jhekjlhLKJH AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THANK YOU SO MUCH! I really love their expressions, then especially how much you can see what an inquisitive child Sorey is jlkkjh this is really great, thank you so much!!
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Hi, hello ! I just found your blog and woh how did I even manage to miss it until now ? (same for your ao3 like wtf) I just wanna tell you that your blog is quickly becoming one of my fave. I'm jut so in love ith how you draw the characters (especially Michael, can I marry that man please ?) everything is so smooth and pretty. Also a blog full of Michael, yes please. I love that man.
jhkjlehrkjth SORRY itâs taking me ages but man Iâm just really happy to hear that! I donât consider my stuff or this blog to be something really for a lot of people but Iâm always really happy to know that itâs good for one or two, because those few are exactly for whom these stuff are for LOL
IâM REALLY GLAD YOU DONâT MIND THE sheer amount of michboy tho jkerhljsh GLAD TO SEE A KINDRED SPIRIT!!
Secret Santa gift for @tamanegichipolla ! I really adore Lailah AND drawing Lailah because her design is amazing so I was pretty darn excited to do this! Hope you liked it!
does anyone even follow me for the sormik anymore, much less fics? hoo knos
the color of the wheat fields (5/?) ( part 1 | part 2 | part 3Â |Â part 4)
Thereâs something exciting, celebration-worthy, muted, and terrifying about thinking about a yearâs end.
Sorey doesnât really know how to describe it, exactlyâevery time it approaches he eagerly anticipates it then he thinks about all the things heâll leave behind and get terrified, but theyâre never bad days, those last days. Mostly just very yawn-filled. There are lots of festivities. Itâs just that in the lulls of the in-betweens, the darkness between two lights feel deeper than usual.
Itâs a stupid fear, honestly. Even heâs not buying it. New Years are great.
âSorey?â Mom calls from the kitchen. Sorey looks up from the chickens, thumb restlessly fiddling with the fodder meals heâs just gotten. Theyâre soft but ultimately rather squishy in his palm, which is kind of eugh when he thinks about it too long. âDid you pick up the cornmeal from Camlann yet?â
âI did,â Sorey answers, throwing the rest of it to the ground before dusting off his hands. Theyâre probably gonna run out of it in two weeks or so, though, so theyâd better get some soon after New Years. Though then again, he did see clovers and stuff, and thereâs no real shortage of worms around, if Soreyâs childhood is any indication. Theyâll be fine. âDo you want to make the cornflakes now?â
His bikeâblue and pretty new, just two years oldâis leaning against the wall, and the big bag of cornmeal is tied on the back seat. Itâs a tradition, here, to make snacks and just eat as they light a bonfire in the middle of the village, chairs circling it. And well, snacks for an entire village is a lot of snacks, and itâs not rare for them to get ready two weeks prior. With now being a week before the end of the year, theyâre cutting it just a bit close, but well. He and Mom work best when chased down with a broom called deadline. Aunt Muse and Uncle Michael have been busy making snowfall cookies these past few days, on the other hand. Theyâre really the best at itâso soft it seems to melt, with the powdered sugar coating them tasting icy andâ
âSorey! Come on, stop daydreaming about Mikleo. Or cookies. Whichever it is youâre daydreaming about.â
ââm not daydreaming!â Sorey calls back as he hefts the sack over his shoulders, sulking at the ducks passing by. Then, in a murmur, âyouâre daydreaming. Probably. Maybe.â
Contrary to popular belief, Sorey grumbles mentally as he makes his way to the kitchen, he does thinks about stuffs, sometimes. Sure, he acts a bitâwell, a lotâspacey and jump topics and stop and stares at the ground way too often too fast, but heâs not just dreaming.
Well, at least Mom doesnât get too on his case about it. His teachers do, though. His answers arenât always textbook answers, and while his old teacher appreciated his answers on their language arts class, the ones this year are really prickly about what he says on answers sheets, andâ
âSorey, cornflakes!â
âAll right, Mom!â
Right, so, past few daysâmostly goats, cornflakes, cornflakes, their garden, Lawrence with twenty bottles of soda pop. Food was communal whenever these type of festivities happen, partiallyâhe and Mom end up at Mikleoâs, where they fried up tofu after dinner, dipping it in some soy sauce with chopped up garlic and onions in between batches of snacks. Â Sorey knew that Uncle Michael had a thing for coffee, but he wasnât sure that it was normal or a good idea to drink it at 11 pm. He looks kind of like heâs ready to bike his way to Camlann at that very moment, which isnât really a good idea considering that a considerable amount of streets there tend to be chained up for the night, thanks to some old wariness for the military. They were gone when Sorey was two or three, but apparently despite the pretty short duration, its effects were long lasting.
