hug. Presumably sheâs reacting to his sadness, and Buck is feeling down because while things with the 118 have been resolved, Maddie and Chim are still away. But again, compare this to how at the end of the balcony scene, with Chim and Maddie being away AND while being physically hurt himself, Buck actually looks happier than in this hug scene with Taylor. On top of all that, Taylorâs absence up until this ep goes undiscussed, which in itself spells trouble for them in upcoming eps (just think for example about Ana being there for Eddie to help him crack the mystery of whatâs wrong with Charlie in 413 while Eddie ignores the question of whether heâs following his heart when heâs with her). In 505, unlike the previous s5 eps, Taylor is actually making an effort. Sheâs trying to be a good gf, and yet sheâs still not the person who can bring Buck comfort in times of distress.
Not like Eddie can, when even at that dramatic dinner table, where Buck was vulnerable and expressed his guilt through his tendency to self-sacrifice for his team, Eddie jokingly asked whoâll be replacing him, clearly doing so in order to make Buck laugh. The first sign of anyone breaking through to him. Then, add to this that Buckâs answer is Bobby will figure it out. Meaning that even when Buck is at his lowest point, concocting this scenario where everyone on the team can be replaced by someone else, including himself, he still couldnât even throw a random name out there as a suggestion in response to that question. Eddie is irreplaceable to him.
And while weâre on the topic of that dinner, I just love every single thing Eddie does during the scene, every reaction, that question about himself which was clearly meant to tease Buck, the way Eddie reassures him that heâs stuck with the 118 (and how absolutely over the top content Eddie was over this fact⌠please, we all know he would never have let his baby daddy transfer away on his own) and of course, the part I just had to gif, the way he shakes his head in dismay when hearing Buck blaming himself for Chim leaving and the effect it had on the team. Of course the head shaking isnât anything seemingly out of the ordinary, any friend could do that for Buck. Yet, we have a scene full of people who love Buck and care about him, who donât want Buck to feel guilty or to leave, but itâs only Eddie that we see expressly shaking his head ânoâ at Buckâs words. More than that, Eddieâs actually framed in the same shot with Buck as he speaks. That is not coincidental and it speaks volumes IMO. In an ep framed by Buckâs gf trying to be there for him, itâs Eddie who is still Buckâs person, the one who knows him best and can make things better.
~~~ Thank you so much to the beautiful @judsonryderâ for making my meta better with her incredible gifs! If you like my perspective on Buddie, you can find more of my meta and fics here. Thank you for reading and for any like, comment and of course reblog! I read every tag, every comment, they all matter so much! xoxox
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