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This is a multifandom blog focusing on RPGs, CRPGs (notably Wrath of the Righteous, Rogue Trader, BG3, and Mass Effect), Nintendo, Severance, and classic anime. I attempt to write, I attempt to draw. I end up doing okay.

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Fandom OCs (links added soon):

Wrath of the Righteous Kadira

Baldur's Gate Abigail, Zophus, Soluna

D&D Illyanna, Mavelith, Nikolai, Tomi, Xanna

Rogue Trader Amelia, Katherine, Lucas

So uh... life has been hard.

Work is intense, even if I love my students, and left me with little energy for fandom.

My dad, whom I'm super close to, had a stroke in November. He's currently at a nursing home so I'm trying to balance SO many things.

Just... don't forget me? :(

I'm on cosmictides on discord... until the next big thing hits. I'll keep you posted. And I'm always invisible because some days I am a puddle.

@loderlied - JEFF IS MAKING WEIRD OLLIE LEVEL SHIT AGAIN AND IT'S BEAUTIFUL

Excuse you. He is a fundamentalist. He is an engineer. This man is roiling with rage and sarcasm, brandishing a goddamn hit list if you're not careful. (art by eren_kivneyl on reddit and other locations)

He is the Implacable Man, and should be loved for his monstrous tendencies that makes the goddamn Drukhari look like an incompetent bozo.

Anyway, the headcanon is Kadira expressed worry about the Drezen March and that her hooves might not tolerate the march (she doesn't know a lot of details about goats and their hoof durability - she's fine). Daeran mocked that she should wear horse shoes instead.

She stomped on his foot.

This is very silly and I'd like you all to do it with your OCs. Find the link here! Tagging...

Kadira is big. She's 220lbs in the prologue and by the time she gets to Drezen, she's 180lbs and a good portion of that is muscle she gained on the march, though she never dips under that weight. She's never what the BMI calculator calls 'normal'.

Kadira spent her teenhood and young adulthood with succubi. Succubi couldn't touch her, but they decided to the next best thing, mock her and tear her down. She was fat. She was ugly. She was boring. A goodie-two shoes. A weak fiendling.

It's hard to shake that belief when you don't have the support. And this feeling she's ugly and unloveable chases her. The thing is? Succubi can lie. Being fat was the only thing they didn't lie about, but they turned that neutral descriptor into a knife.

That's why it's important for Kadira to have a genuine succubus be baffled at Kadee's self esteem issues. Arueshalae finds Kadira gorgeous both in personality and in body. Kadee has clear beautiful skin, big blue eyes, thick hair, and an hourglass shape, with symmetrical features. Arue knows that Kadira's fiendish heritage is diabolic, but she suspects that many humans think Kadira might have succubi heritage. Of course, Kadira wouldn't believe Arue right away, years and years of being told otherwise can't be solved so quickly.

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Enjoy Kadira, Zophus, Amelia, and Katherine, Romeo!

How do they react to the realization that they like the other character? Is it an “oh my god I’m never going to think about this again” thing, or are they pretty comfortable with it?

Kadee x Daeran - It's hard for Kadira to admit when she genuinely starts to like Daeran. It's something that grows during the first two chapters of the game - it goes from frustrated annoyance to slowly getting to know him and genuinely like him as a person. Romantic or sexual attraction is there, deep down, but Kadira is very quick to dismiss it as impossible due to her self esteem (she believes most folks see her as unattractive) and her duty (that lurking horror of her impending doom). The first time she admits to herself she loves Daeran is the end of Chapter 3, before they go to the Abyss, when he chooses to go with her. There's a fear that she carries because she's terrified she'll break his heart when she decides to deal with the Worldwound, but ultimately she's accepting of her love for him and that he's worth dealing with the trauma of survival for.

Zophus x Raphael - There's always a negativity towards his feelings for Raphael. Unlike most in the Tadfools, Zophus has an awareness of how powerful and how old Raphael is, and he attempts to build his walls to keep from developing anything more than sexual attraction. After all, sex is sex. The dawning horror he's in love is rough for Zophus, and he's never quite sure if this is real or desperation to finally belong to something.

Amelia x Marazhai - Amelia decides to grab Marazhai's description of their relationship and cling to it for dear life. It's obsession, he's teaching her how to be stronger, his dark beauty can be controlled by her. It's just obsession, it has nothing to do with love. She tells herself she doesn't care for the ambition that Marazhai has, the dark sense of humor, the ability to understand the cruelty and apply it to her own climb to the top and advance the needs of humanity. Ultimately, she is forever in denial about her feelings as much as Marazhai is in his feelings for her.

