Be Redonkulous

I didn't imagine myself here at 21. I didn't imagine not knowing how to control my life. I didn't imagine id be making these hard decisions. I didn't imagine id be in this relationship and how it is now. I didn't imagine that I wasn't going to be happy for a long time.

It's like when you start to miss one of your closest best friends and it's already been 4 years and the last time I saw him was a little over half a year ago when he promised me he'll try to come to my job to see me and talk a little when he can or when he's not with his wife. And ever since then I haven't seen him. I guess he's busy with his life. People have seen him, people can chat with him. But I can't because his wife hates me for no reason 👌🏻 it's cool I understand. I guess. Now I just creeped on them for a second and found out he got into an accident and I missed his birthday. I hope he's okay and I hope he had a wonderful 22nd birthday. I'm still not over what kind of friendship we had because it was one of the closest I've ever had with someone. He was always there for me and I was always there for him. No judgment no nothing. I miss him dearly and I hope he knows that no matter what or how long it's been he'll have a place in my heart. And the moment when he said I couldn't attend his wedding. Oh yeah that hurt 😑 he's Just one of those guys that deserve that one place, not because I was in love with him, but because he ment something to me like your favorite brother that took care of you and made sure you're okay decided to stop caring and went to live in a different state and stopped checking up on you. Yeah. Thats how I feel.

When a hoe bullshits you about things. Tell me to have a good day? Lord have mercy. SHE met me and knew who I was. SHE SHOOK MY GOD DAMN HAND. And still continued to talk to him like I wasn't in his life for the past 4 years? It's disgusting really. The reality of people doing shit behind your back. Boy. Bout to punch a bitch back to the Philippines and make sure she never sees the day of light again.

Going to start making videos again. Its August so its Vlog Every Day month soooo LETS TRY! Here’s a video i did a few weeks back with my friends. Trying Natto aha. FERMENTED SOY BEAN!

A day with the big baby #yumi #niece #duckface #loveher #yassss

- New Tumblr account ;o

yesssssir (;

This tattoo not only means something to me. It's a work of art.