𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖗𝖊𝖜 𝖌𝖗𝖆𝖛𝖊𝖘

.. what’s there to say.. let’s think.

1. i started a new reality show, ashley got into it, so now i can’t watch it on my own. which is great

2. my hair is back to black which means “fashion show” coming up again soon (per ashley’s request). which is awesome

3. i haven’t been on tumblr much. so sorry to my most loyal of followers, it appears i’ve taken up new interests such as…. succumbing to the necrosis of my own functionality! and… shit, was there actually more? (which is fine).

i’ve been sitting on a couple asks, as well as my own ass for a little too long by now. i’ve regressed to a fetal primitive state of “can’t do anything but respond to my own bodily needs”. ….. don’t think about that one too much.

to those waiting for a piece of my mind, why? and also, why? aaand.. my bad. heh. can’t please everybody. especially not myself.

that’s all for now, before i write another 6 paragraphs of bullshit nobody wants to read.

until next time,

dictum factum,

a trial run, perhaps- the ball is in your court, a segment of discussion topics from yours truly. i want to hear from YOU, my tumblr following, or strangers we pick up along the way.

there’s no pressure to interact with me. not in the slightest- but a gentle push here and there can’t hurt. right? (right?)

mm. now, you may be wondering;

“Andrew, what sparked this idea?”

well i’m glad you asked!

when this idea first came to me i was dissociating in the back of an oven on wheels. total out of body, watching-from-afar type of dissociation. my first question to you would’ve been- what are your experiences with that? but for my first time initiating these discussions.. i wanted to go with something a more.. philosophical approach.

so my question to you, Tumblr, is—

Would you sacrifice your thoughts and beliefs for a presumably better life, and continue to sacrifice them to keep that life?

i’ll lead with an example;

society has undergone a transformation— you have your bottom feeders, the scum- discarded and thrown away. your “common folk”, middle class- relatively ignored and disregarded by most. and on top of the food chain, the upper echelon, the elites. (wonderfully done andrew, you’ve just explained TODAYS society!)

you find yourself amongst the lowest of the low, just barely scraping by. so let’s say you’ve just been granted an opportunity to move up the ranks and have your “rags to riches” moment. but in order to be granted this title, to metamorphose (or so to speak)— you have to betray your core principles. this could be religiously, morally and ethically, or even socially. let’s say (for examples sake), this means plowing down a thousand year old tree that’s connected to many spiritual traditions— or something a bit less hands on, like allowing your likeness to be the face of an ad campaign that promotes a more modern approach to lobotomizing the masses. (cute, right?)

now;

really think about it. one’s first response might be “no, no way i’d do that”. so put yourself in those shoes and really imagine it. you’re treated like shit day in and day out, kicked, spat at, berated and belittled. maybe you’re at your wits end. who knows? this is your imagined scenario to do as you please with. shoot me replies in my asks, and i’ll share my own thoughts with you.

disclaimer; i don’t expect this to go anywhere. ignore me, or watch from afar— but i wanted a way to really engage with tumblr in a way that wasn’t just “oh, send me questions! pick my brain for hours on end and make me really contemplate the things i keep shoved so so so so so so so very far down!” i’d also love to hear your questions, your prompts. so have fun or.. send me anthrax in the mail. whatever

based on how well this does i’ll have a lot more to ask you guys in the future. fill up my time with something to contemplate, and i’ll do the same.

until we meet again,

forever will i be that rock stuck in your sole. you can try to get me out, but no amount of poking and prodding and digging will remove the roots i’ve spread throughout your flesh and bone.