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Every time I come back to my yearly Star Trek: Picard fixation, I am more and more convinced Narekâs biggest sin was being an antagonist in this poorly written show. The hate he receives is strongly blown out of proportion. He is not the big bad evil people make him out to be. I would even go so far and claim that he isnât even an asshole as many like to view him (more on that under the cut).
Most of the times, he starts being snappy when pushed into a corner. It is a defence mechanism for the most part to either create space for himself or be heard. If we look at his relationship with Narissa, we can clearly see this happening on more then one occasion. If he stays calm, she walks all over him. The moment he begins to unpack a bitchy attitude and fires back, she starts to listen and takes him more serious.
More hypothetically, the same could have happened all his life. If we look at Chabonâs notes, he was an outcast in his family from the very beginning and engaged in problematic behaviour to be seen since his efforts in fulfilling the role of the ideal Romulan got buried when Narissa always shone brighter than him. If you canât be the best, be the worst.
Moreover, he got kicked out of the Zhat Vash, certainly not helping his social standing point either. Then, we can also ad the Tal Shiarâs brutal methods of brain washing and manipulation et voila, even worse now.
Funnily enough, Narek is defensive while not standing up for himself. He certainly is stubborn, has an attitude and (somewhat fragile) self confidence but doesnât manage to brake free on his own. Even if a side of him is self aware enough to feel the wrongness of it all, a life in the cult and Tal Shiar is all he ever knew. So he bites the hands that feeds him, rebels but always comes back in the end. A burning house still brings warmth after all.
If we apply this to the plot of the first season, we can notice how he constantly is one of the first people to throw the punch but also the one easiest to settle for a situation and compromise. While first speaking to Raffi and Rios, their encounter was hostile from both sides but as each side realised they do not pose a threat to each other, they were able to have a respectful conversation. He mirrored their attitude but tried to negotiate and got himself together (he was the one who wanted their help to begin with so it was a necessity).
Now Elnor comes in at the campfire and starts rattling with his knives and instead of defusing the situation, Narek adds fuel to the fire which could have very well started an escalation if Raffi didnât take the chance to intercept them with a question. Once this energy was gone, he started to behave again.
Next example and more of an interpretation, his time in the synth prison. If we look at his body language, he is very relaxed with Saga. He tries to manipulate her into opening the door and despite his gaze to the sharp brooch, I strongly believe he would have just knocked her out if he had to escape on his own (plus it was mostly to pin the murder on him despite us later knowing he didnât do it). He clearly hesitates to harm her. He sees no purpose in harming her, she is not a threat. He is not being a manipulative little shit here but an agent on a mission.
Compare that to his reaction when he first saw Sutra. Oh he wanted to POUNCE the only reason he didnât was because he probably realised fighting something superhuman would be a dumb idea. As soon as Sutra comes closer to him, you can see how he stops in his tracks, freezes. How he tenses and readies himself for a fight. His hands and arms are in front of him in a position that would allow him to react fast. With Saga they were clasped. The moment she extends a hand to him, you can see how his eyes widen as if expecting to be hit or choked out any moment, only slightly relaxing into caution again, as she strokes his cheek instead. He is not stupid, in that moment it was very clear Sutra wanted something from him.
His silence and tenseness can also be read as plotting something evil, especially after Soji told him to go fuck himself, but I would argue it was, again, defensiveness. Not only defensiveness, he was terrified in that moment. This is more of an interpretation and loosely connected because as an agent, of course he is always ready to fight. What struck me was how intensely his demeanour shifted. Unhappy with his situation and trying to coax out a favour versus ready to fight for his life. His extreme reaction and careful readings of the people in front of him speak of someone who has internalized this pattern beyond survival. He is ready to fight first, ask later and overly sensitive to social clues around him.
It reminds me of a mistreated cat that hisses and claws at everything remotely threatening. Hurt is before it hurts you. In return, if it starts to realise that nothing bad is about to happen, it stops and maybe allows some pets.
As already mentioned, we saw this best during the whole interactions with the la Sirena crew. Everywhere else has been constantly stressed and put under pressure. As soon as he decided "yeah fuck this" and deserted, he noticeably changed which enough people realised too. A lot said, that they enjoyed his character most in episode 10, where he started to show more of his true personality. Narek is a victim of donât show, donât tell, build something with the three scraps we throw at you and maybe a fourth one you can get when following interviews and show writers.
If we look at it from a story telling point of view, he is clearly set up to be a character further explored in the next season(s). We get an introduction in the first season where we are not meant to sympathise with him since he is one of the main antagonists. Then he helps the main cast and opens an opportunity to leave his old life and now we can get to know the true him, his backstory and gain understanding. This includes Narissa too. At least she would have been indirectly fleshed out when getting to know more about their background. She is a victim too. Probably taking on the role off the better sibling and trying her best to fulfil a guiding role she is clearly not fit for. It is easy to dislike Narek, since he wasnât supposed to be liked yet.
The complexity and foundation was there, everything just ended up all over the place. Story points were dropped, build up that never paid off, concepts introduced but never explained, now there are plot holes so deep they could form a new galaxy, characters that feel incomplete and one dimensional⌠We quite unmetaphorically lost the plot somewhere. The show was clearly rewritten at some point. Definitely season 3 wasnât planned as it was. Even season 2 feels⌠letâs kindly say questionable in characterisation choices. Maybe the newer concept for season 3 was already planned and now they needed to do something with the rest of the cast.
However, on a different note, it makes me a little sad how everyone cherishes Elnor who is arguably a direct parallel to Narek. Elnor choose to embrace kindness and handles his trauma in a more socially acceptable way. Not to forget, he had a working support system that was kind to him, even if it was clear he didnât fit in, they still tried their best to raise him. Picardâs abandonment cut deep but he still had a home to call his.