Anyway, Soreyâs been eating the misshapen leftovers of the cookies. Ever since he was seven, Uncle Michael was banned from succumbing to his wide-eyed begging to make more misshapen cookies so Sorey can eat them without waiting for the New Yearâs Eve. Mom can be cruel sometimes.
âStop mooching off the cookies,â Mikleo chides as he elbows Soreyâs side, barely making contact from how his hands are holding on to big plastic containers filled with the cookies. Soreyâs just escorting him. Him and his cookies. The cornflakes are already at their places, so heâs just filling his time being nice. âI think you ate like half a kilo of the stuff already. Donât you get bored of it or something?â
âThe likelihood of that is about as high as me getting bored of ruins. I dunno, Mikleo.â
Mason is by the wooden pyramid, yelling and waving at Ed as they get the bonfire ready. Itâs seven, eight oâclock now, and everyoneâs out of their housesâfrom hunger, probably, because dinner is postponed until the roasts. Not on the bonfire, of course, but it usually starts with it, if only because thatâs when Ed hauls the coals from the storage. He can already smell the birds and chickens and corns, in the distance. The smoke tastes like excitement.
Sorey helps Mikleo place the containers on the coffee tables dragged out, nestled between bowls of cornflakes and berries and soda, cubed papayas and hot ginger milk tea. Behind them the fire crackles to life. Mom is bent over as she talks to Medea, whoâs starting to roast the chickens, while Aunt Muse is talking to Gramps, a plate of the cookies extended towards him. Eyes darting, his mind catalogues people, noises, lights, probing each sensation with the curiosity of a bird before hopping back, hopping on, and suddenly, it all feels overwhelming and not enough.
âSorey?â
Thereâs so much in this one moment, and it makes him think about the days beforeâtheyâre equally rich, arenât they? But he canât remember them all. But at least by staying in this year heâs still somehow attached to them, tethered by a thread, a common groundâ
âIâm going to get some soda,â Sorey says instead, moving back home for a cup. âWant some?â
Mikleo raises an eyebrow. âI think Iâll get the tea instead, thanks.â
âSuit yourself.â
Melody and Cynthia and Kyme wave and nod at him as he passes by, and Sorey grins in return. Itâs unlikely that it was even visible, though, he muses, smile fading with each stepâthey donât have street lamps, and the only lights are from the open doors. Thereâs tons of noise, cluttered like his house, but itâs the spaces in between the sounds that feel excruciatingly empty. He wants to cram everything into them, things that overflowed from the tight fits, like that concept of osmosis he learned this semester. Even it out, maybe. To divide them into memorable chunks.
He sort of needs to go back to the crowds, somehow. Heâs sort of scared.
As he stumbles home his eyes catches Uncleâs silhouette, sitting hunched on the front steps of his home, holding onto a cup by its rim. Heâs staring at the festivities, faint lights showing his tiny smile. Â Sorey makes a beeline for him.
Uncle raises his glass. Fizzesâsoda. âHey. Waiting for dinner?â
Huh? Ohâthe other half of the roasting team, the ones with the birds, are ten meters away. Itâs Natalie and Loanna and Shiron, so theyâre pretty quiet; Sorey almost didnât realize theyâre there, with how their hunched forms covered the fireâs glow. âNot really,â Sorey says. âJust kind of. Uh.â
Uncle pats the step beside him. âSit down.â
From here, theyâve got a sort of good view of the sky down to Camlannâthe town itself isnât visible, but Soreyâs seen enough of this scenery to guess whereâs what, and every year they always look there, because itâs where all the fireworks are. They donât do fireworks, hereâscares off the livestock. They have sparklers, though, for after dinner. Sparklers remind Sorey of what heâs going to lose, after the fizzling sparks disappear: an after image, too vague to be a concrete leftover, too long to disappear without a pang. It feels like crushing a can. Kinda like the realization that fireworks are gorgeous and exciting and awe-inspiring, but those five seconds are all they have, and afterwards nothing can ever really be like it again.
