He’s Helping Me Heal And He Doesn’t Know It 🥀

My ex would always drop my hand and say he doesn’t like holding hands regardless of where we were or if anybody was around. He would never cuddle with me and sometimes made it a point to sleep in the same room but separate beds. At the time everything about it made me think there was something wrong with me for being too clingy or needy, I would suppress what I wanted just to avoid conflict. I now realize that there’s nothing wrong with asking for affection in a relationship. I resented him for a long time, thinking he never really gave me what I wanted but looking back he was just asking for what he wanted too. There’s nothing wrong with being affectionate or not being affectionate, at the end of the day it’s all just preference. I never needed to hold back on what I wanted, I also never needed to force my needs on him. I was just asking the wrong person. My boyfriend now always holds my hand, kisses me in parks, and holds me all night long. There was never a problem with me, I just needed to find someone that wanted to show affection as much as me. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been because I finally found someone who’s love languages align with mine. I never have to doubt if I’m loved now because I feel it everyday.

I couldn’t sleep. I guess some part of me wanted to prolong the last day that I got to talk to you. Not sleeping gave me hope that you’d call me and change your mind about us. But I need to let you go, because letting you go means letting go of all the hurt and anger that came with you. And as much as i wanted to hold onto hope, I knew what I really needed was peace, and maybe sleep.

The other day u asked me what i wanted and i told u to build me a time machine, u assumed i wanted to go back to before the break up so this could have been avoided but it wasn’t what i meant. I wanted to go back to the day we met and unmeet you. It would have spared me from so much pain. Not bc i think that if i had been with a relationship with someone else they wouldn’t have hurt me, but bc I wouldn’t have loved them as hard as i love you, it would be easier bc at least that way i could walk away. I love you too much to walk away but somedays are just so unbearable.

You want to know the secret to staying with a partner that cheated? It’s not about trusting them to not doing it again, it’s about trusting yourself, knowing that you’re strong enough to walk away if they do will make all the difference.

Why is it so hard to leave a relationship even if you know it’s not good for you?

So the other day I was feeling insecure and asked my boyfriend if he would still love me if I get a little fat, and he said “of course I would, but I don’t think you’ll love yourself” and then I realized my boyfriend loved me more than I love myself.

I’ve been cheated on so many times lol anybody wanna ask me a question I’m basically an expert now.