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Oh my sweet, summer child, how you have come to the right person to be schooled in the ways of critically reading literature.

Likely, you are referring to the character Ruth in SBB (if you are not, well, I'll never know because you're an anon who seemingly would like to try to shame me rather than engaging in discussion about important books). So, assuming that you are referring to Ruth, I can further surmise you are specifically thinking of this quote: "Her face startled me. It was badly bruised on one side like a rainbow -- yellow, red, blue. Her hair was outrageously crimson. I could tell that womanhood had not come easily to her. It wasn't just her large Adam's apple or her broad, big-boned hands. It was the way she dropped her eyes and rushed away when I spoke to her."

Now, is there transmisogyny in this quote? Totally! Jess is basically saying "this woman is clocky as hell." BUT does that mean that SBB itself is transmisogynistic? Not necessarily. Why?

Well, sweet anon, let me tell you.

Our beloved protagonist, Jess, is a notably flawed character. She holds numerous beliefs about herself and others that are full of bullshit brainworms. And the majority of the book is about her undoing those brainworms and figuring out how to be a decent person in a world that is trying to kill her and her loved ones.

At the point in the novel when we're introduced to Ruth, Jess is at the precipice of a perspective shift on her life that will change the way that she views herself and others. We see this in how she comes around from alienating Frankie for loving another butch to reaching out, apologizing, and actually being able to see and experience - for herself, in her own body - the magic of the possibility of butches as lovers. She learns.

We also see how she understands that, in protecting herself when Duffy outed her at work, she cut off a dear and important comrade who could have supported her in numerous ways throughout her working and social life.

And we see this perspective shift with how Ruth is discussed as well. After the quote above, there is one more quote about how Jess has never held someone bigger than herself before - something that you could read as another piece of transmisogyny. But then, after this moment - it stops. There is just deepening relationship between Jess and Ruth that explores the ways that they experience the world and build a life together. And this happens while Jess is undoing and unraveling her other beliefs, as she is reconnecting with Frankie and Duffy. And reading this, we read that Jess learns. That Jess undoes her brainworms. That she opens herself to understanding other experiences of butchness, of womanhood, of transness, than her own.

Are Jess's thoughts and perspectives of Ruth originally full of transmisogyny - yes. But that's the character, Jess. That's not Leslie Feinberg, that's not the book as a piece of literature, that's a character in a book who we're watching change. Feinberg captures the experience of a 1950's butch figuring her way through life by showing us all of it - the good, the bad, the bigoted, the growing, the changing, the love. All of it. That's what good literature does. It makes you think and, sometimes, it makes you uncomfortable.

AND outside of the novel itself, we can look at Leslie Feinberg's broader body of work and hir relationships in community with others and see that ze was actively fighting transmisogyny and in close relationship with trans women in hir communities. Surely ze had to unlearn transmisogynistic ways of thinking, surely ze wasn't perfect, but claiming that hir most famous work is chalk full of transmisogyny is quite wild given what we know about hir and hir active work with trans communities.

So, to put a finer point on it, I will quote my ever-wise wife: "...writing a transmisogynistic character often involves writing transmisogynistic things for them to say."

So, sweet anon, "highly transmisogyinstic" is a huge reach. And it's a boring take.

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The Breadcrumb Glitch is a glitch in mother 1 where you can use the ripped girl, Pippi, to perform a glitch using an item called Breadcrumbs.

It gets you out of bounds in an area that looks like this:

which looks almost exactly like the evil place you can see from the Forgotten Island.

and using the Breadcrumb Glitch in Mother 1 you can skip a large portion of the game.

you will recognize this reference in this context as being evil evil evil evil FUCKING evil

The Ace that is observing this space also calls it “Lousy real estate" in reference to the houses, and also says he found it by trying to see as far as he can. “Seeing too far” is something referenced throughout the weird route, most notably by Spamton NEO in his ending monologue.

but also by Noelle here in reference to the other side of the lake.

Given this is past the boundaries of the map, this could be the coveted “World’s Edge” mentioned in the prophecy, or an edge that will count for such purposes. Given this areas ties to the weird route specifically I am skeptical of the former.

This sequence also seems to parallel sections within the SWORD ROUTE, specifically going on the raft to the ice palace (Noelle describes the waters as getting colder as she goes further, the Glacier area in board 2 is made of bizarre white geometry which terrifies Ralsei, as we see also prior to this if you go to the school, and “snow” is a common description for garbage video data (like TV static, or garbled game assets). What the Ice Palace would be in this context is... something. I'll try to discuss it later

Noelle bringing us this way also brings to mind FOLLOW THE WHITE CLOAK, though this seems like it will be needed for later. Depends on if Noelle’s survives her "voyage".

What this Out of Bounds area entails for us is unknown besides being a place of evil and doom. Going off of the glitch in Mother 1, using the breadcrumbs again in certain spots allows you to wrong warp into other parts of the game, including the door to the final boss and even the game over screen.

Possibilities I’ve considered are:

that it’s a wrong warp to an area in chapter 7

It's a hub to access bizarre areas were not meant to be in for the purposes of “getting stronger” (see Ramb’s description of the Sword Route as having more Freedom). Possibly includes past dark worlds or even ""unused"" dark worlds, though I have a specific thought I'll get to later

If the Mother 1 glitch can access rooms that shouldnt be playable like the game over screen, it may be possible to find a way of “playing” inside the games menu, perhaps ultimately leading to a fake arbitrary code execution (ACE) and breaking the game even harder.

What I think seems most interesting, however, is that it might be some way of entering the primordial “”original game”” of Deltarune. 6.

