Gold Star for Dave

Are you doing anything to make sure you get better?

Um... she's a beagle so she's not that big. I mean, she's kinda big since she likes to eat the cheetos from Luke's room but she's still relatively young. She'll be a year old in April sometime. I forget the actual date. Well, it's not really work. I don't get paid for it. It's a class, if I need to use it as a study period I can. So I can just say I'm going to go study and they won't think much of it. I never skip class so it's not a big deal, really. Last time my mom was sick, she bought these medical masks. If need be, I can snag one that she didn't use so I won't get sick.

My brother has a dog, I'm sure he wouldn't mind giving her up for a bit of cuddle time. Princess is a good cuddler. Well, I don't know from experience but from what I've see, she's always cuddled up next to Luke. I'll make you some soup. Are you going to school tomorrow? I can come by during lunch if you aren't and just skip my office aid thing. They won't miss me for one day.

You need some soup. I can make soup. It's delicious. I can make chicken noodle soup or tomato soup or even this weird chili stuff. It's got turkey in it and white kidney beans and it's totally not even spicy which is good. Do you want me to make you some soup? And I can bring you some things that are nice like... what do you think is nice that I could bring?

Looks to me like you're in need of some soup.

Dude, you have no idea how soft it is. 

And you don't know how soft my pillow is.

Not as soft as this pillow.

That’s what I’m saying. Uhh, well, you thought wrong. He topped for Slater— but that’s not important. Well, I’m a gentleman, and we’re seeing each other. Thisbe and I were going to, but she broke up with me before. It’s only been Luke, Jill, and some random girl in Florida over the summer. Yeah, she’s adventurous alright… and very good at what she does. I’m just saying like, is kinky wearing cat ears and pretending to be a cat, or is it like, rough, hardcore? Does it matter the gender? I don’t think so.

Well Slater is more of a girl than Luke, so I could see how that was plausible. Then we'd talk about our escapades and not previous ones. I only sleep with people I've dating, I've dated Kira, Jill, and Mia. You can choose who you wanna believe I slept with. Well, Jill did have a lot of practice. I think all of that would classify as being kinky. but who actually wants to sleep with someone who's pretending to be a cat? That's just weird. I mean, I don't know if what guys find kinky is different than what girls find kinky...

It’s not forcing me, I’m just saying maybe I’ll actually want to for you. Bottoming with Luke sounds like it would be… not good. He needs to be controlled, you know? Really? Who were they? Um, well, like I’ve done it… a lot of places. Thanks to Jill. But not really like, kinky— well, define kinky.

So I'm special then, is that what you're saying? Let's be honest here, Luke is basically a girl with a dick. There is no way he'd ever actually fuck someone. I'm a gentleman, and a gentleman doesn't kiss and tell. Jill's pretty adventurous, huh? I don't know what kinky is. Like, I think there'd be a difference in definitions between genders.

Well, we’ll see about that. Maybe. For you. Yeah, I guess you’re right. I’ve only had sex with three people in my life, and I don’t think it’s bad since I felt something for them at one point, right? I didn’t do it just because I could. In time, David… in time. Do you… like kinky?

No 'maybe's, Emmett. You either want to or you don't. I'm not going to force you to do anything you don't want to do but don't get my hopes up about something that will never happen.Well that's one more person than me. I've uh-- never really had kinky sex. Unless you could doing it on J-the counter in the kitchen.

I— okay, maybe you’re right. I’ll try something new if you’re willing to, too. That’s why there’s a difference between ‘sex’ and ‘making love’. It’s people like us that just use the wrong term because now sex is just sex because of media and all that. It’s really not when you’re in the situation. Watch a little and let me know? Don’t watch the dirty, kinky stuff. That, I won’t do with you.

Awesome, at least I won't be the only one trying something new. But the act itself is still something that should be considered sacred. Like it's still intimate. At least to me. Nothing kinky? Well, you're no fun.

Maybe. I don’t know, I think I would. I’d have to psych myself in that way because I don’t… usually not have control. Porn isn’t weird, it opens your eyes things. It’s kind of gross to think people get paid to do it and have to pay for it, but I mean… it’s free online. It’s educational for anyone in a sexual relationship. Let me know what you think, alright? 

I think you need to let loose, let go of the reins... lose control. Watching people have sex is weird, sex is supposed to be something intimate, shared between only two people. Not filmed and put on the internet or on DVDs for everyone to look at. But I'll give it a shot.

Okay, well, I’m just reassuring you. Yeah, he is. I mean, it can fluctuate depending on the relationship and how each guy feels about it. I’m not not willing to bottom if you honestly felt like you didn’t want to or couldn’t. It’s different than anything else, I can tell you that. I didn’t mean educate yourself on that… I meant just seeing how other guys felt about it. Especially having sexual relationships with other girls, and then with a guy. Your vulnerability gets taken from you. Don’t stress about it, alright? I don’t want you to stress. You’re too cute for wrinkles.

You'd let me fuck you? Maybe I should just watch a bunch of gay porn. I mean, porn is weird but... I don't know, it could be helpful...

It’s okay to be nervous. If you don’t like it, we don’t have to continue to do it. It’s not like you don’t have a say in anything we do. There isn’t a good or a bad way to do it— it’ll be good regardless. Don’t think into it so much, it’s just what it always has been. As far as pain… I wouldn’t know a lot about that. Um, I don’t… I’m always a top. You should do your research, you know? Look online and read it about it. It’s better to educate yourself to know what you’re getting into. 

I mean, obviously I have a say otherwise we wouldn't be doing anything. I wouldn't put myself in that sort of situation where I can't choose what I'm going to be doing. Well, Luke's the only guy you've been with right? And well, I highly doubt Luke is anything but the g-bottom. So I kind of already figured that was how it is. I am educated on sex, Emmett.

So, like… how do you feel about? Does it scare you or do you just… not really know how to feel?

It doesn't really scare me? It's just something that makes me nervous. Something entering me like that... it's a foreign concept, something I haven't really thought about before now. And it's like, what if I don't like it or what if I'm not good at... what if I do something wrong? And the pain... how much is it going to hurt...