⊱Hopeless⊰

Was told recently that I deserve catharsis regardless of how much time has passed, and honestly I feel that. I deserve to be pissed about what you did to me, I have every right to be furious for the trauma you caused. You took something beautiful and turned it into something vile and wretched and I fucking let you because I was too stupid to blame you for your actions. I let myself rot in misery because I couldn't stand the idea of hating you but honestly, I do. I do hate you. For every way that you hurt me, for the lies and the abuse, for dropping me like I didn't matter. Like none of it fucking mattered. I hate you so much and I have every reason to. You broke me. You let someone else fuck you like a worthless whore and then rubbed it in my face as if losing you wasn't bad enough. All I ever wanted was to love you, all I fucking wanted was to hold on, and you hurt me in the worst fucking way imaginable. You're nothing but a selfish, heartless bitch and I hope you die miserable and alone.