GUESS WHO'S BEEN PUSHED TO THEIR FUCKING LIMIT!!!!! <3
Dear Evan Hansen is my favourite musical of all time and its story regularly makes me sob and I'm so sick and tired of having to hesitate when I admit that. DEAR EVAN HANSEN IS A FANTASTIC MUSICAL WITH A STORY ABOUT THE VARIOUS LIMITS POOR MENTAL HEALTH CAN PUSH SOMEONE TO AND HOW THEY SHOULD BE ABLE TO LEARN AND GROW FROM THE MISTAKES THAT MENTAL STATE CAUSES THEM TO MAKE. NO ONE IN DEH IS A WHOLLY GOOD PERSON AND THATS THE FUCKING POINT. As someone who has struggled with severe anxiety that led to depressive episodes and suicidal ideation, teenage me saw myself in Evan in all the worst ways. I saw my people pleasing tendencies that bordered on pathological lying because I was SO scared of people being mad at me. I saw the intense desire for companionship but the isolation of feeling like you're staring at the world through one-way glass. The pushing away of family members that were doing their best to help me because I didn't want to think about how broken I was anymore. I saw a version of myself on that stage that was so raw and so real, and the idea that someone like Evan could continue going after what he had done, that he could push through all the weeds in his mind and come out on the other side, it gave me hope that maybe I could to. It kept me going at one of the darkest and loneliest points of my life. Everyone is entitled to an opinion, I would never try and tell anyone that they aren't allowed to think something I like is bad or that they aren't allowed to express that in public. It just... hurts when it seems like most of the DEH content on not just this website but others, is bashing the story or more specifically bashing Evan. Crying out about how horrible and irredeemable of a person he is, how the story didn't do nearly enough to punish him. I just needed to get this shit off my chest so bad. This has been gnawing at me for what feels like years.