Elnor tries to find his belonging while only knowing and embracing honesty, kindness and openness. He is naĂŻve and didnât learn to grow up. Narek tries to find his belonging while only knowing deception and manipulation, pain and secrecy. He is distrustful and grew up too fast. He is still extremely young too (by romulan standards), just acts extremely differently. They are the same but so very different. Both have a flawed perception of the world while embracing different extremes. In another world they could be friends and help each other grow.
In conclusion, Narek is the result of an unhealthy environment but instead of being visibly traumatised (* see below), he snaps and shows "assholeish" behaviour. If we would have gotten the time to actually observe some character development maybe we could have seen a different version of him. He would possibly be more witted and know the time and place to make snappy comebacks. Currently, a lot of his words and actions are intended to hurt.
I will even go and jump the gun to say, he is not even remotely a bad person and actually pretty caring and soft hearted. We just never got to see past his defensive side. The closest we got was during his team up with the crew where he acted more like an actual person and not a narrative device. Put this man outside this toxic environment, into therapy and give him a tight hug and he would start to shine.
*Visibly traumatised as in showing conventional traumatic behaviour patterns such as panic attacks, extreme friendliness, low self esteem, people pleasing all in all, more submissive and appeasing behaviour. Narek acts more inwards when he is confronted with something possibly triggering. We see many times were he looks far into space while talking (during the campfire, when talking to Narissa in many instances...). If we made a huge jump, it might be dissociation. Disconnect himself in situations he can only endure. He is silent and at the same time very expressive in seemingly standing up for himself.
Off topic: Ough I have so many fan fiction concept ideas. Maybe I should write about him again... Maybe just something little as some headcanons as a treat...
Just me yelling into the void and organising my thoughts regarding some of the new content now that a possible Sumeru AQ is on the horizon and Snezhnaya hiding behind the next corner.
This is a Dottore centric post featuring: Dottore and relationships/ different perspectives, some comments on story points and thoughts on a possible redemption arc/ how his story might end.
1. Dottore and relationships â There is more than one truth
Dottore and the Harbingers
First of all, the other Harbingers are allowed to hate Dottore, since he certainly doesnât show them much kindness. He simply doesnât know how to.
Sandrone is allowed to hate his guts since she only ever had bad interactions with him, as well as Arlecchino who probably first handedly experienced some of the consequences his deal with the earlier Knave had on the House of Hearth and the children. This has nothing to do with their characters being watered down to appease the traveller.
In return, Dottore is allowed to feel sad and disappointed, that none of his colleagues are on his side. The latest AQ showed his warped sense of human interactions and connections. He is unable to understand why the others despise him, since he is doing everything right according to his past experiences.
Both of these perspectives influence each other and make the matter worse. None is trying to have a conversation and get possible misunderstandings out of the way and neither side is entitled for one. The other Harbingers only see Dottoreâs actions and possibly rumours that rose over the centuries and understandably distance themselves from him. Actions speak lauder than words and even they can't justify them. Dottore sees this as validation. He is a monster and unable of connection, without realising, his behaviour is the very reason he drives others away.
Both feelings are valid, both parties are entitled to feel the way they do. They coexist. It is not poor Dottore and evil Harbingers ostracizing him neither poor Harbingers getting targeted by Dottore.
Sandrone was right in joining forces with the traveller. Dottore pose a massive threat, it is one hundred percent reasonable to team up in defeating the bigger evil. Dottore wanting to achieve his own goals, killed Sandrone out of self defence and not out of malice. His words reflect his personal feelings and betrayal which we have touched above, but werenât the reason for his actions. She stood in his way, as well as he stood in Sandroneâs.
Same goes with Columbina. Sandrone posed a passive threat (we will talk about this later) while for all they knew Dottore wanted to destroy Nod Krai in his ascend to godhood. Of course she also tries to eliminate him, despite having been close in earlier fatui days.
Speaking of them, is Columbina right in silently distancing herself from Dottore since his treatment of her made her feel uncomfortable? Yes.
Is Dottore allowed to feel sad and confused since again, to his knowledge he did everything right and as was taught to him? Also, Yes.
This is not waifuslop Columbina trying to appease the traveller, it is the logical course of action. You can dislike the way she turned out to be and criticise it without resorting to hateful language.
To sum things up, there is always more than one truth. Dottoreâs failing to understand human emotion and pushing everyone away while yearning connection and a place to call home is what makes him a tragic character and funnily enough human. At the same time, others perception on him not only helps to flesh him out but them as well. This is how relationships work.
Both perspectives regarding all these situations are valid, and should not be used as a got you moment towards each other. It is part of a bigger picture but a lot of fandom discourse only interacts within their own bubble and doesn't try to understand the complex dynamics of relationships and interactions. You don't have to like a character but you should be able to at least acknowledge said complexity of dynamics.
People can enjoy their favourite characters but should not bring others down to make them shine. We can criticise behaviour and actions without resulting to misogynistic speech or comparing real life criminals to pixels. Additionally, making fun of a characters death or making up and describing ways to painfully kill them is loser behaviour. I am sorry, get a life. Even if you donât like them, there are people who do. Donât spread energy you donât want to receive. Commenting is optional, if you see content that makes you result to the things mentioned, scroll. (This is obv. not only about Dottore but fandom discourse in general in case this wasnât clear.)
2. Latest controverse narrative decisions
The People he hurt being the one to defeat him
The whole revenge plot might be satisfying to think about but would be terrible from a story telling perspective, at least with how the involved characters are portrayed so far. I will mainly talk about Scara/ Wanderer here but same applies to characters like Collei as well.
Revenge is glorified by the media. In reality, it is far from satisfying. All it does is constantly reopening wounds. You are the person who ended it and thus the person forever cursed to relive every moment leading up to it. In the long run, it hinders your healing process or might destroy it entirely.
Scara is beginning to form a life and bonds outside his hatred. Not his desire for revenge brought him acceptance and a better life but the willingness to let go and heal, choose himself. Yes, he can help in defeating Dottore and help his friends but in my opinion he shouldnât be the one to hit the final strike. He deserves to live a peaceful life and not be haunted by what happened to him.
