Whats Up Guys ,Its Me Ya Girl Nikki

Rhodie’s first time seeing snow!

Not in a suicidal sense, but in the same way skateboarding isn't for everyone.

Cause man.

This is just not for me y'all 😂😂

I don't want to kill myself or anything like that but the thought of living through life is very.. unappealing to say the least.

Cause like you're thrown into consciousness by a pair of people who could be anyone, for better or worse, and then spend the next handful of years mindlessly going through the motions until graduation, just to learn that from that moment, you will have to find a way to work until death.

The monotony of a day to day life is so backbreaking. Going to the same places and seeing the same people to do and say the same thing until either they or you pass chips away at people until they break.

There are so many parts of life that is awful but accepted because "that's life" but what if life wasn't worth as much as people thought? What do we do when living just doesn't mean anything?

I mean, I know life has "meaning" based off of what we make of it but that's a man made concept. Since the beginning of reflections, humanity has been drunk off of itself and has tricked itself into thinking it has a purpose and while it may, I can't shake the feeling that it doesn't. That we're just floating in space by chance and happened to evolve far enough to recognize it.

Again, I'm not suicidal; or at least I don't think I am. I don't have a desire to kill myself.

I just don't think this is for me.