ArtistForHobby

So I took two white xans yesterday and drank .. alot and thought I just passed out to a movie or playing video games .. naw apparently my step mom saw me all stumbling and talked to me a minute and said I was up til like 5 am balling my eyes out over my ex and worrying about my dad overdosing .. I felt fine before the black out I guess that shit just unburied those feelings ... Then I hurt this girl's feelings I've been kind of talking to and like fuck man.. That's why I'm glad I'm gonna live alone where I can't hurt anyone and can die alone when I so please ..

I low-key hope I get something laced with Fent.. atleast it'd probably be an accident 🤷

When I'm in a bad mood or just having a really fucking boring day my cravings get so bad man.. like I wanna do blow or down a bar or three with some liquor like fuck man.. Never thought I'd get like this when I was a kid or when I got older but here I am ..

I was so close when I tried last time ... I'm sorry to my family for doing that to them but damn was I close ... Oh well though what's done is done, here's to continued drug use with liquor wit vague hopes I o.d again