this is not your destruction // hiatus

"I am a monument to all your sins."

"I'll do whatever you want."

"Then perish."

"Violence for violence is the rule of beasts."

"To become a god is the loneliest achievement of them all."

"I survived because the fire inside me burned brighter than the fire around me."

"If the world chooses to become my enemy, I will fight like I always have."

"If the zoo bans me for hollering at the animals I will face god and walk backwards into hell."

"Everything that we know and love is reducible to the absurd acts of chemicals, and there is therefore no intrinsic value in this material universe."

Hypocrite that you are, for you trust the chemicals in your brain to tell you they are chemicals. All knowledge is ultimately based on that which we cannot prove."

"Will you fight? Or will you perish like a dog?"

"Do you think god stays in heaven because he too lives in fear of what he's created?"

"You've got to make a statement. You've got to look inside yourself and say: What am I willing to put up with today?"

"What is better: To be born a god, or to overcome your evil nature through great effort?"

"Pick a god and pray."

"I see now that the circumstances of one's birth are irrelevant; it is what you do with the gift of life that determines who you are."

"And remember that bad times are just times that are bad."

"Can you feel your heart burning? Can you feel the struggle within? The fear within me is beyond anything your soul can make. You cannot kill me in a way that matters."

"Decay exists as an extant form of life."

"Flowers wither away. Jewelry are simply stones, decorated with fake beauty. I can give you something pure. Honest and undying love."

"Impermanence does not mean insignificance."

"Death is the ultimate destination, but we all makes stops along the way."

"And if the devil ever was to see you, he'd kiss your eyes and repent."

"Someday you will have to answer for your actions and god may not be so merciful."

"Please be patient, god isn't finished with me yet."

"We deserve a soft epilogue, my love."

"There is no 'advocate'. Men are the devil, and when you speak it's with his tongue."

"I am decayed. My lungs are full of thorns and mildew. My bones are held together by vines. I am fragile, be gentle with my corpse."

"You are a thief and a murderer. You have killed a baboon and stolen his face."

"I picked a whole fuckin' bouquet of whoopsie daisies."

"It's not that deep? Maybe not originally, but the ground is soft and I'm ready to dig."

"When you look at someone through rose coloured glasses, all the red flags just look like flags."

"This is hell's territory and I am beholden to no gods."

"Bury me shallow. I'll be back."

Words:

‘you don’t want to do that.’

‘you’ll regret it if you do.’

‘touch that and i’ll put you out.’

‘i’m beginning to think this would be much easier if you were unconscious.’

‘my boss is very upset with you.’

‘do as i say and no one needs to get hurt.’

‘it would be such a shame to spoil that pretty face.’

‘you won’t be acting so tough when i’m done with you.’

‘you’ll be leaving here in a fucking ambulance.’

‘you’ll be leaving here in a fucking body bag.’

‘i could snap you like a twig.’

‘look at you. you really think you could take me on?’

‘don’t think i won’t hurt you. i will.’

‘you’re not as important as you think. i don’t need you alive.’

‘don’t think you can weasel out of this one.’

‘what are you going to do? scream? no one will hear you.’

‘keep your hands where i can see them. no funny business.’

‘do that one more time and i’ll…’

‘you may as well give in now. don’t bother stringing this out.’

‘no one is coming for you.’

‘it’s not yourself you need to be worried about.’

‘don’t kill me? oh, it’s not me killing you that you need to be worried about…’

‘i could keep you alive for days.’

‘no one will ever find your body.’

Actions:

[ LOOM ] the sender stands uncomfortably close to the receiver.

[ PROD ] the sender prods the receiver in the chest with a finger.

[ PUSH ] the sender pushes / shoves the receiver.

[ BACK ] the receiver backs away from the sender.

[ PLAY ] the sender conspicuously plays with a weapon in front of the sender.

[ POINT ] the sender points a weapon directly at the sender.

[ TELL ] the sender orders the receiver to move / do something.

[ QUIET ] the sender leans in to whisper something to the receiver. 

[ TOUCH ] the sender touches the receiver’s face / hair / similar.

[ CALL ] the sender takes a call from their superior in front of the receiver. 

❝  don’t be ridiculous,  there’s enough room on this bed for both of us. ❞ 

❝  please stay.  i don’t think i can be alone tonight.  ❞

❝  i’m staying,  okay?  you don’t have to be alone tonight. ❞

❝  you shouldn’t be alone right now.  i’ll take the couch,  it’ll be fine.  ❞

❝  will you sleep with me?  i know how that sounds i just mean—  i feel safe when you’re there.  ❞

❝  i’ll be here the whole night okay?  nothing will get to you while i’m here.  ❞

❝  wait— have you been here all night?  ❞

❝  i thought you went home after i went to bed.  you didn’t have to do that— you could’ve at least joined me in bed that couch is shit for sleeping on.  ❞

❝  can i stay with you tonight?  i don’t wanna go home yet.  ❞

❝  it’s late,  you might as well just stay here.  ❞

❝  can you just…stay here?  and hold me.  ❞

❝  i know this might sound weird but,  do you wanna stay over?  i guess ‘sleepover’ sounds kind of childish but.  i think it’d be nice.  ❞

❝  i’m not expecting anything,  i just,  thought it’d be nice to keep you company tonight. ❞

❝  i don’t have nightmares when you’re there.  ❞

❝  i get you’re doing the whole protective thing— and i appreciate it.  i do,  but there’s no reason for you to stay awake all night.  might as well come to bed.  ❞

❝  thank you for staying.  it just gets so lonely at night sometimes.  ❞

❝  i don’t want you to be alone tonight and honestly,  i don’t really wanna be alone either.  ❞

