Dear Jupiter (02.05.17)
I feel empty today. 101 things float around in my head, yet I am unable to feel any real emotion from any of it. Is it because I just don't care anymore?... perhaps. Is it because I don't know which emotion to feel or focus on?.... also a very possible maybe. I feel like a horrible person, I feel lazy, I feel unproductive, I feel sad, I feel angry, I feel frustrated, I feel self conscious, I feel scared.....if I'm honest, most of these emotions are a story for another day. Let's focus on the unproductive and scared: Tomorrow I will be faced with a challenge , an exam ti be exact, and just like any other, I know I overcome it.... so why do I keep putting myself through so much stress and anxiety over something that won't matter in 2 years time ?