âHave you ever been scared of New Years, Uncle?â
âHmm?â Uncle takes a sip of his drink, unblinking eyes on the sky. âNew Years? Why?â
âMm, nothing. I justâŚâ
Like this world is something he loves, and he loves all of it? What makes it it is all the experiences and memories and losing it feels like losing a crucial part of who he is, because Sorey likes to gather all the tiny moments and sort them, tagging them to be reviewed later. Because all of itâthe sounds, the tastes, the feelings, the sightsâshape him to who he is now, and Sorey likes to know his roots. Because he wants to remember what it is about everything that makes him fall in love with the universe.
âI dunno,â he mutters. âI want to see the New Year, but I also donât want to leave this behind.â
âAh,â Uncle says. âThat.â
âYeah.â
Above, the leaves rustle with bats and winds. Some yelp and yells follow, filled with panic about the fires, but they all glide over his skin and just raise goosebumps.
âWhy does it scare you, Sorey?â
âWell,â Sorey starts, fiddling with his sleevesââLike, I mean, everything I am is sort of, uh, an aggregation of all I was and how I react to it? And. All my thoughts during all these years. The decisions. Itâs kind of scary to think that Iâll forget them.â
Itâs not something people think he has, all things considered. They think he likes living in the possibilities. And he does! Itâs just that, well, the past were also possibilitiesâitâs just that they were possibilities that he chose, subconsciously or not, and that makes them as valuable, too. He likes to understand himself. He likes to know why heâs doing the things he does right now.
âOh, you mean that,â Uncle says. âThereâs no real way to keep all that, thatâs true. The brain only has a limited capacity for informationâmost of what we experience is lost. But honestly, I think⌠It doesnât only have to be your brain that remembers.â
Sorey blinks. âHuh?â
Uncle turns his head, staring at him. âMost of your experiences are shared, arenât they? Itâs not just you who remembers it. And your thoughts⌠You can always write it downâshare it with the paper. Weâre not put in this world solely to rely on our own capabilities; we all have lived through so many things because we have resourcefulness, people to shoulder half the work. Thereâs so much we can do, but by distributing, sharing what we have to carry, what we do ends up being whatâs meaningful to us.â He takes a sip. The distant stare towards the night sky makes Sorey turn, too, to see what heâs looking at, and his eyes find the pale, blinking stars. âIt took me a while to realize that, too. But anyhoo, you should probably get back.â
âWhat about you?â
Uncle raises his cup, smile lopsided. âIâll join you all later. Food smells good right now.â
Itâs far later at night. The green glow of his watch is kinda hard to see with all the red and yellows but itâs nearing midnight, now, and everyoneâs buzzed up on fizzy soda and lots of sugar, laughing as an occasional firework fires off from Camlann. Soreyâs got one leg up on Mikleoâs chair, and Mikleoâs leg is bent and resting up on his knee. Theyâre kinda sleepy but one container of cornflakes is sitting precariously on Mikleoâs leg, tilted and leaning against his leg, and theyâve stolen a bottle of the lemon soda for themselves, sharing a cup as they munch. The packs of sparklers rest against their plastic chairs, waiting for midnight.
âCâmon boys,â Mom says suddenly, standing up. âItâs a quarter to midnight. If you want to watch the lightworks, uppity up.â
Sorey jostles, then Mikleo jumps, and they almost spilled everything. Mom swipes the cornflakes, though, and Mikleo just barely saves the cup, so Sorey grabs the sprinklers and hops to the balls of his feet, sleepily exhilarated. The muted sounds of celebrations echo down the mountainsâhe canât see the lights, but he can feel it bubble up inside. It would be so, so great to be able to bike down to Camlann as the fireworks fly, to feel the harsh cold air against his hair as his ears ring, but thatâs too lonely, and Uncleâs right. This is a moment to be shared, because itâs a precious one he wants to remember.