So, what is the original game?

Deltarune is full of references to stories being adapted from other stories (see Cat Petterz rpg <- Dragon Blazerz <- Lord of the Hammer <- Prophecy, or even the Dark Worlds being adaptations of the Light World).

Deltarune has also made a lot of the story of its own creation diagetic to the narrative (see how often Waiting comes up in game and in promotional material ect.),

Part of this story is a version from 2012 that went nowhere, one that appears to have lacked the sparing system based on stuff like this early version of Jevil's "numbers game" line

This suggests it was a game where you were expected to be enacting violence within the dark world, something you cant do in the game as is.

The Mantle game is described as an original version of a game modified by Tenna that (mostly) removes the Violence and Weird Route centric elements from the game and in its place adds jokes, goofy set pieces, and storylines, as well as making it more linear. Ralsei in the current chapter is also stated as clearly suppressing some violent abilities involving fire, and the Sword Route and 4th Egg room suggest Kris is hiding some violent urges too

Where is the Mantle game? Backstage in an area an area the viewer is not meant to be in. In otherwords, its literally found out of bounds.

The chapter 3 egg room (with the Ace and their binoculars) also has some other traits. It being 8-bit but with normal Kris is one but also the egg mans dialogue: Referring to a time where the world looked like this (a gamboy-esque retro game)

(Next lines might be about the games development into the modern game though I am uncertain)

While not literally the 2012 prototype of the game, I believe the weird route might be building up to a version of Deltarune more ""faithful"" to its original vision prior to Undertale (or at least presented within the story as such).

Another minor thing is that I have a suspicion that the "ice palace" we find the SWORD ROUTE might be alluding to us using the area across the water to access an ""scrapped"" dark world (perhaps intended as the Holiday Residence or the Town Hall). Its important enough to seemingly be a part of Dragon Blazers, yet nowhere in the game implies it is or could be a thing outside the ice palace. It also needs a specific party member to traverse which is very obviously Noelle, which further ties it to the weird route.

A group of curious preschoolers visits some beehives in Stockholm

They’ll say shit like “A woman told me to kill myself because I’m short. This is the reality of the great oppression and torment I live with as a short man in an appearance based society.” and then admit that she cracked and made fun of his height and told him to end himself after he spend days mocking every facet of her appearance and calling her heinous slurs after she rejected him. She used that against you because she sensed that that is the great petty thing you are insecure about, she noticed that you’re suffering from little man syndrome and she guessed correctly. If you have decent hygiene and do not have a repugnant personality, it doesn’t matter that you’re under 5'10", if you’re pleasant to be around, it doesn’t matter if you’re under 5'0". Tom Holland? 5'7", bagged one of the hottest stars in Hollywood, celebrity crush of many woman. Al Pacino? 5'6", ladies LOVE him. Josh Hutcherson? 5'5", also an extremely popular celeb crush for an entire generation. Marc Bolan? Same height as me, a model, a gorgeous man.

At the start of my employment, my boss showed me videos of people stealing, and we both had a chuckle about it. How silly they were! There was a camera overhead, and it’s not to watch the shoppers. See, we can’t actually stop shoplifters. They get away with it maybe nine out of ten times. But we, who are watched and tallied and witnessed? We are always caught.

At first it was hard to hold one hundred dollars bills. An amount I had never seen before. An amount that didn’t exist in my household. It’s normal now. Here is something that is not for me.

“What the hell, I’ll take another,” says the man, pondering our 200 dollar watches. What the hell. Total comes to 580 and not even a flinch in his face. I have been working for 11 hours today and made only 110 dollars. It will go to my rent. Today I work for free, it feels. When I get my check, I will have 35 dollars left for food and saving.

The six hundreds he hands me go into the cash register. For a moment, I imagine having money. Then I put it away, counting out his change.

I know for a fact we sell our products for double what they are worth. That I could be making commission. That they could hand me those 580 dollars and change my life and not even mark the difference in their checkbooks. He’s not the only sale they make today, but I am the reason they made it. He’s not the only one spending 600 dollars, but if I hadn’t spent two hours with him telling me about his life, he wouldn’t have spent any. I go home. I don’t own a watch.

I have watched and rewatched a video on how to make salmon four ways. My shopping list is always the same. Pasta. Rice. Tuna. If I can afford butter it was a good week. I dream of the world I will never walk in, where I can throw the best fish fillet in the cart with a shrug. I hold hundreds in my hand and look up at the camera. I put them under the cash drawer.

I go to work. I scrap together my savings. I eat my bowl of rice slowly. My manager takes a paid week off from work just for his birthday. He owns a yacht. 

i was part of their college program. i moved to the state for it. they legally owned the building i was living in and still charged me rent. i ostensibly was being charged to work for them. it was a 2 bedroom apartment and they placed 6 adult women in it in forced triples.

as many as one in ten disney employees have experienced homelessness while working for the company. despite huge efforts to unionize, strike, or otherwise demand fair treatment; disney has refused to increase employee quality of life.

disney admits publicly that a good portion of their success is because the employees (“cast members”) are dedicated, passionate, and selfless. this is never reflected in pay. even “face” characters (ie those that are princesses etc) make barely above a minimum wage.

at the time that i worked there, i made $8.50 an hour. at one point i was asked to create a human shield around a bag because a bomb dog had alerted to it. for eight fucking dollars an hour.

i now work a very cushy office job. i have bought the salmon and cooked it all four ways.

i go to the store. i am nice to the person behind the counter. she looks up at the camera while she counts out my change. there is nothing fundamentally different about her and i.