I see their relationship similar to Columbina, familiar. Dottore connected to Scara on an emotional level which lead to him projecting his feeling and world view onto him in a twisted sense of showing his care, resulting in ruining Scaraâs life. In turn, Scara saw Dottore as a form of mentor or at least felt closeness (he adopted a lot of his habits after all). Killing someone this close to you, segment or not, will always haunt your mind and rip open the band aids you applied.
Dottore the scapegoat
Yes Dottore is a villain. Does this mean he needs to be involved in any major thing happening in Teyvat somehow? No.
Even if well explained, it is a little cheap but okay I guess. The bigger problem is that it takes chances away to create other, complex characters existing ones and possible new ones as well. Every Harbinger is far away from having clean hands. We as the players just donât feel it, since the game doesnât touch that subject and rather chooses Dottore to carry the entirety of the Fatuiâs evil acts on his shoulders.
Another notable fact, he is the only one who hurts characters we know and newly on screen too. Everyoneâs elseâs bad actions happen off screen and are easy to neglect and oversee. Especially with them being playable and focusing on their positive character traits, we can simply ignore it.
How interesting would it be to explore different conflicts and allow each character more complexity.
Sandrone - Confront her with the fact she wanted to colonize Nod Krai. Have a few soldiers whisper about some awful protocols she ordered them to follow in case the nation rebelled against their efforts. Have her have a heavy conversation with Columbina or push her to attempt justify her actions.
Arlecchino - Have one of the orphans flee from the House of Hearth because they do not want to be a child soldier. Have them oppose her believes and challenge her moral standing point. Arlecchino can genuinely care for the children but that shouldnât automatically mean no one questions what she does with them. She has her own trauma shaping her management of the House of Hearth.
Scara - This man has suffered enough, maybe just let him reflect on his own behaviour and acknowledge his own role and actions. It could be done in his healing arc. Dottore dying wouldnât solve the problems he has himself, it is just a convenient excuse to ignore them (once again, the writing allowing Dottore to take all the blame).
Child(e).
Pierro - This man literally collects traumatised children and adults left and right as if the were Pokemons and enables their violent tendencies. We do not know how far this manipulation lies but I canât imagine that he (and the Tsaritsa) wants them to heal. Especially Dottore needed to have a deep hatred for the world to fulfil his role in the organisation. If he truly was a teenager when he was recruited, they could have gotten him help and steered him to a less destructive path. This was literally the time were that was still possible. Pierro also was the one allowing Scara to join their ranks and enable Dottores experiments. I can see him and the Tsaritsa fuelling the hatred slumbering in every Harbinger regardless of their mental health status. The Fatui are not a charity, everyone fulfils a purpose.
Pantalone - Already catches strays left and right while only having like 2 voice lines. He is no saint for sure but framing him in such a negative light before he even makes an appearance is a bit sus. Either he is the big bad and the earlier mentions were flattering in comparison or he is used for a future plot twist. Remember how Childe and Scara talked about Columbina and how she turned out to be. If he was just as the character described him to us, it frankly would be a bit boring.
Pulcinella - Does not catch strays left and right and we also only have 2 voice lines. This man is literally responsible for Childeâs recruitment. Childe himself is still, well, a child and not as poisoned yet. The information we have on him seem incredibly biased. With him being the mayor of Snezhnaya, he surly plays a big role in handling international relationships and interest of the nation. He surly is not harmless and merely has himself better under control than Pantalone who we know has some serious anger issues.
I need Hoyo to address and flesh out the Fatui as an antagonistic organisation so badly. Not to evil scale but as to have more complex dynamics and story as well as character growth.
The power of friendship
Was Dottore defeated by the power of friendship? No.
They discussed a plan and worked together. Effective strategy is not the power of friendship. As much as it would be interesting to see the traveller loose for once, it would obviously not happen here. The stakes we know of (possibly planned or just an illusion besides) were far too high, he needed to loose.
Was the whole friends, family and home talk corny and rose some hypocrisy? Yes.
Was it a absolutely ridiculous, that in the last few seconds of the battle Dottore went afk and just watched everyone beat him up in awe? Also, yes.
That was what spoiled the otherwise good story arc for me. Nefer kicking the literal second harbinger who in reaction just let it happen without doing anything against it was a bit silly. It was not necessary that it happened but the build up. Dottore didnât even brake a sweat in fighting them before, then Columbina comes, gives a moving speech and he instantly evaporates into a million particles.
It made sense for Sandrone to die.
As tragic as Sandroneâs death was, it was a very safe story telling decision. Someone needed to die. You can not tell me a false God wreaks havoc and everyone inside the main cast emerges without a single scratch. Someone needed to die and Sandrone as a mechanical being that could be repaired later and is confirmed playable in the future was a save choice since in the long run, it wont really matter anyway. The situation also deepens the characters (and players) hatred towards Dottore and explains a possible future conflict between him and the Fatui. It also allows more sympathy towards Sandrone and explains her playability (she sacrificed herself after all).
3. Dottoreâs future and possible redemption
First of all, I am not hellbent on the idea that he should stay evil for the rest of his life. It would be a 100% acceptable and logical decision I would enjoy too but wouldnât it be more interesting to allow some growth and shift of perspective Dottore values so much?
Personally, I like redemption arcs, as long as they make sense for the narrative. Redemption is not being the next hero or winning mister nice guy contest but choosing to reflect on the past and move towards a less harmful and healthier path. Most redemption arcs are simply poorly written and rushed, concluding in an ending which is unsatisfactory and makes no sense.
For Dottore, it would indeed make 0 sense if he suddenly turned all friendly and docile but for his own good, I can see him moving to a more antagonistic vs straight up villainous. He will never be a good person but he can be a little smoother around the edges. A teeny tiny bit "better". Really just a little bit. He can still hold some of his core believes but act a little less harmful towards others (either by choice or changing circumstances directly effecting his research).
