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I just want to hold. lemme sleep and pretend it's a nightmare

im so confused. I don't know whats next. and im scared. but I think I need that push too

well you may not be struggling, but I am. those tights need to be wrapped firmly around my throat

I just wish the sun had been enough

I'll never be the same. I miss my friend and she doesn't care. and love and other things aside, I'll never find another friend like her as long as I live

well, this could very well be the last one. it feels like it gets more underwhelming every year. I will cherish the memories I have with both of them until I eventually lose my memory altogether. I just hope when that day comes, I'll still get flashes of her and not remember all the bad, just the good times. thoughts that make my old senile mind smile. I'll never forget her, even long after she's forgotten me. all I can do now is try to enjoy all the seconds I have left, and hope for one more. Just once. so it isn't tainted. that's my Christmas wish

I just want one more go. to know it didn't die in April. to know that I still float around in there somewhere. that maybe I'm still a thought. I just want warmth. Come back. and take me with you

I feel like I'm going to vomit. why does the universe hate me?

an existential crisis/ panic attack, like legit panic attack. and I don't even know where it came from. I'm gonna lose it. and also just lose. I've bounced back from alot, but that day might kill me