Glitched Soul

Yes, we had drawings that we decided not to publish openly but to keep between ourselves, out of respect for our mutual friend who does not like this ship. ....If to think so, it’s kinda selfish, depriving people of such drawings by declaring and reminding under each similar art how much you don’t like it and putting pressure telling about being traumatized by this ship.. I no longer intend to hide it just for the sake of one person who, in the end, never was there for me after all their words and promises. If you happen to see this.. that's your problem, sorry.

I think it's time to end this already. ..I didn't found the point where they started using alternate names, but since they only use them for each other, I will continue to call them by their original names.

I was sharp-set for almost any idea that my friend gave me, so I often had ideas for art. It’s not so easy to imagine Soul in such a role.. so it was only once and was not repeated. Corrupt was shocked, however…. although even so, he was still ready to endure anything for Soul. We RP it for a couple times and just made a small “dark AU” type spin-off out of it, and then never return to it anymore, because most likely he had already acquired a new idea. Maybe it's for the better..

Sometimes I wonder if their relationship is supposed to be so.. weird? Or was it just my friend who had such an unusual influence on what we did because of our common interests.. It belies their name, after all. I think originally their relationship was never forced.. not taking into account what happened BEFORE the AU, because it was not yet what it has become now. There was a different idea, inspired by the creativity of other people, mostly.. now it's supposed to be something more innocent and naive, focused on feelings rather than something darker. Yet still dark sometimes maybe..

Just a gift for a friend. I still complain that he kept changing his appearance and adding details without always explaining it.. but I still enjoyed drawing him. Now I'm thinking about what kind of appearance I should keep for Soul, if I don't come up with something new…. it will be difficult..

Just a bunch of drawings that I don't have much to say about. and on some I saved the backgroundless versions… let them be here too then.. I just liked the idea that Corrupt shows his emotions quite clearly.. Art with a blood warning ahead.. It’s a pity that I can’t blur out just a single picture in the entire post. and I'm putting them in almost chronological order and then the more normal pictures come again, and it would be hard for me to just put this one at the end just because of the warning.

I drew a whole mini-story about how Corrupt tried to take revenge on the Monster for Soul. After all, Soul's wounded eye is it's own doing.. He really thought that it would be easy, but the Monster also has some abilities and strength (at least in this AU)

On my own behalf, I’ll just say that this whole thing with Monster is, again, just his idea personally, I didn’t particularly want to deal with this character, since I don’t fully understand him. Anyway.. I'm not sure I'm good at storytelling orcomic-like drawings, but I tried.. "After some searching I finally found it. It wasn't that hard to find this.. thing. And even now this creature angers me just by its appearance. Now, I have to end this once and for all." It was deep night, but that didn't stop Corrupt from follow the creature and find right moment for a sudden attack.

..but it didn't work and he was violently counterattacked. There was a feeling as if the monster sensed his presence and was able to repulse the attack in time. And most likely it was clearly opposed to being defeated that easily. However, Corrupt wasn't impressed and was ready to attack again, now even more enraged and determined to finish what he started. But Corrupt didn't even have time to move as the monster was already too close all of sudden and grabbed him. It was moving too fast for such a ridiculous-looking creature, and Corrupt did not expect this. And it turned out to be also quite strong, no matter how hard he struggle to get free he only felt the grip on his neck only get stronger. The situation at that moment seemed hopeless.. and for all this time monster did not utter a word, making the moment even creepier.

"Damn it.. I didn't come here just to fkin die. I can't let down Soul like this. This lemon freak cause enough pain already, and I won't let this creep get away with it!!" Corrupt get pissed off so much that he no longer felt anything but the thirst to kill this thing, once again letting his own evilness fully overcome him. He was forced to in order to at least survive this fight..

..I'm starting to doubt this was a good idea.. but I'd rather finish what I started..

You know, Corrupt is a rather dangerous creature by default. He's easy to piss off, but it turns out he has a weakness that turns him into a big purring cat.. figuratively. I didn't draw this for a specific purpose, I just wanted to get away from the darker ideas that I usually draw.

Corrupt could become wedged and become the former sadistic version of himself, but only to some extent. He didn't hurt Soul, but at the same time, he was obsessed with the idea of completely taking possession of him.. his love for Soul seemed to be distorted, becoming something frightening.