Lobotomised
Not that far fetched and also not a bad thing per say. Wait, hear me out on this one. As we recently learned, a body can split into multiple parts of itself. So what if OG Dottore either used himself or a new segment as a vessel. He split his self into multiple versions that are all connected. They can individually not only gather perspectives and unique view points but also change his fate. The dead segments could be still connected to the alive ones and freely access the Ley Lines and Irminsul and do some fuckery in there and adjust it idk.
Death can brake a fate in one sense. If you die, your life is finished and you are free. As all those fragments die, they return to their original body. But since they in theory are all dead and hold all the memories, the vessel wakes up without them (Donât ask me about the logistics, I donât fully understand the lore and possibilities of this it is super complicated and changes every week). Of course he has taken notes and is trying to regain them through a newly forged connection line to access Irminsul, which was only possible through the segments and their special tasks.
This would open the door to understand Dottoreâs past as we discover it with him, as well as allowing him to do some self reflection. Since we build a real connection with him this time, Dottore can reflect on his past relationships and maybe be a little more open and aware of others needs. After this change in perspective and returning to a complete self he stays almost identical to as we know him but takes an effort into embracing what is left of his humanity. It might be interesting to see how someone who rid himself of human emotions by ignoring them for too long, try and do the best with what is left.
He is not a sadist, pain brings consistent results, is a necessary evil or unavoidable. He doesnât really care for his own emotions and very likely loathes them since they interfere with his work. A true scientist should be 100% neutral, shouldnât he? How would he react when there is a possibility of containing the same effectiveness but reduce the pain. How would he react when he realises being human is not a weakness but a strength.
This might be a crossroad where he can truly change his fate, decide to refuse to be a heretic any longer and fully embrace his research for research purposes instead. I feel like a Dottore that regains his memory and has a fully new unbiased perspective at first might be the only scenario where he can truly change as a person. Otherwise, he is in way too deep and stuck in his ways. It would need something earth shattering for him to change his ways in the current state he is.
The traveller works as a catalyst here, offering a helping hand but either Dottore does all the important work on his own or his existing social circle (the other Harbingers, Columbina, Pantalone maybe even Scara) challenge his perception and engage in an honest conversation for once.
The other route, were he genuinely has and never will obtain his memories is a huge no. Extra minus points when he helps us defeat himself. That would be not only lazy but a horrible end for his character. Let him finally brake free from his shackles, his inability to change as a person despite constantly praising finding new perspectives. Let him brake free from the fatui (in- or directly) controlling him. Let him realise he is his own person and can now decide a fate he wants to see for himself.
This is what I want to see for him. Not him fulfilling his fate as being a heretic, since most if not all heretics fail their goal and die, but rise above it. This doesnât need to mean that he "wins" in the end but that he can win himself, choose himself for only once in his life. This can also happen while teaming up with the traveller otherwise but it would be much more difficult to reasonably explain than via this route.
Evil Omega
Omega and the segments strayed from OG Dottoreâs will and he is a victim. HELL NO. Everything about that is bad. Celestia nail him before that please.
An unexpected ally
We might meet a form of Dottore that is more friendly or open for honest collaboration. Omega is the segment we interact with the most and especially selfish, vile and cruel but he is a fragment of his overall personality. As much as I like the Omega build and enjoy this characterisation, he is the least likely to be involved in any form of redemption or playable character routes. If a version of the Doctor dies for good it will be him. Nothing can justify or excuse what he is currently doing, him being playable or buddy up with us would make little sense. Everyone (rightfully) hates this mans guts. It can happen though.
Other versions might very realistically be more mature and easier to be around. No redemption here, all the character development happened years before and off screen. Maybe just working together either by choice or to fight a bigger evil. Same as the other Harbingers, we kind of just brush everything under the carpet and ignore it.
Dottore possibly has some information that will make us see him a little bit different in the future. Maybe we need his help or get a new perspective on things that would justify a team up. Maybe the game tries to go a âit was necessaryâ route, Dottore said he had no problem playing the villain if it meant progress. It might also justify him being able to win (lets be real, he will never win the final fight, at least not against the main character) while staying on his villainous path.
Off topic, it would be so fucking funny if Omega is like "I am the best and most competent version of myself" and OG Dottore or another, older segment just goes "Who?" or badmouths Omega into oblivion.
No redemption, he dies
Unacceptable, will not happen. It would add to his tragedy, a heretic trying to be everything else but a heretic, only embracing his name and succumbing to his inevitable defeat. His face when he realises his whole legacy explodes into his face... It would make sense and he would deserve it, it is just not something I would like to see.
He either lives or dies in the end of 6.6. You canât tell me he just disappears into the void after we finish the game and/ or his story arc. If his story does not end in 6.6 (I might be biased but I don't think it will, it will just be a major turning point and end this chapter of his story) it is a foundation for the future.
We bond with him during his and Pantalones wedding
Allowing him to join us would be our wedding gift to him. Jokes aside, I hope they can have retain their "friendship". Let them have each other if the world doesnât want them (I will cry and die inside, if it turns out Pantalone is just using him too).
Somehow being connected to the Abyss
He sounded as if he knew our sibling or what bigger role they play. Him also never directly researching on it and the Abyss being the second biggest evil in this game... I donât even know at this point. Everything is possible.
Or a mix of some of these elements or something else entirely. I know it is a bit of wishful thinking but with everything that happened to Dottore it would be amazing if he can have some kind of happy end or at least inner peace. If he should die, he should die in a meaningful way and not as a narrative tool. If he survives, he should be allowed to live in a way that is meaningful to him.
Conclusion
Dottore is a character with so much care and effort going into him, I am positive Hoyo will finish his story arc in a satisfying way. With so many open questions and new characters, very likely before or in early Snezhnaya release (ideally he keeps showing up past this but we will see) Everything else would be a waste of resources and time invested in him.
