Frida Kahlo told her husband, "I'm not asking you to kiss me, nor apologize to me when I think you're wrong. I won't even ask you to hug me when I need it most. I don't ask you to tell me how beautiful I am, even if it's a lie, nor write me anything beautiful. I won't even ask you to call me to tell me how your day went, nor tell me you miss me. I won't ask you to thank me for everything I do for you, nor to care about me when my soul is down, and of course, I won't ask you to support me in my decisions. I won't even ask you to listen to me when I have a thousand stories to tell you. I won't ask you to do anything, not even be by my side forever. Because if I have to ask you, I don't want it anymore.”

saw a post that said “your belief in your du’ās coming true has to be greater than the fear of them not being answered" and honestly, thats it, thats our key to it all. tawakkul.

I do realize time and time again my very unhealthy behaviors were just me being scared and trying to protect myself

I'll make a garden in which I'll plant fruit trees like pomegranate, litchi I'll grow flowers lily lotus roses and the main thing I want a rose arch too and small bird houses and I want duckss and a lil pond too uhm yeah swan yes I want swan too

"Ya Allah… I'm tired. I feel heavy. I feel scared. But I am still here. Please place ease in my chest. Lighten what I carry. I know You see me. I know You hear me. And even when I don’t understand what I’m feeling… You do."

i love how we pick up habits and phrases and songs from people we love and it sticks with us for so long it becomes a piece of us making us a museum of all the people we've ever loved