Dart

I don't really feel bad for my source friends. I honestly treated them like shit, I recognise that, but they don't exist here. I don't have anything to say to hypothetical ghosts of my past. -Div

when I'm pulled in front to carry out one of those self isolation spirals. gods I hate it. but it's how I work. it's my job. I'll stay silent. stop existing. just to see if they care. (they do. we're just irrational.) -Regret

yeah sure. it's fine. tell me you want to die instead of just talking with us. very nice. you're lucky there's like four guys at front who won't lash out like I almost just did. -Regret

thank you brain for using me as a dissociation means to stop a breakdown. thank you very much. /sarc -Regret

and what if it is my fault, actually? what if this system keeps sabotaging everything and then I come to finish it off? not so happy now are you?

"don't call persecutors evil be nice blah blah blah" and what if I am objectively evil? what then?

fuck you. I've lost everything because of you. fuck you and go fuck yourself. /nbh

they're scared of me. and for good reasons. I would wreck everything we have if I get upset enough. I would burn all the bridges. make it so we don't matter to anyone anymore. only then would I stop and look back. only then would I not be the danger anymore.

I don't exactly want to be here at front. I have other things to do. but front keeps being tossed at me so.