If anyone made it this far, thanks for coming to my ted talk. Remember, these are my opinions and interpretations, don't haunt me down, thank you. This started with 4 main points but escalated a littleâŚ
Just some queer headcanons for Adam, Haddie and Ji-Woon/ The Trickster in honour of pride month I couldnât get out of my head. Some of them are inspired by ships and character dynamics but also work individually.
Adam Francis - Bisexual:
-Growing up in Jamaica and itâs hostility against queer people, Adam always considered himself to be a straight man even though he very vocally voiced his support for gay people and was strictly against the ongoing criminalisation and restricted rights they faced.
-When he moved to Japan, he experienced a more open culture and got to know a lot of queer people himself, lotâs of them being his own students.
-As a consequence, he quickly became a trusted teacher in topics regarding the lgbtq+ community and students unofficially announced him to be the to go teacher when facing discrimination, planning events or simply having a person to talk to.
-When one day during Adamâs free time, another man approached and started flirting with him, he felt flustered and while surprised engaged into the conversation further.
-Even though he didnât want to label himself straight away, he considered himself to be bisexual and was curious to explore his sexuality and identity further.
-Taking a trip back to Jamaika, Adam was unsure of how and if at all approach the topic with his uncle. Finding out sooner then later, his uncle was deeply taken by surprise but quickly understanding and supporting as always. In an uncommon showing of warmth, he even gave Adam an old family ring supposed for his future wife and told him that even when the object was meant for him to receive at another point, he hoped that Adam was able to give it to the person he loved, regardless of their gender.
Haddie Kaur - Lesbian:
-While growing up, Haddie always knew she was into other girls. Boys never peaked an interest in her and even as a young teenager, seeing all happy couples, she rather hoped to be asked out by a girl.
-As she finally found a word for it, she wore it proudly and always advocated for herself, even convincing some of her homophobic classmates to rethink their behaviour.
-Her adoptive parents and brother were more than supportive and subtly ( in fact not so subtly) tried to play matchmaker.
-With her work as a monster hunter and podcaster, she was busy travelling around the world and having a girlfriend wasnât necessarily a things matching her chosen lifestyle. Her visions and âsuperhumanâ instincts not even included in the equation.
-When a few long distance relationships ended in heartbreak, she began removing herself from the active dating life and let fate take the lead.
-She would be surprised to find out, that right after taking that decision, she stumbled across a gorgeous young woman, just as wild and strong minded as herself.
Ji-Woon Hak/ The Trickster - Asexual, Pansexual:
-Ji-Woon never cared about gender norms and designated clothing. He wore what he wanted, made his make up how he wanted and presented in a way he wanted. Even in his youth. This earned him a few snarky remarks and insults from his classmates who never seemed to like him very much. It was just another aspect they could voice their dislike about him further.
-Throughout his whole life, he never really felt any attraction towards other humans. The lambs would just get into his way and never live up to his standards, even though he often yearned the love and warmth a relationship would bring. His music fulfilled him enough, filled the void inside him and made him feel alive.
-He knew the gender of a fictional partner wouldnât matter to him, since every human would love and spoil him the same.
-Unexpectedly, he finds himself falling for a man on a casual day in Seoul. He wasnât special, he wasnât unique but still a part of him attracted Ji-Woon like a moth to a flame. This was when he found out, that when in the rare case he felt romantic attraction, it wasnât beautiful butterflies in the stomach. His insides burned and filled him with an unbearable desire to be at this personâs side forever. He was an obsessive lover, he would make them stay, make them feel worthy to be at his side.
-Due to his strong feeling of completeness at the persons side, he valued the emotional aspect the most. Sexual encounters never sounded appealing and he only considered it when together with his new found person, even when he would never initiate something himself.
-For the sake of his career, he kept his desires and sexuality to himself, not that he needed anyone to know. They would still adore their perfect God after all, wouldnât they?
-The only person he eventually told was his father who just gave him a tight lipped smile and changed the subject.
-Secrecy and policies didnât stop him from showing his support for the lgbtq+ community though. During pride month, he liked to wear subtle colour schemes, hinting at pride flags and his own identity. Moreover, he liked supporting posts with his business account or left a short but vague comment. Yun-Jin always almost ripped his head off but the attention of the media, theories and screaming fans (via comments, clips on Tik Tok etc.) was worth it.
As I scream into the void seeking a Narek RPer to play against, I have finally caved and must explain why I want this Romulan loungelizard to be more popular. (It won't happen, but I can dream.)
Reasons I like Narek as a character that nobody but me gives a shit about:
Let me preface this with a fact about me: I know Romulans.
I've RPed as Nero for almost two straight years in a large game. I've basically learned Rihannsu back to front for the endeavor. The person who played my Ayel and I both dumped countless hours into developing grammar and extrapolating cultural rules. We were dedicated to making them as believeable and accurate to canon as possible.
I have the whole timeline of the destruction of Hobus/Romulus down to memory. I know about all the neat little tidbits and trivia from comics and adjacent materials etc, etc.
This is to say: I have read and written quite a lot about Romulans in my time. I am very familiar with how they work and what data is available to draw from when writing them.
We do meet a few rank and file military Romulans from time to time, however. So we know how the general military operates in direct contrast to the Tal'Shiar. Caution and secrecy is sort of baked into their culture, which makes a lot of sense given that they're constantly at war with basically everyone, but they aren't (generally) unreasonable people.
In canon Trek, Romulans are often a little over the top with the sneaky-backstabbing-untrustworthy-nonsense. They're almost comical with how much scheming they do, but most of the Romulans we meet in canon are Tal'Shiar. The Tal'Shiar are known, pretty explicitly for the depth and breadth of their sneaky-backstabbing-untrustworthy-nonsense. It's kind of their whole deal, apart from mnhei'sahe (literally the ruling passion honor).
