I'm never going to get better my life is already wasted and I'm just a burden

I'm just so tired and I ache for a better life that I know I don't deserve or will get

I just want help I can't keep waiting I can't keep doing this with no way out anywhere in sight

He should've just pulled the trigger like he yelled he would I feel like I'm dead anyway

I now understand what they mean with the body holding onto trauma because I'm shaking and hurting all over as if it's slowly being released after getting some closure

I need to give myself grace for finally going through the process of healing. It's not fast or glamorous or how I want it to be, but it's needed so that I can grow as a person. I cannot stay stuck how I was, and I am making progress even if I can't see it for myself

I'm grateful for the three people in my life who haven't given up on me. I want to have hope for the future, I want to be happy again some day

I reached out to someone from my past and they said they would rather not meet up again and another one has ignored me completely. It hurts and it sucks, cause I am literally all alone, but perhaps it's for the best. I've been holding on to the past for no reason, while knowing deep down I couldnt go back anyway.

Id rather be dead than live through this for 3 more years I'm so tired

I didn't want this I didn't ask for this I just needed help and I'm still not getting it

Don't know how much longer I can just bare it

Nothing worse than a mother who hates you and yet won't even admit that to herself

I really hope my next life will be kinder to me I'm so exhausted and I just don't see it getting better anytime soon