Ash

I never thought It’d come to this point but I really need help. I’m in a situation where all my life I’d always try to help others and aid others in their needs. Even just to put a smile on someone’s face would be enough for me. But now I’m in an unfortunate circumstance and with covid-19 going on I can’t reach out to many people I personally know and my family aren’t people who are necessarily the best. I need to find a place to live, as well as for food and things like that. I want to be able to achieve my dreams of being a writer and a graphic designer I want to entertain people and put smiles on everyone’s faces. However, I can’t do any of that right now. And it’s why I’m asking you guys. Even if you don’t have the ability to donate or anything like that, just sharing will be enough. I’d be more than happy to and if you do happen to donate, drop your name in my inbox and I’d be happy to write a personal short story/imagine/headcannons or even draw something for you. Again, thank you for taking the time to read this. I greatly appreciate it. Much love to all of you. I’m always here if you need someone to talk to.

So I am adding one of my top five favorite gifs ever, which also coincidentally sums up the last year of this blog.

Tagging @madlenfireknight​, @quaint-and-curious-being​, @deathonyourtongue​, @squishy-jellyfish​​

I call this, “I Like to Pretend I Have My Shit Together, But Everyone Knows That’s Not True”

@theincaprincess @xxbyimm @soradragon @thefanficmistress @pixiedurango @blankdblank

welp 

I have my memes stored so this is one of the 5 I have left downloaded XD

Uhhh UHHHHH I’m not good at tagging ppl hold the FUCK on

I have so many good ones but I know I only had to choose one to put in this post so here.

When I was a child, from the time I was about four and could understand things, my mom told me and my brother that we should have a secret word. That way, if we were ever in trouble or felt unsafe and we didn’t want the people around us to know we needed her to come get us, we could let her know. So she let us pick the word and my brother and I chose the phrase “peanut butter cups.” (I’m happy to share the phrase now since both my brother and I are adults now). 

I used the phrase twice in my life. Once, I was at a friends house when I eight years old. Her dad got really drunk and was throwing things against the wall. I was really scared and I didn’t want to draw attention to myself on the phone when I called my mom to come get me because I didn’t know if he would get more violent if I asked her to come get me. So I called her and was calm and after a couple minutes I asked “Hey mommy, did you get me those peanut butter cups from the store?” And she said “I’ll be right there.” And she came and got me within minutes. 

Second, I was a teenager spending the night at a friends house. Her brother and dad were drinking and they started talking about things that made me uncomfortable - ie: what they liked to do to women. My friend didn’t seem perturbed and said that was normal for them and that I shouldn’t worry. But I was worried because they were really drunk and I was 15 and the only ‘woman’ around that wasn’t related to them. I went in my friends room, told her I needed to call my mom and say goodnight. Before I hung up with her I asked “Next time we go to the store, can we get some peanut butters cups? I’ve been craving them.” And she came and got me, just like that. 

Even if you just ask the child “Do you know this person” if the adult butt’s in make sure to ASK THE CHILD! Even a shy kid will tell you they don’t know this person or just met them or something!

due to personal reasons i’ll be posting these since nobody else does

bonus:

I never thought It’d come to this point but I really need help. I’m in a situation where all my life I’d always try to help others and aid others in their needs. Even just to put a smile on someone’s face would be enough for me. But now I’m in an unfortunate circumstance and with covid-19 going on I can’t reach out to many people I personally know and my family aren’t people who are necessarily the best. I need to find a place to live, as well as for food and things like that. I want to be able to achieve my dreams of being a writer and a graphic designer I want to entertain people and put smiles on everyone’s faces. However, I can’t do any of that right now. And it’s why I’m asking you guys. Even if you don’t have the ability to donate or anything like that, just sharing will be enough. I’d be more than happy to and if you do happen to donate, drop your name in my inbox and I’d be happy to write a personal short story/imagine/headcannons or even draw something for you. Again, thank you for taking the time to read this. I greatly appreciate it. Much love to all of you. I’m always here if you need someone to talk to.