Question to all the aces out there that experience any semblance of libido, sexual thoughts or sexual desire:
Do you feel almost a sense of dysphoria about it sometimes?
Yes
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As in, it feels strange like it is not a part of you? Not necessarily even distressing, could also be in a way that feels "other" to you. Like "tf was that, I can't imagine this would happen again"?
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Head canon: The first years love to say âugh Iâm gonna over-blot â instead of Iâm gonna kms. Every time they say it, the students around them just look concerned cause theyâre the notorious group that went against their over-blotted house-wardens. Whenever they say it in front of their upperclassmen tho. There are varying reactions ranging from ohâŚOk! To wtf???
Theyâre all equally concerned. It gets to the point where they have to hold a house-wardens meeting including vices(malleus was invited(for the first time in forever) and Ruggie bcs I mean cmon).
EACH of the first years are guilty of this btw. Like Ace and deuce say it all the time while theyâre painting the roses and the other students around them just stare at them and slowly back away every time. Epel says it whenever he gets the chance(ofc not around Vil or rook unless he slips up) and letâs just say pomefiore is truly debating if their first year needs help. Jack also says it but like not that often unless like heâs really tired. So you can imagine Savanaclaws shock when they hear him say it after he got back from wherever the hell he was at with the first years(no seriously should we tell Housewarden???)(uhm noâŚ? IDK???). Then you got ortho, Ngl I donât know if ignihyde would be too shocked bcs letâs be honest theyâre all gamers, theyâve def said some wild shit but maybe they would just slowly send a message to Idia just in case when they heard ortho say it like for the fourth time in just two minutes. Sebek? Well he wouldnât say it often at all lile Jack but he does slip up when heâs especially tired. So you can imagine how his roommates would react to hearing him say that after he just got back from training. Like theyâd be mildly concerned and debate telling someone. And finally for Yuu, THEY are the main culprit of this spread of the phrase to the other first years. They mentioned how it was a ânormalâ thing to say back in their world. So now they got all the first years saying it. They are also the one that uses it the most. Crewel heard them say it once and had to backtrack for a minute.
Idk me personally I say it a lot and like my friends and family are used to it but when I say it with someone outside of the usual circle without meaning to, they look at me like Iâm crazyđ
#genuinely: this is what further research into the famous 'marshmallow test' showed#it wasn't that kids who were able to delay gratification were more likely to be successful later on#due to intrinsic qualities#it was that kids who had a stable upbringing were more likely to be successful#and ALSO: those kids had trust that their caregivers would keep promises#which is WHY they were willing to give up one marshmallow now for the promise of two marshmallows later#kids who did NOT have trustworthy caregivers#or who were in a fundamentally unstable situation#DID NOT have that trust so they wanted their one marshmallow NOW#same deal here i think#it's not that Gen Z is bratty#it's that they have no trust in the system and no faith that promises will be fulfilled#and frankly i do not blame them -@cicerfics
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i need to get off tumblr iâm at the aquarium admiring the fish and my brain goes âposts that make you want to get in the waterâ what are you talking about. these are live fish in the room with you. what post.
Love how trans people choosing their names has just as much variety as parents picking names for their kids. You have the people who just go from Alexandra to Alexander, the off spellings, the fictional character names, the people who have gender-neutral given names and still decide "Fuck it, if I have the opportunity to legally name myself Sparkles I will" and that one guy who goes by like,,, Bill for a while and then changes it to something like Dextro Energy or Destiel Silvester 3 weeks before it becomes official. I just think that's neat.
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#idk what this means or if i do this but ig i'll just hold my phone with my pinky stuck out from now on??Â
Good question, also no that wonât help.
shitty MS Paint 3 minutes doodle, nto entirely accurate: When you have your pinky hooked on the âbottomâ edge of the phone for the extra security so it doesnât slide out of your hand that easily, youâre wreaking damage on your hand, since the pinky is extremely askew from itâs resting position. You might have noticed that when you hold your phone like that for long time it begins to hurt, like when you are gripping a pen too tightly for example.
Green lines - the fingers are going their natural way. Red line - the pinky is way off, thatâs bad.
just so weâre clear if youâve never actually seen a cybertruck in person and have only seen photos of them i cannot stress enough how much worse they look in real life. like i honestly donât know how itâs possible. most things look basically the same in pictures and in real life. but as stupid and ugly as cybertrucks look in photos, every person iâve spoken to who has seen one in real life agrees that they somehow look even worse in person. and i know youâre thinking to yourself âtah they already look so bad in photos, how can they possibly look even worse in person?â I DONT KNOW. the first time i saw one on the road i was on a phone call and i literally cut myself off in the middle of a sentence just to be like âoh my GOD.â just an incredibly, laughably, unbelievably bad vehicle. iâve never experienced anything like it. theyâre just so bad
they should make it illegal to end your story with an epilogue where your main female character is suddenly randomly married and has children when she's never once expressed a desire for this previously
there has been some good awareness raising abt the insidiousness of Jim Crow and how that would have impacted Alastor as a creole man of color in the 1920-30s. but new orleans had very specific and regional racial dynamics, influenced by its history as a former French and Spanish colony.
