I STAND TALL AND PROUD AND UNPLEASANT

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

I love indie games. Thank you for not costing 70 dollars. I love you.

ooh look at me i’m Laura Bailey i married a guy who’s 6 foot 4 but is also a big DND nerd like me and we renewed our vows while roleplaying our OCs in front of a crowd of adoring fans and then i get to watch those same OCs fall in love again in a full animated series

no not Vex that’s my other OC who had a fairytale romance that i got to roleplay having a wedding and see in a full animated series i’m Laura Bailey

OK that's a very effective disguise