...However, his true feelings were stronger than his former self, so Soul's pleas reached his mind and he came to his senses. Corrupt really regretted what he had done after that, he didn't understand how he could allow something like this to happen. He was afraid that Soul would lose trust in him, that he would see him as the old monster that he was trying not to be anymore.

His own doubts began to consume him again, but this time, Soul was able to prevent it. He is the only one who can reach him at such moments and calm him down, since he is the only one whom Corrupt trusts. (Corrupt can really hurt himself by scratching his ears with his claws so as not to hear these voices..)

Since my former friend always added these earrings to their appearance, this was one of the triggers for me to come up with the idea of this very AU, precisely as our personal AU more than just have alternatively dressed Soul and Corrupt. I came up with this name for this AU too. They're like kindred souls who don't yet fully understand how much they need each other, sometimes they can even quarrel, but are no longer able to live without each other. Most of the time they just call their relationship friendship, ignoring the fact that they clearly feel something more than just that. For the most part, Soul denies this and wants to see this relationship as friendship, while Corrupt is essentially already hopelessly in love, patiently waiting and hoping that Soul would finally accept these feelings. About the drawing.. Corrupt doesn’t particularly like any jewelry, but he agreed to it only because Soul wore the similiar one. Corrupt liked the idea of sharing something in common, although they were united by something much more than just paired earrings. So, this drawing is the official beginning of the Soulmate Demons AU. ..I don’t remember when they got their nicknames aka Hason Shita and Tamashī (it was his idea this time), it was sometime later and we discussed this in private messages. I think I'll definitely clarify this later..

They're just having the most ordinary moment in their lives, and like an ordinary couple (of friends haha) they are just watching videos on YouTube together, discussing what they are watching. It’s nice to have simple moments in life, without any incidents or adventures.. I think this is one of those moments when Corrupt was just happy.

Yes, this is just essentially a drawing outside of story and, besides, I again showed my disgusting face... mhh.. but, even here there was some behind the scenes. Corrupt doesn't like suits, AT ALL, he had to be persuaded to wear it for such an occasion. It wasn't that difficult tho, because it was dedicated to Soul, so Corrupt agreed to it, heh.. I still think it suits them.

Bad days or moments happen to everyone, and the main thing is that those who are dear to you are nearby at this moment, so as not to let you wallow in the abyss of despair and sorrow..

Just small random moments. ..sometimes I want to say that they flirt like idiots. I also started trying to draw backgrounds for the drawings to make them more complete. Also me and my ex friend just wanted to draw them as nekos I guess. They were pretty shy about it..

Oh, that was quite a story. In general, according to BF's idea (or did they bet him and lost?..) they were supposed to hang around handcuffed together all day. Oddly enough, Corrupt reacted to this normally, and I won’t hide the fact that the prospect of spending the whole day close to Soul even made him happy. But Soul, in turn, reacted strangely to this.. he didn't say why exactly he was acting so tense. But the point is that he was too embarrassed to be so close to Corrupt, because he is also not indifferent to him, which he either doesn’t show. However, Corrupt himself began to think that he was simply scaring him again and this made him worry about it all. I don’t know why Soul wore this mask, apparently to hide excessive emotions..

It's no secret that some moments from irl and our relationship with my former friend were reflected in our AU sometimes. This is one of those drawings that was dedicated to support. And Corrupt is always ready to support Soul, no matter what..

And finally, the prelude is finished and we go to the main thing. ..Hmm .. although all the most of basic things I've already told before?.. ​ Well, individual arts still have their own stories.. I also have some RPs archieved, which can be rewritten as a stories too.. I still thinking about it. I already had experience in writing, but I wasn't sure where it could be posted.. O-okay, I got carried away..

This is based on one of the outfits that my former friend chose for Soul. Since he made his “art” in Gacha Life, he often chose different clothes every time. ..To be honest, it drove me crazy, because in the end I didn't know which outfit to rely on when I drew them and what is now the canon in his version of Soul (Tamashi), almost every time the details were different.. In fact, I decided to draw Soul in this outfit because he liked this? .. At least it seemed to me. It was.. interesting experience.

It was a moment when I realized that I would like to come up with an appearance for Corrupt that would compared to Soul's, but so far just horns and tail, ignoring the wings that a former friend added to their appearance. Of course, a more edgy style, unlike Soul's relatively smooth ones. This is where AU start to exist, but without official name yet. I can’t remember where the idea for a scarf and gloves came to me.. It is unlikely that it came from the RPs.. Most likely I just wanted to add more individuality, adding details than to make completely different clothes (already had enough Tamashi's clothes that had more and more details every time..)

