Transhuman Refuse

Since this time in 2016, all I did was start a legal marijuana extraction business, loved and lost numerous romantic engagements, learned numerous trades, join four different unions, work in the TV and film industry, work in the music concert industry, get my driver's license, move into an apartment with my future husband, work a high paying job in the tech sector, travel to numerous countries, become an Ayahuascero in the Amazon rainforest, become spiritually enlightened, helped other's heal and mend relationships, developed supernatural amounts of charisma, started a corporate video production company, develop a Dune-scale sci-fi universe, start a giant novel, realized I'm trans and intersex, and started transitioning into a woman at a rate faster than an 18 yearold on puberty blockers.

Sometimes it can feel like I wasted my life because I never felt truly good the entire time. I was always weighed down with feelings of depression, anxiety, and general wrongness that I not understand was gender dysphoria. Those feelings lifting makes me wish I transitioned earlier, but at least I can look back at my life and be proud of the man I was and the life that I lived.

My biggest regret is not being as creative as I would have liked. I was always working for someone else and never on my own projects. I kind of wish I was a youtuber or a game developer, but there's always time. Now I just really want to be a novelist. I also want to learn animation with my husband so we can start making short films together.