All Of My Things

dead is just a word

I had a vision

PRINCE AEMOND TARGARYEN in HOUSE OF THE DRAGON 3x05

He’s 517, but physically he’s 27 (but he’s also possibly physically younger than that and doesn’t remember) but mentally, he’s still that teenager Marius bought from the brothel. Sometimes you look at him and how he’s acting and he’s just so Amadeo. That’s why he often looks like a kid playing dress up in his dad’s clothes and why his mood changes so quickly. The abuse froze him as a kid even after he entered adulthood and then vampirism froze all that trauma and trapped him there forever. He never really left Venice. He never really will.

cut the cameras

Our local loser who goes bowling alone also shouts Pulitzer prize winner names when he hits a strike

"Guess I don't have to tell you dear diary, what is like to have a person crack your spine, open you up and shove a pencil inside you. And I fought him, even with my broken arm and then my rebroken arm, but even still all the bad things happened that bad men do. He had my legs pulled apart and my dress pulled up ‘round my waist. And that awful, stuffed full, too wet feeling down there, like I was packed with dirt. And I hope one day he feels this, small and cornered and crushed like a can. But then there were the parts, where he brought home kills, and I sat with him and ate. I just said what he wanted to hear. And it ain’t easy to like myself ‘cause of it. I even once felt a twinge of something nice, and not the worse thing ever. He let me go, ‘cause I seemed small and it looked like he’d won. And he did win, ‘cause I want nothing, to be nothing, and say nothing, and do nothing. You know the stupidest of all dear diary? I thought I was the thing lurking in the shadows. I thought I was.”

2x05 | 3x04

I am scared to go to bed