It was my aswer to his gacha recreation of [skittletoc] art in which Soul shows Corrupt middle finger with "F*ck you", but in his interpretation it was "This is why what am I saying~ Fuck you Darling~" It was kinda out of nowhere, but I can see that it's just random thing for lolz, but.. I’ll be honest, Corrupt doesn’t feel funny about that. Therefore, there were two reactions. The one he showed..

..and the true one.

[Really, despite his origin, my version of Corrupt came out quite sensitive and emotional when it comes to those to whom he trusts, craving for mutuality in his feelings. So it's not surprising that this was his original reaction to such an action..]

It was a critical moment. Enough events happened that dismoraled Corrupt so much that even I had to violate the rules of a spatial continuum to simply bring him back to his senses. In theory, this is Soul's work .. .. sigh .. I don't know. It is difficult, I retell the events that took place due to the actions mostly of the person and not the character whom he roleplayed, is this even correct? In other hand.. This is the past that already made. I can't rewrite it, it all left a mark on us, remained in the form of arts and stories. In general, AU about these two together, having special bond, while a friend with whom we created it constantly makes some kind of nonsense aimost all the time. As, for example, through role-playing actions Soul suddenly acts around Corrupt as if the latter is something despised, although they seem to have romance already, as he said? This really created a bunch of misunderstandings and resentments. It can be imagined that at first Soul treated Corrupt with hostility and don't likes him, for a reason, but I can’t imagine him being so vile as to make him to believe that there is something between them, and then brutally reject, playing with feelings. No it's not like him at all.. [I think I still personally cannot get rid of resentment because of many things that have happened. Remembering them, I go through it again. ..I hope that this will help me bury some bad memories, and then I can create new, and better one for this AU. Albeit alone..]

I can continue here.. but probably I'll divide it into a few more posts.. ..because I'm too generous with details and comments.. ..It can take me away into more of my memories and experiences, and there is a particularly cruel moment ahead that I cannot forget. We haven't reached that yet, but I don't think that I can say only a few words about it. Like now.

Well.. just some of my drawings, some can be attributed to my AU, some are easier to see as canon fanart..

Uhhh.. my first requested art.. I already thought then that Soul’s blood is white, because he is not human and “real”, but, I just did exactly as they asked me to draw. God, this is terrible.. I don't like to draw things like this when someone are dying, to be honest.. But I still focused on the emotions more than the details, so I hope it doesn't look as bad as I personally think it does..

Some people pronounced him by "it" and he was triggered.. Because he is clearly not one of those who likes this unobtrusive comparison with something that cannot be called a person.

Some people also called him cute.. he responded to this. I think it helped his self-confidence a little..

I myself still don’t know whether it was just a fragment of a nightmare dream, or a fragment of a nightmare past from some neighboring timeline. Instead of complicating things, I just left everything as it was..

It was just.. an unpleasant emotional moment, probably after one of the role-playing. And.. yes, I, too, am part of this AU. I initially had a connection with Corrupt, and even had the opportunity to contact him despite the fact that at that time I was locked in the datascape. We didn't have a good relationship back then.. I could worry about him at some points, but when everything was fine, we usually acted as if we had mutual hostility. Often, this is because he himself usually did not listen to me, as if I meant nothing to him. ..Maybe it's true.

Just a few doodles that I sketched a long time ago, but colored recently. ..although with my drawing style thisdifference is not so noticeable..

This is a continuation of the previous post.. aand this one was harder to sort out.. The transition to AU was quite smooth and uncertain, I still couldn't decide whether I should continue to stick to designs that were close to the canon with only minor changes, or succumb to the temptation to draw closer to what my former friend created in order to meet his vision.. because to some extent, I also liked the idea of them having demonic parts like horns, tails, wings.. and at the same time, so that they are similar, but have slight differences. But, we're not there yet.. I can say that this drawing is still my pride I still love how Corrupt came out on this one.

I think I should explain this better, since the original description doesn't really explain much.. These are the consequences of his "broken" state, when the voice of the corruption in his head breaks his will enough to take control of him. In this state, his strong negative emotions and instincts are largely responsible for his actions, and only a small part of his mind remains conscious. It is enough that certain actions of centrain people could return him to a normal state.. Otherwise, he becaming merciless and more cruel, his original sadistic nature can get the better of him, but for the most part he is driven by pain himself. Prefix in his name is a reference to his original one, because even now some people call him or Soul "Evil Boyfriend" instead of Corrupt(ed) BF..