Mikleo sends him a glare. âCalm down, will you? We almost spilled the soda.â
âFireworks!â
In the end, itâs pretty much everyone who joins them. Even Gramps and Uncle have gotten up, staying in the far backâEd and Cynthia and Melody have sparklers of their own, too, while Mason holds the match. Mom taps her foot as she counts out the minutes. Five minutes, threeâthe light is on, and everything bursts into pale gold.
Sorey looks up, grinning. Mikleo is grinning back, and they wave their sparklers.
âMidnight,â Aunt Muse says, voice light with bated breath.
In the distance, above their ephemeral string of lights, flowers rain. Laughter is echoed by the muted bangs, cloaked and masked and balled up, but it feels free here, in this clearing, so it flies free. Theyâre at the edge of Elysiaâbeyond them is the road down to Camlann, the endless steps of fields that line it, the mountains. Beyond them is the world.
Mom kisses his cheek as she grabs his hand with a laugh, making a swish with his sparkler before letting go. Everything feels close together, that secondâlights, sounds, warmthâand when he looks up, when he looks up and sees Mikleo and Mom and the rest of his family, the silhouettes of his home, and he sees the after images of the lights, theyâre all the color of the wheat fields.
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Tucking all of this behind a cut for the anime-only people because it spoils for the entirety of the conclusion of the Iris Gems side quest in the game leading to the major story event in Lohgrin. This is something Iâll expect them to cover probably in the middle of the season, since itâs rather Plot Critical. Read on behind the cut if youâre okay with being spoiled or if youâve played the game.
I'm so damn sorry but I'm doing this while I'm riding off the courage of being really sleepy LMAO (also itâs like literally 1k words idk why anyone would read this)
At the point where he canât take being a Shepherd any longer, he retired. We know from the game that he wrote the Celestial Record and that it got somewhat popular in Hyland, Ladylake in particular, but there's not much weight to that, in a way. Then manga gives us him telling Lailah as a young teen that he'd like to write his journey as a book one day, to give people hope so that they don't have to rely on the Shepherd and understand that they themselves can make a difference. Then in the anime we see that he actually wrote /multiples/ of the Celestial Record, a big damn feat considering the /arts/ within that thing, which really shows that he intends to publish it. He really wants this to make its way around, because while he can't take the loneliness (and malevolence and the conflicts he himself has over his duties), he doesn't want to leave the world to fend for itself.
And I mean, the fact that he was made into a Shepherd at such a young age has really... big consequences? I mean, we all can imagine the things he's seen since we know about Sorey's journey. But like, consider this: you're 12 and alone, roaming the world-- Glenwood is NOT a nice place. Children get exploited and murdered all the time. Families were murdered for an art collection. Corruption is more than widespread. Zestiria hasn't been kind to its characters-- I can't imagine the world being kind to a 12 years old with no adult in tow. After all that, purifying hellions? A job taxing enough in game, then made a whole lot worse in the anime? At an age where nobody would really believe him? Sorey had validation from a royalty, however minor she is, and his age makes him a bit more credible than a 12 years old. That at least spares him from too much of contempt. That amounts to something.
And like, this entire age thing is a HUGE thing. He's still in his formative years, and he's already getting saddled with huge decisions, with salvation of people. He's expected to make decisions adults don't make until they're old enough to be admitted to higher positions of power. And like, thinking about it-- he's not old enough to differentiate between him and his title. He most likely doesn't know, hasn't learned to take a step back and go, "Oh, these people are just angry because helping them is beyond my power, and that they're just angry because they feel helpless and not because I'm a bad person." HE IS TWELVE. he is twelve. (breaks into tears)
And how does one expect him NOT to be distant, in the end? Lailah herself said, there are things that the seraphim can't help their Shepherds with-- I'm fairly certain that she's referencing a certain someone. After years and years of facing humanity's darkest emotions and forgiving them, shouldering the burden of knowing humanity's capacity to hurt each other, hurt the world, destroy everything, and after years of debating whether it's morally right to sacrifice one to save many, whether he should purify them instead because that's the Shepherd's powers, it REALLY can't be easy to not feel disheartened and empty. These are... people, like you. And the anime really shows that after a while, Michael starts seeing himself in the abyss he's been staring into, too. It's hard enough internalizing that whatever horrible thing anyone did, you could one day do it too, because you're not better than them. It's even worse when you know that if you ever succumbed to malevolence, it's going to be so, so much worse for the world.
