I don't know what to do, I don't know how to feel, I don't know how to fix itโฆ.. I try to be fine and continue as if nothing had happened, but it's hard for me, I can'tโฆโฆ I keep falling apartโฆ.. I thought that everything was getting better and that things were going too well, everything was going to the topโฆ but quickly everything fell from the stairs and things brokeโฆ. something I really didn't want to happenโฆโฆ..
Sometimes I wonder what else I did wrongโฆ. why even after admitting my guilt and did I try to leave things well, did good things, show the good that is in me, as a good person believing that everything was going to get better again, on the contraryโฆ happenedโฆ still they left me aloneโฆ
I know that I have made mistakes like every human being, and I know that at some point I have screwed up like we all haveโฆ.. but I do regret it and I apologize, I have tried to fix things and improve more and more as a personโฆโฆ I never had any bad intentions, I never wanted all of this to happenโฆ.. Why is all this happening to me?โฆ..
How I wish I could travel back in time, repeat those moments, correct those mistakes, to prevent all that from happening, to avoid ending in this sad way, and to prevent things from remaining like this, I would have really wanted that, so everything would still be fine right nowโฆ. It's the least I wish I could doโฆ.. change things againโฆ. that everything remained calmโฆ.. What more can I ask for, what more can I beg?โฆโฆ.. may everything be fineโฆ let at least time help me compose everything if I can't travel to the pastโฆโฆ.
I have no more tears left, I have cried millions of times, too much, I can not anymore, I don't want to continue like this anymoreโฆโฆ I feel like I'm destroying, I have died inside even though I have life on the outsideโฆ. sometimes I have the feeling that death is the best thing to not feel any of this pain anymoreโฆ. but on the other hand I wish this pain would heal, I want to heal, I want everyone to healโฆโฆ
I'm like a sad and fragile soul trying to be well, inside a happy and friendly costume that thinks positively and expresses affection to the outside world, hiding all its painโฆ
I honestly don't want to continue like this anymore, I'm tired of insomnia, of overthinking so much, to see that everything remains the same and nothing has come to an agreement or progressโฆ. I'm bleeding outโฆ I feel like they stabbed me in the backโฆ. I'm dyingโฆ. I'm getting depressedโฆ. even though I try to continue with my life normally I still feel a lot of painโฆโฆ.
I don't want things to stay like this anymoreโฆโฆ what I want is for everything to go back to the way it was before when everything was good and everything was joyโฆ.. and start from scratchโฆ..
Help meโฆโฆโฆโฆโฆโฆโฆโฆโฆ.