It was art for an RP, if I remember correctly and as far as I remember, it was a bit of a weird RP. But Corrupt showed his feelings by ripping his clothes to bandage Soul. Perhaps this was the moment when Corrupt really began to show concern and was ready to help, even if he did not know what to do..

..Corrupt is quite jealous when it comes to someone he considers his own. He also doesn't like BF, for a variety of reasons. So he didn't miss the chance to destroy this little idyll of theirs.

Everything that happens in role-playing could often be reflected in my drawings, so after Corrupt tore his jacket into bandages, he lost it. It's good for him that he's not sensitive to temperatures too much to worry about. But, he started wearing a mask. This is due to the fact that at some point Soul (represented by my former friend) began to be afraid of Corrupt because of his “scary” face. (Anf it's strange that this didn't bother you before, buddy..) As a result, Corrupt simply decided to cover part of his face with a mask so as not to look so scary to him. But to be honest, even so, Corrupt was offended by this.

This was the moment when my ex-friend was having a difficult time in his life, and it made me worry about him. I decided to draw him this art as support.. just as Corrupt would care about Soul.

Corrupt isn't difficult to get angry. But Soul has always been one of those whom he wouldn't hurt even at the peak of his rage. And Soul was the only one he would listen to. What was the reason of his rage here?.. Just some other Corrupt appeared around, who was trying to get closer to Soul, too. So my Corrupt simply didn't tolerate competition and tried to solve everything on the same spot.. in a violent way. Someone was lucky that Soul was able to hold him.

Before everything turned into an AU, I only had some kind of distant idea.. probably just my vision of how they both continued to exist in the depths of BF's mind, forced to tolerate each other.

So initially, they hardly got along. Soul felt an open dislike for Corrupt, Corrupt responded in kind, although he himself felt sympathy for Soul, without realizing it. Over time, Soul got used to Corrupt's presence. In fact, Corrupt almost never harmed Soul without real reason, mostly when Soul himself provoked him into aggressive behavior. Corrupt simply responded with negativity to negativity. By himself, he was completely neutral to anyone expect BF maybe. As Soul got used to Corrupt and stopped provoking him, Corrupt began to show some positive emotions more often. In fact, he himself did not understand what these emotions were, and why he felt them, but at the same time he simply followed his heart.

One of my current friends gave me the idea that Corrupt, due to the fact that he has a connection with the BF, has a bit of humanity in himself that he doesn't understand at all. This all also created his strange attachment to Soul, most often expressed in a somewhat aggressive manner, because he simply didn't knew any other approach. As Soul got used to Corrupt and showed less negativity towards him, Corrupt increasingly succumbed to more positive feelings and showed a different side of himself. Although he still tried to hide it behind his usual demeanor, not completely trusting his surroundings, expecting a catch if he opened up. But over time, he was able to open up quite quickly and trust Soul..

Soul was probably surprised by how Corrupt's behavior around him changed. He didn’t have time to really get used to his company and didn’t trust him completely, while Corrupt took it all much more simply. Maybe his connection with BF made him trust Soul quite quickly, while he did not show negativity and aggression towards Corrupt anymore. But all this could have quite a noticeable effect on Corrupt’s mood. If don’t think about surviving the apocalypse and the danger that Corrupt posed in the past, then to some extent he really was a dark version of BF, especially when control of the virus was destroyed. However, this behavior only occurred in private with Soul. Corrupt has never shown such behavior in the presence of anyone else, remaining extremely aggressive towards others. And to a greater extent, this was the reason why he tried to avoid others altogether. However, the virus hasn't disappeared completely. It remained, but only as an echo in the mind of Corrupt himself, and now became the voice of his own doubts. It never, even to this day, misses an opportunity to weaken Corrupt's spirit at any moment that would cause him to weaken. For what? Because it enjoys his pain first, as if it makes it stronger. Corrupt can become a greater danger to others if his spirit is broken enough that he loses control of himself, allowing the virus to take over him again. No, this does not affect Soul or BF in any way, unless Corrupt directly affect them in their own mind. And since things happened mainly in the mind, all these doubts and pain took the form of chains that kept Corrupt in a separate dark and lonely place, often until someone from the outside it interfered with it.