It's easy to argue that "Lailah's there, Lailah is with him, she wants him to talk to her", and I agree that she does. But at the same time, Lailah is a Prime Lord. Would you confess to someone who lived for centuries and yet remained pure how much this duty is killing you inside? How you feel perhaps a bit hopeless and intensely lonely? When they're your only companion on this long journey? Would you tell them, imply that their companionship can't make you feel better anymore? When you know that they themselves must've felt intensely lonely, because they're an invisible race and because she was without a Shepherd for so long? In the end he hurts her with the same thing he tries to hide from her, but it's really, really easy to isolate yourself when nobody understands, and the only one who does shoulder a lot of burden too.
One last thing, I promise. Camlann was NOT sunshine and rainbows. After retirement, he keeps on his glove, he is still called Shepherd by some. Despite his retirement, his attempt to distance himself from his duty, he can't be divorced from the title of Shepherd-- because he has been one half his life. People still look up to him, he still has to make decisions for the livelihoods of a lot of people. There's also Maotelus. Then Rolance army rolled in. Maotelus was slowly getting corrupted, a thing he can't do anything about any longer. He can't abandon Maotelus anyway, though, so he sticks around. Then everyone was murdered-- something that could've been prevented if he'd actually told them to evacuate-- and Maotelus is definitely corrupted now. Muse's child, his nephew is in the middle of a huge fire. He leaps in. That child is suffering from at least third degree burns. That's when he breaks.
Like soymilkheaven said, this isn't like. Trying to justify his actions. Hate him all you want, I just want to say that he was a person, before he sacrificed Mikleo. A person who couldâve done much better? Yes. But honestly, itâs ridiculous expectations that demonize him, and itâs the same kind of expectations that the game in its theme tries to address, and Lailah tries to shelter Sorey from.
anyway now that ive written two entire pages of this imma just throw myself off a bridge bye
GOTTA TRASH FOR MY SON WHILE ITâS STILL HIP TO cry about michael at 3 pm
Infallible Creatures (2/?)
They finally get back to Celliwig two weeks later, legs sore and ready to give in.
Celliwig is a small village near the border between Hyland and Rolance, and itâs one tucked into the wilderness so thoroughly that itâs not even weird that sometimes it doesnât matter if itâs Rolance or Hyland theyâre inâeither governments donât really do much to exert their control over them, and they usually can just walk through and back whenever they need to trade with the village over the border. Lately itâs sort of hard to get to Hyland, thoughâborder disputes, the guard tells him, the resident of a village on the border that never really got brought up when talking about border disputes. At least that left them in peace, he supposes. Better forgotten than warred over.
When he stumbles into the premises, everyone looks up.
âMichael! Youâre still alive!â
âOh thank Maotelus, we thought you were deadââ
ââBrother!â And then thereâs that patter of feet, and Michaelâs eyes feel like theyâre five times lighter as he looks up and Muse is running towards him, a stalk of lemongrass in her hand. âYouâre back!â
Michael drops to his knees as she hugs him, and he hugs her back, forehead against her stomach. âYeah. Sorry, I walked.â
Walked is a very innocent way to put it, but he supposes that that is the point. Lailah leaves him and manifests behind him and Muse gasps, letting her grip on his hair go.
âOh! A lady seraph! Hello, Iâm Muse. Were you the one who got Micha home? Thank you very much.â
She takes a step back and brushes her skirt clean, and Lailah giggles. âSuch a polite young lady! My name is Lailah, and Iâm a fire seraph.â
âThank you then, Lailah.â Muse does a bit of a bow with one hand gripping her skirt, and huh, where did she learn that? Then she takes a look at him with raised eyebrows and pokes his shoulder with the lemongrass. âWere you lost, Micha? I told you going that far will do that. Good thing Lailah was there, you know, because you probably wonât go tell someone that youâre lost and then youâll just grow old in Ladylake and be a grilled fish merchant, I bet.â
Michael canât help but laughâit sounds a bit helpless, but he canât help it. âYeah, me too. I wouldnât want to be a grilled fish merchant.â
He no longer wants to be the Shepherd now either, but he will see this through anywayâLailah didnât save him from the aqueduct dungeon for nothing, after all. Theyâve been talking about what to do after he returns to Celliwig, like how theyâre going to talk to Valory and Eidhan and eventually Muse. Michael had taken to mulling over the former the entire trip; heâs trying not to think about how heâs going to explain to Muse that heâs going to do something not unlike what Dad did before he died.
