I deposit my essence and my darkest tastes in the purest form here. (even though I know no one gives a fyuck and no one'll read or see it).

sick and obscure thoughts that I write sometimes end up here too, this blog is also a kind of "diary".

ⓘ apologize if my text seems strange, English's not my first language.

don't be surprised by the formal and polite way I speak and act; my personality changes completely from minute to minute... yes, I can hurt/disappoint you.

and I'll.

۶ৎ slavic ghost, 20+, INTJ, born April 7.

۶ৎ diagnosed with BPD, major depression, and ana. (the holy trinity as I like to call it).

۶ৎ addiction to opioids, nicotine (cigarettes are already an accessory in my hand). also love pod, vape, (anything electronic with a fruit flavor) and energy drinks.

۶ৎ my favorite food is instant soup, I like savory broths too. (I have a problem with solid foods, so my diet is basically liquid).

favorite drink is iced and very sweet hibiscus tea. (sweetener, I don't use sugar)

۶ৎ I collect teeth, rosaries, plushies, magazines, and CDs and DVDs. (love and parked in the 2000s!!!).

my favorite color is literally all shades of green.

I have some facial piercings and many, many tattoos.

I have permanent dark circles, it's almost like they're part of my huge set of scars. xaxaxa!

incredible as it may seem, I am a person who loves politics.

I have a degree in pharmacology and I am also a CNC operator (computerized numerical control).

my only dream was to join the Navy, but unfortunately my life took another turn.

obsessed with the military, it's an immensely passionate fixation.

I love to read and write, in all I already have 7 diaries, along with some notebooks of random thoughts.

I love to draw too...

my favorite book of all time is "The Desert of the Tartars" by the Italian writer Dino Buzzati.

I'm webdesigner, well... I was. I ended up putting that aside after AI started creating images with just commands.

ⓘ I have a weird writing tic where I need to put periods at the end of any sentence, word, or emoji. please... don't be surprised by this.

until the beginning of this year I made edits and posted them on TikTok, but after losing my best friend to depression, I gave up on all that.

۶ৎ DSBM is the musical genre that like and listen to the most, also take it as a lifestyle, after all...

sadness is something too beautiful to not being romanticized, isn't?

btw, my Spotify is a total mess. (I also have a passion for eurodance). ˙𐃷˙

my favorite song, if you even care:

۶ৎ don't leave my house (even my room) for anything, I'm scared to death of socializing in person and have the feeling of being watched and judged all time. I love my room...

so... I just get high on pills, listen to music on my headphones and lie down staring at the ceiling while smoking. (yeah, that's how all my days are)

ah! I use tags in posts only to ASSIMILATE what my aesthetic ""fits"". my romanticization of life and my style doesn't have a name.

I don't like labels, I don't fit right into boxes.

۶ৎ despite the creepy (freak) and weird aesthetics and appearance... let's say that I'm a puppy in terms of personality. XD