Narek, however, was a child when Hobus went supernova. He is from the very last generation that had any living memory of Romulus. (Elnor is also from this generation and they are great foils for each other, but that's another essay.) Narek is from a (presumably) respected family of--if not Tal'Shiar then Military--operatives. His aunt held high rank, his sister did as well, and both were inducted into the Zhat Vash, an organization that worked so quietly and efficiently that even the famously paranoid Tal'Shiar thought they were a myth. They orchestrated catastrophes and manipulated Galactic law to their ends, one of their members was the head of Starfleet Security and Narissa was on a personal basis with her.
Their underlying culture is present, but it isn't explored very deeply in any one canon source. Taken collectively, however, it is just as substantial as Klingon Battle-lust or Ferengi Capitalism.
Nero was a break from the norm, not because he was vengeful, but because he was the first non-military Romulan we'd ever really seen. His designs, the tattoos, the crew of his ship with their very un-Romulan loyalty, the way he talked and sought equivalent exchange of lives (mnhei'sahe), was a wealth of Romulan culture that we hadn't ever seen. He was a regular Joe, had a regular non-Military job, trusted and worked with aliens to try and save lives. His failure (not his fault) was something he absorbed and sought to rectify in the Romulan way.
Nero was super interesting both for how much detail he cast on Romulan culture, and in how he slotted into the Prime Timeline. Nero was a guy desperately clinging to hope, to the last vestiges of his civilian life, but he was cut free by the destruction of Romulus and set adrift. The only anchor he had in the AOS timeline was his honor and the driving need to balance the scales and restore it.
Narek, however privledge his family was, was a washout. He was a failure. We know he wasn't Zhat Vash, and whether he was even Tal'Shiar is up for some serious speculation. He doesn't act like military officers, and only seems to be play-acting as a Tal'Shiar, miming his sister when it suits him.
Narek may have had authority on the Artifact, but it was probably by dint of Oh granting it. We never get any clarification whatsoever about his rank or dayjob, just that he is fully devoted to helping the Zhat Vash. He is analytical, prepared, but he is not good at thinking on his feet and clearly does his planning off screen. He's meticulous but not especially skilled at hiding or regulating his emotional state. He is far less aggressive and stalwart than just about every other Romulan we've seen...except for Nero.
He was literally a placeholder sent to keep tabs on Soji. He didn't even arrive until Narissa had failed to capture Dahj. That Narek managed to get close to Soji, that he discovered her dreams and correctly surmised what they are, was more luck than skill. Before his assessments the Zhat Vash knew that Dahj (and Soji) could be activated out of their cover, but they assumed that they could capture them. They probably assumed they could torture the data out of them, if not dissect them and rip out a harddrive.
Narek found an easy way to get right to the information they needed. His attachment to Romulan culture is his puzzlebox--Before Nero we had never met a Romulan civilian and before Narek we have never met a cultural Romulan who plays with a toy, we had never seen a child's toy like that. Of course, the puzzlebox (Tan Zhekran) was a mechanism to illustrate his thought process, to make the differences between Narissa and him very apparent, but it was also something from his childhood (presumably). It's a weirdly personal affect for a Romulan and he fidgets with it almost constantly. It's a tell, something he shouldn't have, and it makes him accessible on an emotional level.
Narek is a civilian.
He's a civilian in a family of spies and operatives, raised alongside his sister on the same stories, with the same care. There's no way a Zhat Vash didn't have a family home on Romulus. While Elnor is a nice example of the new generation of Romulans, Narek is one of the last examples of what is used to mean to be a Romulan. He saw Romulus and escaped with all his surviving family when it as it was destroyed. Narek was raised on Romulan tradition (private names for family), Romulan stories about the end of the world, and he is haunted by them because he knows they're true, they're real. His sister and aunt have seen it, seen the message that drives people mad, about Ganmadan. His living relatives have dedicated their lives to preventing it and, even if he isn't actually Zhat Vash, he does the same.
Narek is a failure, by his culture's standards, by his family's standards, but he is also the only one of them who lives in the end.
He's a civilian who is trying, desperately, to avert another Romulan apocalypse. He has already lived through one and somehow this next one is even worse. Like Nero he sees the writing on the wall--but instead of doubling down on the traditional sneaky spy shit, he tries something new--unlike Nero, it works! He makes headway where nobody else could.
Unfortunately, it's kinda fucked up, but he then gives up everything in the pursuit of this goal. (Which to him, seems like a noble one.) Narek gives up who he is (by playing at being Tal Shiar), his safety (he has no idea what Soji is capable of or what might set her off, they only have records of Dahj killing a dozen agents before being blown up), and eventually resigns himself to killing the woman he's fallen in love with (the baseline requirement for giving out his real name). He does it all for the greater good, to save people and he doesn't seem to make much of a distinction between Romulan and other organic lives. He has his little plans, tracking La Sirena in a single cloaked ship, hiding his presence to tail them, firing on them despite being wholly outmatched, allying with Sutra however temporarily, trying to sway Soji again, turning to Rios, Raffi, and Elnor for help--he's willing to do anything because he's terrified that everything is about to end and it will be him who failed to prevent it.
The very last shot we see of him, after his plan to detonate the transmitter fails completely, is him on the ground being dragged away by the Coppelius androids. He doesn't posture or threaten, doesn't say ominous shit like the other Romulans we're used to--He begs. He claws at the ground, trying to stay, and he begs. He pleads with Soji, calls her his love, tries that last ditch hail mary because it's all he can do. He fails his task and she's the last person he can reach out to and, in the end, despite the very real threat to her life, Planet, and Picard, Soji smashes the transmitter. The apocalypse is averted.
