#catharsis

One of my ex's and i actually made up and are friends!!! All it took was a genuine conversation!! I was nervous of talking bc i was anxious abt if it would turn into a confrontation and I was hurt abt the brake up... But i sucked it up and talked!!! now we have better communication and are friends!!! not talking or speaking up abt how i felt really just made things stay stagnant for ages and nothing got better! and i mean i had nothing else going on and no one else i was worried for or eager to get back to... and they where just there in a call so i bit the bullet and dove in! but now we can text and be pals!!! (seprate ex, not the ex from recent posts) im so happy at how we are handling communication and wanted to post this for my diary blog stuff!!! ^^ this makes me so happy and i need to recall this when im down in the dumps abt things! I realize I'm very different as a friends than in a relationship!! lol XD

-It was strange. The next few days were lucid. They passed by like a waking dream. I felt like I had been stripped, somehow. That unrelenting tug at my chest, the endless want, had dissipated like it had never been there. In its absence, there was a lightness. Going about the days, felt like I was floating. The people around me mourned, yet I I was as unburdened as ever.

My fate was sealed, and I’d no more need to strive until I bled. I could just be, for once.

Faust in his Study by Georg Friedrich Kersting

“If the researcher, at the level of spiritual development he finds himself, in most cases, has no direct perception of the realities he wants to know, then it becomes necessary for him to change his state in order to make possible this perception that was previously forbidden him, as is the case with a more sensitive receiver that can capture more subtle vibrations. We thus see reappearing, because of scientific logic, the old precept of purification or catharsis, that indispensable tool needed to achieve knowledge of divine things.”