Katherine x Heinrix - It's such a slow burn between them over a matter of months to years. It begins with a genuine connection and fondness, though their origin couldn't be more different (Voidborn Gunnery Clan and Imperial Nobility), their teen and young adulthood is all but the same. She sees the signs of a good, man, and she ultimately isn't upset she realizes she's in love with him, she knows the chances of a happy ending are slim. Katherine is going to accept her feelings and try… until he rejects her during her Accession Ceremony. That's when she tries to avoid him for an entire year or more until Chapter 3…

Do they (or would they) pursue the other character’s affection, and if so, how? Do they tell the other character how they feel? Try to earn their admiration? Woo them with romantic gestures? Flirt with them, skillfully or otherwise?

Kadira x Daeran - She doesn't really pursue's Daeran's affection under the belief he finds her unattractive and dull. She giggles at his jokes, sneaks him some alcohol and hair oil she's made, but in her eyes that's friendship. It's Daeran who feels he has to earn Kadee's admiration because while he knows there's something a touch off, she's genuine in caring about others and her protective nature towards him. Kadee begins to do as many acts of service that she can for Daeran, since she's not sure how to woo with gifts. Her flirting skills are awful because they boil down to small talk, but Daeran likes the attempt, anyway.

Zophus x Raphael - Raphael begins wooing, easily reading that while Zophus is intelligent and perspective, he's a lonely man. Attention and admiration is enough for Zophus to slowly develop his devotion to the other man. He's far better at flirting than Kadee, but has a harder time with romantic gestures because most of Zophus' relationships are very, very short. Whatever Raphael asks, Zophus will get, though he'll always question his lover and master as a 'devil's advocate'.

Amelia x Marazhai - The officer had no idea she began a courtship when her 5'4 couldn't grab anything but Marazhai's throat to tell him to fuck off. Then she saw the flicker in his eyes and while she wasn't sure - he's a Xenos of all things - she decided to push at the boundaries of this game he devised. Physical affection and praise becomes her mainstays with Marazhai, who takes a little while to appreciate it in private.

Katherine x Heinrix - Kathy begins pursuing after Heinrix's affection in a slow, subtle manner. She isn't really trying to woo him between games of regicide, but between their conversations, their fierce protectiveness for one another during battle, she basically woos Heinrix because she genuinely cares for him, and that middle aged is emotionally touched starved. A little before her Acension, Katherine begins to subtly flirt to watch him lose his cool and to gage if he likes her too. Even their first kiss felt perfect… but that was ultimately ruined with Calazar raining on her parade, making Kathy realize that Heinrix might not see everything like she does and that she made a mistake.

What do they think about romantic love? Do they have baggage surrounding it? Do they idealize it? Is it an object of longing and wanting, or were they really not thinking about it until they started falling for the other character? What are their expectations like?

Kadira - Kadira thinks romantic love is real, wonderful, and should be celebrated. She just never thought it would happen to her due to the Crusade and she forever thinking she's not attractive physically or in personality. It makes her panic because Kadee really doesn't think she'll live long enough for someone to fall in love with her and if that small miracle occurs, she'll die on them anyway. Her expectations are incredibly low, but Daeran simply sails over them as they both stumble and figure out about falling in love.

Zophus - He doesn't believe in romantic love, he believes in duty. Once Raphael ensnares him, everything Zophus does for the cambion is shaped by the concept of 'duty'. It's his duty to make sure to protect Raphael and his ambitions for order within the universe, it's his duty to let Raphael know that Raphael is worthy, desirable, and far more than anyone believes. It's not love. Never love. It's duty. And much to his confusion, Raphael begins to share this duty with Zophus.

Amelia - As a noble in an Imperial World, Amelia very much wanted to fall in a courtship and get married. Eventually, she will have to be married to a human lord to ensure there isn't a crisis of finding a heir for the dynasty. However, if you told her she'd develop a long distance relationship with a Drukhari that goes beyond most humans extended lifetime, she'd laugh at you. During her relationship and the horror that spirals from that to her crew, Amelia never uses the word 'love' in her relationship with the Archon. Even when the Archon figures out ways how to extend her life that are a little beyond causal Heresy, both she and he call it their mutual 'addiction'.