Narek failed but he also succeeded. His aunt is dead, Oh has been outed as a traitor, and his sister is killed by Seven of Nine. In a cut scene, apparently, Narek was supposed to be arrested by Starfleet. So he's facing (at the very least) retribution from the androids and the ExBorg. Starfleet is very likely to arrest and interrogate him, if not imprison him indefinitely since he has ties to the Zhat Vash and, subsequently, will be on the hook to explain the Utopia Planetia disaster. Soji hates him, for good reason, and his homeworld is long gone. Narek has nothing...but the world was saved.
Narek is singular because he's all about needing and interacting with other people, he has no real authority, nobody he commands. He's a civilian (insofar as any Romulan can be) and is a soft, emotional boy who hangs on to his childhood toys. He's driven in equal parts by fear and a deep sense of failure, like everyone else in the show, and he takes the steps that seem right and necessary to him (also like everyone else on the show).
Narek was a great contrast against Elnor in every possible way--from his evasiveness to his fear of death--and he was a great foil for Soji. On Coppelius, Soji's terror clouds her judgment and she very nearly does terrible things to protect herself. Her actions, her opinions, her hesitation were all driven by fear. The ends seemed to justify the means. She reflects Narek's state for the whole show. Season 1 is about finding safety and meaning.
Narek is afraid for the whole duration of the show and his choices all reflect that same desperate need to find permanent safety, to live. Soji exists on the peripheral of that with the Ex-Borg, and as a synthetic, and then she falls headlong into it after his betrayal. Narek regrets trying to kill her and the symbolism of his losing that box, of him trying to kill her in a room that is so very culturally Romulan, right after telling her his name, makes it very clear that killing her is killing some piece of himself. But the ends justify the means. He can and will give up everything to save the world.
And his last line in the show is desperately pleading with the woman he loves as he's dragged away.
Then we never see him again or get anything resembling closure for Soji or Narek.
Which I will be big mad about forever, because they didn't even get the bare minimum acknowledgement and closure of "moving on and living life is paramount because it is finite and beautiful ". Nope. Nothing. I'm furious forever.
Thank you for coming to my TED talk. I hope if Star Trek Legacy happens we get Narek as a sort of...side character creeper informant ala Garak. I also hope we get Soji on Seven's Enterprise because I love her.
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Imagine being such a lazy and incompetent writer, that you not only forget to give one character closure but at least two.
Rant incoming:
You can do so much with Narek's character and I would have loved seeing him getting a redemption ark, exploring the cult of the Zhat Vash and interacting with other people than his sister. Dang, let him realise that he has been brainwashed since his childhood, allow him to overcome his prejudice and trauma with the help of Laris or even Elnor and make him a powerful ally through the plot, which could have been so strong and interesting to watch. But no. They literally forgot about him and Chabonâs clarification, or better his planned fate doesn't make sense. Why should he be brought into federation custody?
A) What he did was horrible, yet inside of romulan space and under romulan laws dedicated towards a then illegal life form who has most likely signed a contract agreeing to said laws and possible consequences of conflict with the police/ the Tal Shiar. As a result, they shouldnât be able to arrest him for anything since he was also way too young to be involved into the destruction of Mars.
B) Moreover, he recognised his mistakes and showed a will to work on himself. Prison will only make him loose that short window of change of mind and harden his believes, since he spends the whole time with himself and we all know how thoughts can spiral into hate and frustration rather than understanding and reflection. His whole world collapsed around him and instead of taking the shot to work with him, they leave him alone with his thoughts and the urge to find someone to blame for his misery?
Even though I am heartbroken to what they did to the La Sirena crew, I felt like they had some sort of resolution inside the seasons and their arcs, not perfect or satisfying but still (we donât talk about how the writers ripped everything apart in season 3, that is another essay worth of rant). I deeply mourn for what could have been and are beyond mad they threw out Soji and Elnor so fast. It just felt cheap. I can understand why they did it with Elnor, to give Raffi a motive to work through her guilt for manipulating him (which kind of got brushed off and came out of nowhere so idk why you couldnât leave him in there and work through it alive and together).
For Soji, why give us Core when you donât plan on doing something more with here than give the actor and Spinner something to do. How great would have been it, if Soji met her look alike and got to understand the origin of her âbloodlineâ and the reason behind her creation, something she desperately longed for. Let her find acceptance for herself and the confidence in her skin she deserves. Let her be more than some diplomate and a tool to portray the conflict between Agnes and Rios. The money I would give to see both of them coming up the agreement to work together and Sojiâs decision to change her job from an anthropologist or doctor (I am not sure what her profession fell under) to an ambassador. SHOW US, please. To be honest, I canât see Paramount doing a show with the watchers and Core, so why waste that time with a plot you could have given to a character already established in the season before, a whole audience was thrilled for?
And Laris... Cutting her off for nostalgia porn and claiming it was out of budget? How cheap is this please?! She deserved way better and not being tossed in the trash so carelessly by so called fans! If you donât want her in the main storyline, fine. Just give her an ending. A sentence or brief interaction. She and Picard were literally a couple, so why deny her the interaction with Beverly and her stepson?
You can say what you want about star trek Picard but I think we all can agree on one statement: Picard has been such a massive mess in terms of carrying the plotline, characters and ideas throughout the seasons to a point were it almost felt like they have been completely different series from the beginning. Every season had such an unique idea and character developments, which got tossed aside and completely ignored in later episodes.
I know enough people have talked about this already but I needed to get it out of my system.
I started writing this ridiculous essay in June of 2021 after I watched season 1 of Picard. @shadowinthefire found a post from back then about the fact that I was writing this whole-ass essay and asked if I would post the essay itself, which I never finished because I decided it wasnât worth it to start fights with people (and I gained enough distance from the specific irritating exchanges I had about Narek, reported in the essay below, that they were no longer actively pissing me off).