❝  do you wanna stay with me tonight?  ❞

❝  stay,  please.  ❞

❝  i’ll stay.  ❞

❝  i’m staying.  ❞

❝  i’m staying.  end of discussion.  you gotta learn to let people take care of you.  ❞

❝  i’m not ready to say goodbye yet.  ❞

❝  i don’t wanna have to say goodnight.  ❞

❝  honestly i can’t sleep,  so if you wanna stay up with me?  ❞

❝  i don’t sleep a lot either these days.  we can be insomniacs together.  ❞

❝  well,  i can think of some ways to wear you out.  ❞

❝  if you can’t sleep,  there are other things we could do.  ❞

❝  i’d rather fuck than stare at the ceiling counting sheep to be honest.  ❞

❝  it doesn’t have to mean anything,  i just don’t wanna feel lonely tonight.  and i want to feel good for once.  ❞

❝  please don’t go—  i need.  i need someone—  i need you.  ❞

❝  the night doesn’t have to end here,  you know.  ❞

❝  i like it when you’re here.  so stay.  please?  ❞

❝  you’re just as lonely as i am.  might as well be lonely together.  ❞

❝  you can stay but i’m not letting you sleep on that couch.  ❞

❝  chivalry is overrated,  get in my bed.  ❞

❝  you’re clearly exhausted.  you can go in the morning.  ❞

❝  you don’t have to pretend to be fine,  if you need me to stay i will.  ❞

❝  when i said i wanted everyone to leave me alone i didn’t mean you.  i can’t handle everyone else right now but you…you’re different.  ❞

❝  you need someone right now.  and i’m the one that’s here.  let me be what you need.  ❞

SCENARIOS

[ GUARDED ]  sender insists on staying the night to keep watch over receiver who has been in some kind of danger. 

[ GUARDING ]  receiver insists on staying the night to keep watch over sender who has been in some kind of danger. 

[ UNEXPECTED ]  one muse stays the night to keep an eye on the other after something traumatic and they end up having comfort sex.

[ CONSOLE ]  sender asks receiver to stay the night because they don’t want to be alone and they end up cuddling.  

[ CONSOLED ]  receiver asks sender to stay the night because they don’t want to be alone and they end up cuddling. 

[ ACCIDENT ]  sender winds up staying at receiver’s house all night because receiver fell asleep against them/in their lap and they didn’t have the heart to wake them. 

[ UNPLANNED ]  receiver winds up staying at sender’s house all night because sender fell asleep against them/in their lap and they didn’t have the heart to wake them. 

[ STAY ]  sender is carrying receiver to bed because they fell asleep somewhere else but when they start to walk away,  receiver grabs their hand so sender joins them in bed. 

[ STAYING ]  receiver is carrying sender to bed because they fell asleep somewhere else but when they start to walk away,  sender grabs their hand so receiver joins them in bed. 

[ APPROACHED ]  sender is staying with receiver for safety and asks if they can sleep in their bed with them. 

[ APPROACH ]  receiver is staying with sender for safety and asks if they can sleep in their bed with them. 

[ SHARE ]  sender is unexpectedly staying with receiver overnight,  receiver insisted sender sleep on the bed while they take the floor but sender winds up insisting they join them in bed. 

[ SHARED ]  receiver is unexpectedly staying with sender overnight,  sender insisted receiver sleep on the bed while they take the floor but receiver winds up insisting they join them in bed. 

[ FOUND ]  sender is staying with receiver who had them take the bed while receiver takes the couch.  in the middle of the night,  sender goes out to join receiver on the couch because they don’t want to sleep alone. 

[ FIND ]  receiver is staying with sender who had them take the bed while sender takes the couch.  in the middle of the night,  receiver goes out to join sender on the couch because they don’t want to sleep alone. 

[ DISCOVERED ]  receiver wakes up in the morning to find sender asleep on their couch because sender was watching over them. 

[ HAVEN ]  receiver wakes up in the morning to find sender asleep on their couch because sender felt safer with them. 

[ WEARY ]  sender cries themselves to sleep in receiver’s arms. 

[ TIRED ]  receiver cries themselves to sleep in sender’s arms. 

[ PROPOSITION ]  one or both muse(s) are having trouble sleeping so they have sex to pass the time. 

[ PURPOSE ]  one muse can’t sleep so the other initiates sex to wear them out. 

[ TRAPPED ]  one muse ends up staying the night with the other due to a storm. 

“ babe, wake up. “

“ you okay? “

“ i had a nightmare. “

“ you’re safe... “

“ are you awake? “

“ you woke up screaming. “

“ i need a minute. “

“ it just felt so… real. “

“ wanna talk about it? “

“ i’m here, okay? “

“ it's the third one this week. are you sure everything's okay? “

“ just hold me. “

“ you almost rolled out of bed, hit your head. caught you last second. “

“ will you stay up with me? “

“ it's just a bad dream. “

“ please don’t go back to sleep just yet. “

“ want me to spray the monster under the bed? “ “ “

“ can i stay with you? i had a really bad dream. “

“ here, take my hand. “

“ you kicked me... “

“ it’s just a bad dream. “

“ hey, look at me. look at me. it’s not real. “

“ wake up! “

“ i can't breathe... “

“ c'mere. lay with me. “

“ hey… are you crying? “

“ i'm glad you're here. “

“ hey, what’s wrong? “

“ let’s stay up for a while. “

“ this is so embarrassing... “

“ i woke up screaming? “

“ probably woke the entire neighborhood... “

“ you wanna tell me [about your dream]? “

“ it was like a horror movie... “

“ you good to go to sleep? “

“ i’ll stay up with you. “

“ i had a really crazy dream. like... really crazy. “

“ i think i’m gonna stay up for a while. make sure you're okay. “

“ you’re crushing my hand. “

“ hey, calm down. calm down. you’re okay. “