desert phone booth

“How do you see yourself in the future? -I don’t see myself in the future.”

I don't know how many times I survived myself without telling anyone.

“I can bear any pain as long as it has meaning.”

“I don’t like myself very much, so i try not to observe myself too often. I made a documentry once entitled Talking heads . I asked people “who are you”& “what do you want” afterwards i asked myself those questions . I realized that i didn’t have any answers . I don’t know who i am and what i want . If anything really, i’d like some peace and quiet, but i’ve never achieved it , and i probably never will. so i will never have what i really want.”

I have just come to the conclusion that no matter how hard I try, it just isn’t enough.

I think about dying but I don't want to die. Not even close. In fact my problem is the complete opposite. I want to live, I want to escape. I feel trapped and bored and claustrophobic. There's so much to see and so much to do but I somehow still find myself doing nothing at all. I'm still here in this metaphorical bubble of existence and I can't quite figure out what the hell I'm doing or how to get out of it.