I put the whole thing under a âread moreâ link because I realize that most people will not care XD
Finally someone who got a multi-layered expression on his character, I like your take very much and just can agree. It is so refreshing to see that. For real, we canât have a civilised discussion theses daysâŚ
This triggered me to unleash my rant I spiralled in my head since the show was aired now as well. I just finally need to get it out my system somewhere for my own sakeâŚ
Even though this might come a bit biased (I love Narek and his character very much and feel the strong urge to protect him, donât come at me) I donât want to let him seem like a morally good person, please don't get me wrong there. I think he got his (serious) flaws but so did he got some good attributes.
Personally, I canât completely understand why he receives so much hate or why people think he was abusive (at least this much more than others). Sure, he did horrible things that is not on the discussion here. Yet, he did nothing completely irredeemable and tried to use non violent methods as much as possible. He didnât find joy in harming or manipulation Soji as well as a personal benefit from doing so. As he admitted to love Soji it was more like a reveal for himself, a sign of his personal defeat (how can a spy, he, fall for what is considered the most threatening creature ever existed). It was a job and a tactic to achieve his goals. Goals which werenât personal but had the purpose to potentially save âall organic lifeâ. One life against who knows how many is not a selfish or act of pleasure. I wonât go deeper here since I think the referenced author already got the point really precisely.
I guarantee, if the roles were reversed and the writers didnât pull the sympathy card by saying Soji was Dataâs daughter, we wouldnât have that discussion and polarisation of his character right now.
Additionally, I am super mad how the majority defends Jurati and the fact she didnât need to face any consequences for her actions. Was she under influence and acted because of the mind-meld with Oh, yes. Is that a reason to just let her run, no. I donât say she needs to go into prison but rather get emotional supervision and treatment. Everyone just dropped the case and left her alone with the trauma. I really wished the conflict and pain was more explored in season 2. Instead they dropped every story arc and ignored season 1 happened at all.
(Not relevant but how got Soji just one scene and probably will never been seen again? Like... I also want to know how her life continues, how she deels with the trauma and new identity. Writers, hello?? Is everything good? Why is every character I love in Star Trek either hated, written out or dead...)
But what do I want to say with that example: Narek and the Zhat Vash in general surly had generational trauma and got forced to their actions as well, even though in a more subtle way. People act like (or better tend to forget) growing up in a cult and hyper secret organisation where you get prepared to solve one certain goal in life and brainwashed into believing their destructive view on synthetics is an amazing and completely healthy environment to grow up in. If I donât like it I just walk away. No way I get killed or punished for that right? We see that in the last episode when Narek tells the Crew about the story of the destroyer. For Elnor itâs just a scary story people tell to children, for Narek itâs reality, "history" and warning he grew up with. He seriously believed in the tale and was born into a cult which supported that idea. The best proof is Ramdha, an expert on Romulan mythology. As Narissa and Narek moved to her as their parents died, parents who also served in the service of the Zhat Vash, that view definitely had to rub on to them.
So instead of considering and understanding the motives behind his actions and the pressure behind it (he also clearly states he is the black sheep of the family and probably feels the additional need to prove he is a worthy member since family is the most important aspekt in romulan life), it is easier to just hate him and call him an unforgivable piece of shit.
Yes, he is a little piece of shit but he can learn. His next date is with a therapist who walks him through his history and potentional trauma to reveal the flaws in his character and teach him to be a better person. Everyone in this show has moral flaws as well as past villains in Star Trek (f.e. Garak, Ro Laren). The difference here is we see them actual changing and investing work into their changement or at least a depiction of the motives which drew them to their actions. The writers completely abandoned the chance to do the same thing for Narek, the potentional definitely was there, also story wise. He isnât as blinded and sturdy as other Romulans, especially Tal Shiar members and even cooperated with the enemy (Raffi, Rios and Elnor), knowing damn well how his people handle this kind of treachery, even if the actions behind them were a last resort and not his first choice.
I personally think it doesnât makes much sense for him to go into prison and ârot in a cellâ since he already recognised his mistake and flaws in his believes and was willing to choose another path. Letâs be honest, if he wanted he could have at least tried to wipe out the village with the grenades himself. Instead, he focused on the more prominent threat, the beacon.
During his time with Soji he recognised that synthetics are individual living beings and not mindless monsters as he was taught. I also believe he indeed fell in love with her since she was a good person and accepted the flaws of others as well as trying to do good and help as best as she can. She found "beauty in imperfection", something he felt his whole life. Such a difference to Narissa. He wasn't the perfect spy, a proud member of the family. He got thrown out of the Zhat Vash, he had a " troubeling tendency for the unexpected" and constantly needed to prove his worth in Narissa's eyes, the only sane family member left. If that attachment to Soji was healthy is another discussion.
Furthermore, I also donât consider him a psychopath or even a sociopath. He clearly had emotions and showed empathy (turning around to not see how Soji suffers, not killing her himself with a surprise shot or whatever, attachment to his sisterâŚ). He didn't got very much facial expressions indicating emotions but instead his bodylanguage, tone and eyes carried his emotions instead. Harry Treadaway did an amazing job acting him. Often it wasn't what he said but how he said certain things. Yet, I also donât think Narissa is a psychopath either. She finds joy in harming others and might have sociopathic tendencies but similar to Narek deeply cares for her relatives (Ramdha, her parents and her brother) and wants to protect them.
In the end, everyone is just broken. The crew of the La Sirena, Narek, Narissa, simply everyone on this show. Everyone is grey and has their flaws (even Raffi, Elnor or Seven). Hot take: Season one of Star Trek Picard didnât had a villain, just antagonists or better people who had opposite goals than the heroes.
Think yourself, if you see a message which tells you that synthetics will come to destroy all life in the universe and the admonition literally brakes your mind or drives you insane during the process, would you simply let it happen or consider the idea it wasn't meant for your eyes?
We donât need to discuss that the measurement were deeply wrong and that neither of them was a selfless hero, heavens no! What we need to rethink or try instead is to look behind the actions of one person. You donât have to like them but you should at least try to understand them before you blindly hate a character and refuse to indulge into a constructive discussion.