piece of trash ✨✌️

just have to keep carrying myself through the days absolutely broken with no hope for the future and no help or support, eventually it will end

I wish I could explain to you why I am the way I am but I fail to even express it to myself

My body feels so fucking weak, I don’t know how to feel anymore. I waste my days doing absolutely nothing, and hours always pass by feeling so lonely. What even is the definition of life anymore??

I feel like a stranger to myself

I can't shake the feeling that it's already too late for me. Like whatever chance I had is long gone, and I'm just here, stuck, watching life pass me by.

feeling disconnected from everything, the idea that im a real person who is supposed to care about things and have feelings is completely foreign

I want to be happy but pain has become way too familiar so I can't help but crave it and as a result I sabotage every good thing I have in life in order to continue suffering.

I have made peace with the fact that I'm beyond repair so whenever someone approaches me with the intention of fixing me it makes me want to rip them apart.

trying not to drown in the feeling that life is unliveable

I'm sorry if I'm difficult to deal with. I don't know how to deal with myself either.

I've seen too much shit so I expect the worst from everything. Unfortunately my cynicism hasn't been proven wrong; and everything that's happened only seems to confirm I was right all along.