He hopes she wonât hate him.
âMichael, good Maotelus, youâre alive, oh seraphââ and Michael looks up to see Eidhan dropping to his knees in front of him, looking ready to cry. âI asked the guards if theyâve seen you, and most of them said they didnât. There were several who said that you already left with some merchant cart and I thought youâd be back here butâthree weeks, Michael. Three weeks. What would your father say, good seraph.â
Michael looks up to Lailah and she shakes her head, an unspoken weâll talk about it later when Muse isnât here, and he turns back to Eidhan. âSorry,â he says. âI didnât end up on a merchant cart, but I didnât know if I could find you either, so I went back after it was clear that I wasnât going to be able to find you in the crowds. They went on for daysâŚâ
âAnd so you walked,â Muse says, amused. âYouâre stupid sometimes, Micha.â
âMuse!â Eidhan says, tapping her cheek. âDonât call your brother stupid.â
âWhatever,â Michael grumbles, letting go of his hug and getting back to his feet. His knees throb and his limbs suddenly surge with fire as he tries, but Eidhan pulls him up and keeps him steady, and it takes a minute but he can stand again alone, now, though his entire body is shaking. Now that heâs back, he feels like he can sleep another five daysâheâs got more bruises than he does whenever Muse gets nightmares, because they share a bed and sheâs a restless sleeper and she kicks his back a lot. Lailahâs hand is on his back, next to Eidhanâs, and together they push him forward back home, and Michael can only stumble forward like a newborn calf, Muse leading the way with that lemongrass of hers. Â
Sheâs kinda right, honestly. Heâs stupid. Thatâs how he got into this mess.
But sometimes, he can kind of hope that things will turn out fine.
They get back, and Valory feeds him, and heâs pretty sure heâs going to throw up if heâs told to finish his plate, no matter how starving he is. Lailah nestles inside him during the meal, because Valory and Eidhan are there and asking questions and heâs skirting around each of them, because Muse sometimes barges in and out and comes back with things related to her errands. He canât finish more than the potatoes and bits of chickenâhis stomach is too used to the sparse meals during their month on the road, though he eats as much as he physically could. He can feel his arms going limp, after it all. Thereâs still three fourth of the meat when heâs done.
âWhat happened, Michael?â Valory asks at last, tapping her ladle on the rim of the metal pot sheâs cooking roots for tomorrowâs meals, probably. âYou canât⌠do that and not tell us.â
He fiddles with his fingers, staring at them and the new stains on the tablecloth and the scratches on the wood. Theyâve long been scabbed and lined with dirt underneath his nails, but fighting and things added new marks, pinkish red even after all this time. There was a surprising amount of hellions even out of the way of the main pathâno wonder seraphim feel so threatened. âI⌠can we talk about it when Muse is already asleep?â
Theyâre both frowning, he can tell. He doesnât even have to look up to know.
âMichael, what happened?â
Michael pushes the slice of chicken around, saying nothing. âI went to the Sanctuary. There was this⌠seraph, and I talked to her.â
Eidhan lets out a long sigh. âMichael, youâve had this conversation before.â
Thereâs a warm tingle and with a gentle glow Lailah leaves him, manifesting right beside his chair. Her hands are in front of her, all professional and businesslike, but itâs hard to see her expression from down here. Michael hates to admit it, but heâs not exactly tall.
âI know,â he murmurs. âI know.â
His late father told him not to take his gifts for granted, but also not to be too⌠free with it. There were, are, very few seraphim around, and not all of the ones he met in his fatherâs trade travels were nice, but some were, and well, they looked lonely, usually. Or angry. In any case, regardless, Father wanted him to be careful about where he was when talking to the seraphimânamely, anywhere outside the public eye is fine. But well, the Sanctuary wasnât getting emptier considering the festival, and the Lady of the Lake looked ready to be swallowed by malevolence, andâŚ
âWe donât do this because we donât like you, Michael,â Valory says. âWe do this because we care. Though now I guess thereâs nothing much to do about it by now.â
âIâm the Shepherd now,â he blurts out. âLailah sheâsâsheâs my Prime Lord. She saved me, but I had to. I had to make a Shepherd pact. But itâs okay. I just. Iâm the Shepherd, and I.â
Have to leave Celliwig, probably. After there being no Shepherd in so long, or so said Lailah, the world is in desperate need for one; Michael can guess, he supposes, from all those stories theyâve had about what happens at that ruined temple at Aifreadâs Hunting Grounds. Heâs never been there himself, but he doesnât know if he wants to. Now he probably has to, though. Sounds like a place with a lot of malevolence.
