The Devil Drinks Vodka

Tuesday April 21, 2026 ~~~ 1 year alcohol free I don’t know how I feel. Happy and proud of not drinking alcohol, but not really happy where my life is at. It’s a lifetime from where I was at that first year one back in March 2020. What the heck happened? I lost almost every single person I was close to. Not literally, but we no longer have the same connection, and most I barely talk to anymore.…

Tuesday March 3, 2026 ~~~ Day 316 This year I realized that January is my least favorite month, followed by probably February. I really get seasonal depression disorder and by the end of January I always seem to hate the world. February holds promises of love & light, especially as the days stay lighter longer. March is spring!! It may come in like a lion, with a mess of snow & ice, but each…

Sunday February 15, 2026 ~~~ Day 300 It’s been kind of a strange week with hubby gone (he’s watching niece and nephew at his parents, along with their dog). I was more than ready for him to leave for the week, and curious to see if I’d even miss him by the time he was done. I was kind of scared that I wouldn’t miss him. I’ve been feeling a lot of irritation with him lately – over nothing…

Sunday February 8 ~~~ Day 293 I absolutely hate January. It’s such a cold, dark and depressing month. I guess I’ve really realized it since I had that psychic reading that predicted a year of many lessons, 2020. I was nervous to start the year, hated January and was so excited when February came, then even more excited when March arrived. I’m almost 1/3 of the way done with this year! I would…

Monday January 26, 2026 ~~~ Day 280 It’s a fabulous Monday today because school is cancelled due to the snow and cold. The only thing not fabulous is that it’s been super cold here and Jules and I haven’t walked in over a week, I think. I do not see a walk in our future today, maybe not this whole week. I’m embracing wintering, and have started getting fat. I was doing great with working out…

Wednesday January 21, 2026 ~~~ Day 275 At age 48, I’m finally starting to feel like I belong here, in this world.  I didn’t even realize how completely out of place I’ve felt for most of my life. It’s only during the times that I feel okay and like I belong that I realize how not-okay I’ve been for what seems like my whole life. I’ve never felt okay. Except maybe at the bars in my 20’s with…

Monday January 12, 2026 ~~~ Day 266 I can’t say I’m super thrilled with life right now. Sadness is in the air. It’s cold, and dark and heavy. I see things going on in the world, or in our country, and I long for the days of the 90’s, where things were so different and seemed so easy and calm. I wonder if during the 90’s my parents felt the same as I do now, but they would be thinking of the…

Tuesday December 30, 2025 ~~~ Day 253 Winter break has been pretty great! Family parties were exactly how I expected them to be. I combated any anxiousness/irritations by keeping control of my thoughts and feelings. For the first time probably ever, I was completely chill for both parties. Usually there is some bit of anxiousness for a variety of reasons– all of the fault of others, of…

Wednesday December 10, 2025 ~~~ Day 232 Things are a little better than okay, but basically life lately has been a mixed bag. Shortly after writing the last time, I started vaping and taking edibles again. It’s so stupid because I was feeling good and proud. It started when I decided to try this “healthy” herb puffer that is supposed to relax you. I puffed and puffed and decided that, yes, I do…

Tuesday November 4, 2025 ~~~ Day 197 The good news is that I quit vaping and taking edibles about 10 days ago. The bad news is that the Universe hasn’t been very kind to me ever since. I’ve felt run down and tired since quitting and then was quite flu-like over this past weekend. Yesterday I went to the doctors and tested positive for both Covid and the flu. Is that what I get for stopping one…

Monday, October 20, 2025 ~~~ Day 182 It’s a great Monday because this is fall break! We have today and tomorrow off, but go back on Wednesday (boo!). At least it’ll be a nice, short week. It’s been a great day so far. I had a pilates class and then ran into Kroger for a few things. I’m about to have lunch w/hubby and then going to take dog for a walk. It’s a cool day, but so pretty outside with…

Saturday October 11, 2025 ~~~ Day 173 For the first time in a LONG time, I’m starting to feel better about my life. Since Covid, many things have changed in my family, things that are very sad to me. All of the nieces and nephews I was so close to, I’m not anymore. I feel very unliked and disconnected, and I’m not sure how to fix it. Up until a few years ago, I felt like I was a good parent.…

Friday, September 26, 2025 ~~~ Day 158 It’s just past 5am, and even though it’s Friday, I can’t help feeling a little bummed. Yesterday, as we were getting ready for school, our water pressure dropped significantly. Shortly after, we got news of a water main break. I told my son they might cancel school. It was the perfect fall day, like sunny and 70, and they did in fact cancel school! It was…

Monday September 1, 2025 ~~~ Day 133 Happy Labor Day! We celebrated yesterday with a small get together at our house, so today was reserved for chores, errands, etc. I was eager to have a productive day. Sadly, things didn’t go as planned and I’ve been at the ER with the dog for about 3 hours. He’s ok, but his eye is bad again (the real one, not the prosthetic). I think it’s just a scratch on…

Sunday August 24, 2025 ~~~ Day 125 It’s been super busy around here, I haven’t had any opportunities to even think about drinking! Going back to work last week was pretty good. My classroom is ready to go for Monday. Some of my walls are bare, so we’re going to have to do some crafting– which isn’t something I was able to do a lot of as a resource teacher. I’m actually really excited to…

Thursday July 31, 2025 ~~~ Day 101 Like always, the summer is cruising on by. We leave in two days for our annual family vacation in Tennessee. Then, hubby is off the following week (which means we may stay home all week and try to get stuff done- or we might take off to the island for a few days, we’ll see how the dog does with us gone the first week..). And that’s a wrap- I go back to work the…