first, save [ yourself ] .

❝  you wanna know how i know you’re a good friend— not just for me but in general?  i always feel better after hanging out with you.  ❞

❝  sometimes things aren’t alright and they’re not gonna be okay for a while.  and that’s alright.  as cliche as it sounds it’s okay to not be okay.  give yourself time.  ❞

❝  have you even taken the time to let yourself feel it?  everything that’s been happening.  eventually,  you have to slow down and let it feel real.  ❞

❝   i’m not really the advice type,  but i am damn good at coming up with distractions to forget the bullshit for a while.  ❞

❝  was this not what you expected?  ❞

❝  i think the whole idea of ‘finding yourself’ is kind of bullshit.  we are what we chose to be.  we make ourselves.   ❞

❝  did you come by for a reason or did you just want some company?  ❞

❝  i’m going to tell you this,  once,  because i think you need to hear it.  you deserve more.  you should expect more from the world and put in the work to get what you deserve.  ❞

❝  i brought some seeds for your garden.  i thought about bringing a bouquet but— this way you can grow them and enjoy them longer.  ❞

❝  please,  stay for dinner?  i enjoy your company.  ❞

❝  come sit a little while with me.  tell me how you’ve been?  really.  ❞

❝  you don’t know how glad i am to see you made it.  here,  let me get you a drink.   ❞

❝  if you’d like to discuss it in private,  we can step outside?  ❞

❝  whatever it is you wish to tell me,  it won’t leave this room.  ❞

❝  well,  i’ve been wanting to talk to you.  but i don’t really know how to put it all in words.  ❞

❝  how have you been sleeping?  ❞

❝  don’t take this the wrong way,  but you don’t quite look well.  ❞

❝  don’t feel bad for not knowing—  i was trying not to bother anyone.  you didn’t know because i didn’t let you.  ❞

❝  miscommunication is a shitty trope in sitcoms and it’s even shittier in real life,  so let’s just take a moment to breathe.  and let’s get on the same page.  alright?   ❞

❝  is this a time for me to listen or fix it?  ❞

❝  i don’t really have anything to say,  i just know that i don’t really want to be alone.  ❞

❝  could you just…talk to me?  it doesn’t have to be anything important.  i just like listening to your voice.  it calms me.  ❞

❝  honestly,  it was a long time ago.  i don’t really remember the details.  ❞

❝  i’m rather proud of you.  i don’t say that often,  so believe i mean it.  ❞

❝  you seem content here.  happy,  even?  ❞

❝  i’m not here to drudge up the past.  i’m just hoping we could have a future.  ❞

❝  i see you’re not getting much sleep either.  should i make us both some tea,  then?  ❞

❝  are you sure you didn’t want to mention something to me?  ❞

❝  are you sure you’re alright?  ❞

❝  i’m a fan of your work,  actually.  ❞

❝  you have more of a reputation than you might think.  ❞

❝  you haven’t heard of me?  how refreshing.  ❞

❝  go on,  tell me what’s on your mind.  ❞

❝  something is troubling you,  yes?  ❞

❝  with a smile like that,  i can’t help but want to know your secret.  what’s got you so cheery today?  ❞

❝  come on,  you’re clearly upset.  and i’m not the asshole who pretends not to notice.  ❞

send a ♡ and i’ll fill this out for our muses !  i’ll bold what i want for their relationship, italic what i could see and strike out what i don’t .

FRIENDS.   childhood friends  /  work friends  /  family friends  /  recently friends  /  turning antagonistic  /  turning into something romantic  /  stable  /  falling apart  /  friendship of need  /  friendship of circumstance  pen - pals or internet friends  /  coworkers  /  partners  /  other .

ROMANCE.   childhood sweethearts  /  newly entered  /  soulmates  /  skinny love  /  unrequited from my muses side  /  unrequited from your muses side  /  friends with benefits  /  awkward  /  fading  /  turning  toxic  /  toxic  and  destructive  /  other .

FAMILIAL BOND.   sibling bond  /  older sibling figure to your muse  /  younger sibling figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  parental figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal  guardian  /  other .