âMichael,â Eidhan sighs. âDonât be stupid. Youâre youngâwhatever the Shepherd does, youâre too young to do it. And that means you probably will have to go around the world, leave your homeâwhat would Muse say?â
Eyes widening, he turns to Eidhan. âIâbut, but. I. IâŚâ
It was hard enough to even want to leave home like this, and then⌠Must he reallyâmust they really⌠Yes, what would Muse say? But at the same time, heâd promised. This isnât a small promise, and he knows objectively that itâs what he should do, maybe, sort of, but to hear this, to know that in the eyes of others he shouldnât, itâs. Heâs confused. He doesnât know what to take, in this case, because Lailahâs here too and sheâs hearing all this, listening to all of this, and.
âThey care for you,â Lailah says, hours later, when heâs back in his room and the sun is setting outside, all yellow and orange through the dingy window pane. Heâs sitting on the bedâhe wonders if Muse has been sleeping alone these past three weeks. Or maybe not. With a free bed, the others mightâve wanted that extra free space and sleep here instead of the equally crowded other bedroomâat least Muse is smaller than Ilesa, whoâs youngest and eleven and lanky. He wonders if they donât mind her kicks. Sometimes she gets bad dreams, though she rarely remembers it and often shrugs it off moments later, and whenever that happens sheâs restless. Whenever he feels particularly patient at midnight after being woken up with a sharp kick to the thigh, he doesnât restrain her with a hug.
âI know,â Michael sighs. âI just⌠I donât know, Lailah. Itâs probably most right to go regardless, I guess.â
âFamily is important, Michael.â Lailah takes a seat beside him, not minding the fact that she has to bend her knees quite a bit because the bed is low and the room is too small for her extended legs. âIâm not angry or anything. Whatâs important is that outside of pressures like these, what do you think you should do?â
âI donât know.â
Why must decisions be this hard? If he leaves, then whoâll be there for Muse? They have Valory and Eidhan and Ilesa and Minea and Dales, but⌠Itâs different, isnât it? To him it had always been different, in a wayâthen again, he actually travelled with Father, back when he was. Alive. MuseâMuse grew up with them, he supposes. In her infant years. Theyâre probably just as family as he is.
âI donât knowâŚâ
âMicha?â As the door creaks open Museâs head pokes in, and she perks up at seeing him. âOh, there you are. You really must be tired, huh?â
And with that she enters and closes the door, practically skipping to the bed before taking up the spaces unoccupiedânot much, since heâs sitting and Lailahâs sitting and this bed barely fits him and Muse, probably wonât at all once they get olderâand leaning against him. Michael leans back against her, too, just a bit; he missed her, and at least she misses him, too. Her arms are around his waist, tight. Lailah politely says nothing as he strokes Museâs hair, smoothing out the tangles that formed. Her hair is pretty short, but sometimes, when they wake up early enough, sheâd make him braid it; it doesnât get past two or three plaits, but it keeps her hair neat, and she looks a bit less Musetta and more Muse that way.
âKinda am, yeah,â he says. âGlad to be back again, though. Wâre you, Musetta?â
Muse buries her face against the back of his shirt, rubbing her cheek against the fabric. ââŚThanks, Lailah.â
Their positions are awkward and his arm is hurting from the strain of reaching back and his waist is locked in a weird position, but he canât do anything. He doesnât want to, anyway, because he doesnât want this moment to ever break.
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Also sure, where should I hit you up with them? I'll be slow since I'm still raiding and then will probably be tabletop gaming after, but I am definitely up for talking about the AUs I will Never Finish.
TAKE YOUR TIME! Anywhere is fine, really?? I can even give my skype if thatâs easier LMAO