Lost In My Mind

love so much that my heart get broke

how do i bury all the love letters that you’ll never see?

the playlist that your ears won’t ever fall into

the whole album of art

i had never been so divinely sure yet

Maybe this is just proof of parallel universes

But a lesson on how they are not supposed to collide

Because I know this exists somewhere else

But I can’t seem to tap into it here

Sometimes I lay awake at night and think

I have to build a bridge between us even if my tears fill the passing underneath

I will never abandon you

I will just love you harder from a distance

Because I can’t keep hoping I wake up to good mornings and fall asleep to your good night

It may never happen anywhere but my dreams

I’ve drilled patience into every opening of your inconsistencies

I painted every behavior with its reasoning

I favored the idea of riding your storms so much more than anyone else’s calm

I studied you so I could show you the love you never got

It’s so poetic yet for some reason feels so tragic

Because you have no idea how quietly I’ve loved you

In all of the ways you desire, have hoped for

You wanted your other half but