♡          — truthfully , kana had only been home a few moments before noticing the disturbance. she had previously been out completing a job that she didn't necessarily care to elaborate on , but you know , the kind that could only be completed in the dead of night.

in most cases , she would simply put on some music to drown out the noise and mind her own business. but it was once she noticed that her typically placid rottweiler was uncharacteristically unsettled with the sporadic thumps from the other side of the shared wall had her interest peaked. something was off.

hence how she found herself in the hall before her neighbour doing what some might call a welfare check.

although soon furrowed brows softened at his explanation. “  oh , i'm sorry to hear that. ” kana replied earnestly. he did look tired … and familiar now that she thought about it. oh that's right , she had seen him at uni. “  i have some chamomile tea in my apartment if you want some ? helps with sleep , reduces stress. ”

okay, she's weird. first, she's up at the freaking bewitching hour and now she's inviting a male stranger into her home for tea after hearing weird noises come from his apartment? he squints, almost as if he's trying too hard to process her rationale. but it's not until he hears a whimper that he understands.

ah, she's fearless because she has a man-eating protector living with her.

come to think of it, he's seen her walking him a few times, but he didn't expect them to be neighbors. ( wow, he should really pay more attention to his surroundings. )

ji-hun leans against the door's threshold, debating whether he should accept her kindness. it'd be rude to say no, especially when they'll run into each other more. still. his eyes slide toward the lower right, speaking in hushed tones.

          ❛❛     i'm sorry. i didn't mean it as an insult or anything.     ❜❜     voice was far more hushed out than before, turning on her heel to follow him. of course, morgana didn't expect to screw up that early. she was flustered; she hated being set up.

      HANDS CAME TOGETHER     before her body with fingers fidgeting with each other, eyes staring at ji-huns back. thirty minutes. man, morgana really didn't even want that. it wasn't against the man before her, no, it was all her own self irritation and inability to be comfortable in this type of setting.

so, she is nervous. it's hard to ignore when she's constantly fidgeting, but he's not about to pretend he didn't give himself a little pep talk before entering the cafe. slowly, he leads the way to the back of the line, and keeps his eyes on the menu.

❝ so, you're rude when you're nervous. ❞ it's an observation, one he can easily understand, but usually, he'd expect that from guys, not a woman. his lips spread into a small smile, huffing in amusement. ❝ it's okay. this is. . .weird. ❞

if she's honest, he'll return the gesture. it's only fair. the smile disappears then, settling back into comfortable nonchalance as he wonders if he should keep the conversation going. he doesn't want small talk, that would drive him up the wall. but they're not at the point of sharing silence without any awkwardness.

building relationships takes so much mental and physical effort. do they even want that? how many more minutes do they have left? twenty-eight, maybe? guess it wouldn't hurt to try.

          [txt] did you make it yet?                 [reply] im almost there. is he going to be creepy?           [txt] no -_- just go. you'll have fun.

     DATING WAS SUCH     an obscure thing to morgana, especially as someone who generally made way to not deal with humans at all. but irritation to being pestered led to the deity to dressing in a simple sweater dress with short heels, the sound of the clicking on the sidewalk as she trudged towards the cafe echoing to soothe her woes with this situation. the sheer black of the dress was almost comical against her snowy pale skin and hair; morgana could feel stares. it was uncomfortable.

     THE PHONE WAS     thrust into the small handbag she brought along. when it had been discussed, picking out a place morgana was comfortable with was almost key. it was nice that it was agreed upon. she could speak to the plants rather than the man for all she cared.

     LITHE FINGERS OPENED     the door, giving a simple head bow to the hostess as eyes scanned the place. morgana had been given a brief description. just enough to be able to point him out. as soon as those light eyes landed on him, the nerves seemed to bundle in her stomach. this sucked. this sucked so bad. 

          click, click.

     THE SOUND WAS      all she could think on as she approached the table, standing beside it almost awkwardly. pink painted pale complexion as those eyes now seemed to refuse to look at the boy.          ❛❛     you wouldn't happen to be ji-hun, would you?     ❜❜     timid voice presented, finger pulling at the end of her loose locks. (     i should just leave. this is ridiculous. i should've not even came.     )

gray eyes lift, peering at her through a dark fringe with indecipherable indifference. she's. . .pretty, but he bristles at the use of his given name, and stops a scowl before it forms. culture difference, he supposes, or maybe the times are finally changing. then again, he can't expect obvious foreigners to know the rules.

❝ yeah, ❞ he says, switching to english. he knows he should smile, maybe get up and pull out her chair like a gentleman, but he's rooted to his chair. the air in the cafe has changed, the plants, especially surrounding their table smell fresher, as if someone just watered them. there's something about her, something off.

it's hard to focus on her energy, though, when her words pierce his chest.

ouch.

rejection right off the bat? it's been thirty seconds.

lips pressing, ji-hun rises from the table and looks dead at her. ❝ are you saying that out of nervousness or because you don't like what you see? ❞ maybe she's not into asian guys, and if that's the case, this is way beyond him.

❝ half an hour, then we can go. i want a smoothie first. ❞ he steps around her, only to pause when he remembers an important detail. what should he call her? using her name, saying morgana, sounds too intimate. is she younger? older?