boring thoughts

ever fantasize about a version of your life that wasn’t led by fear?

y’all ever wanna go ‘fuck it’, drop everything and just leave the city you’re in

kinda fucked up that sometimes your reward for not killing yourself is just more bad shit happening to you lmaoooo

Ever been so sad and broken that you can’t move. So you just sit there, frozen, paralyzed by your pain and suffer. Because that’s all you can do.

I think I’m getting better and then everything gets bad again. 

I'm so sick of myself

I’m jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don’t have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don’t struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don’t struggle to hold friendships and relationships… they don’t feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can hold jobs and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all.