#sadboy

yesterday night i ran into my highschool crush as i was walking down the park with my friends. i think he's the prettiest boy i have ever seen but, unluckily, and as you can already imagine, he is straight and, most importantly, he is dating another girl. that's basically the barest description of my entire life. i'm so fkng tired ngl. he only waved and smiled at me and i think i got as red as an apple afterwards. gosh, i really would like it if he could reciprocate. dammned nature and the games she keeps playing on me. why me? was i a murderer on my past life? like. I need a cigarette and Born to Die on.

being a gay boy in a small, rural town is actually destiny's biggest joke on me. What do you mean i've never ever had a boyfriend at 18, had to see all mi friends going forward with their sentimental lives, whereas i have to wait to move out for uni to just get a glimpse of feelings towards me? not to talk about how shitty it is to fall in love only with them straight dudes jst bcz they treat you with the bare minimum level of human decency. Pretty sad rn. I'm gonna go smoke

Someone tell me to stop before I get hurt again