Sad Of Trying

no one knows what he’s doing there

Trying his best

Suprisingly, still alive

If we were both children and the little boy wanted to replicate what he had seen somewhere else, is that SA?

I wish i didnt freeze whenever i try to make myself food

I wish i was one of those people who can eat whatever without even having to know what it is or what’s in it

I wish i was able to postulate to places to have a job without procrastinating for 2years

I wish i wasn’t afraid i wouldn’t be able to pull up if i had a job

I wish taking a shower and brushing my teeth were part of my everyday routine

I wish i didn’t have ocd and having to ask reassurance 24h/24 or else i think i’m the worst being on earth and i’m unlovable

I wish i could love normally and not having to wait for someone else to love me and accept the fact that i can’t love them back

I wish i wasn’t insecure about everything i do and feel like i need supervision for everything

I wish my brain was just wired differently, more appropriate for this society

I wish i could do all the things i want without being limited by time or tireness

I wish i had someone i could call home

I wish i could just always unmask and not being percieved and mean or mad