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ykw not to quantify """trauma""" but (doing exactly that) i actually have decided that nine months of almost dying multiple times comma attempting suicide getting albeit temporarily kicked out developing substance use problems sleeping outdoors honestly anything about being transgender in an ER is actually probably worse than "being very stressed about my life due to yr proximity to my situation." which isn't to dismiss the very real, inexcusable, irreversible, & tangible harm that the latter entailed but just to say that "you commenting on how proud you are for surviving this year despite, & i quote, 'That Shit,' is admirable but also - in my uncharitabel & petty moments - feels kind of ludicrous considering the fact that 'That Shit' had My Pulmonary Embolysms involved." like again i'm not discrediting or minimizing the very very real + painful experience it must have been to be near all of this stuff & my reactions to this stuff but also like wow you had to spend a week sleeping on your friend's couch before moving into your new apartment? that's so sad. (not totally sarcastic, it is sad/hard/difficult). i'm actually still sleeping on my friend's floor and might not graduate depending on how scary my lab results come back tomorrow. but congratulations on submitting your thesis even though you don't feel proud of it since you associate it with 'going through That Shit.' it's very interesting because i actually wasn't able to write a thesis at all due to um, Being Me! 👍🏽