in particular, there was a large community of creoles of color who were more racially fluid under previous colonial regimes, had built up considerable wealth and social power, were very impacted by Jim Crow, but continued to hold themselves separate from Anglo-African communities, maintaining their own social institutions, clubs, and secret societies. in some cases, creoles of color who were considered legally Black under American law did not consider themselves Black. colorism was a major factor in the social life of people in jazz age New Orleansâthe âbrown paper bag test", where establishments would admit patrons only if they were lighter than a brown paper bag, was first described in exclusive Black social clubs in new orleans.
for alastor, in this environment, being light-skinned, french-speaking, and possibly from a poorer ex-urban family outside of NOLAâs afro-creole establishment, would have been elements of his identity almost as important as being legally Black under jim crow. under the cut i'll try to touch on some specific aspects and add some resources because social dynamics in nola have 200 years of history informing them.
creating categories of race in early New Orleans
first, letâs establish that race is made up. in the United States, Blackness has long been an either/or proposition. Youâre Black or youâre not. In the years following the Civil War this definition was further tightened into âone drop ruleâ where a single non-white ancestor was enough to exclude a person from whiteness (at least in theory, in practice, lots of mixed-race people successfully âcrossed the color lineâ, becoming white by moving towns and cutting off ties with their families).
things worked differently in Spanish and French (mostly Spanish) colonies. although exact regimes varied, there were always gradations, distinctions late between citizens born in the homeland vs. the colony, between free and enslaved. complex caste systems developed, based on the finer details of ancestry and birth. in New Orleans, this became what one scholar calls âa tripartite system of race and racial fluidityâ. specific terms were developed to describe the free (librĂŠs or affranchis) and those born in Louisiana rather than Europe or Africa (creole, meaning âcreatedâ). slaves gained their freedom much more easily in French and Spanish New Orleans than the fledgling American colonies (despite efforts to limit manumission in the 1723 code noir which were rolled back under later Spanish rule) and the large free Black and creole of color population gave rise to complicated social dynamics.
the distinction there is important. identity among creoles with African ancestry was weighty. they were subject to restrictive, racialized legal codes. in particular, intermarriage was strictly forbidden. despite this, many mixed race children were born and often acknowledged and left inheritancesâto the point that further laws were passed capping the amount of a white personâs inheritance that could be left to a non-white person at 1/3. this is not to say these relationships were goodâinequality persisted and even the most adored children born in these circumstances were still subject to marginalization. but the end result was an increasingly wealthy, often white-passing group of creoles of colorâhighly educated, propertyowning, and separated from the white elites of the city by the tiniest quirk of birth.
influenced by the caste-based systems developed in Spanish colonies in Latin America, many of these mixed-race Creoles sought to separate themselves from âBlacknessâ and establish an intermediate identity. though the Spanish castas system was designed to prevent the descendants of Africans from ever becoming white, it also allowed mixed-race creoles language with which to define themselves as something other than Black and they ran with the opportunity.
shortly before American acquisition, creoles of color and free Blacks made up 1/6 of the population of New Orleans. âHistorian David Rankin determined from the 1850 census that of all American cities, New Orleans "had the highest percentage of free black males employed as artisans, professionals, and entrepreneurs, and the lowest in 'low opportunity' occupations like laborer, mariner, gardener, servant, and waiter. New Orleans also contained more than a quarter of all free men of color employed as professionals, managers, artists, clerks, and scientists in the fifteen largest cities in the United States.â
they held property (including slaves), had their own social clubs and events, and wrote extensively. the âfirst 10 short stories of African American literature were written in French here in Louisiana,â during the early 19th century. however, during this flourishing, the rights of free Black and creole of color were being heavily curtailed. following American takeover in 1803, laws were rapidly passed, first to forbid free Black people from other territories from entering Louisiana, then to kick free Black men out (this one was never fully enforced. finally, free citizens of color were formally forbidden the vote and forced to carry documents when traveling. whatever freedom they had under French and Spanish rule was over. in 1857 emancipation was banned, as were gatherings of free Black people. many wealthier citizens fled to France, South America, or the Caribbean. others stayed, and though their collective wealth saw a slight boom during the antebellum period, it was then slowly eaten away through the civil war, and Jim Crow. emancipation and the end of slavery, in some ways curtailed options of free Black and creole of color Louisianans âforc[ing] them into a more rigid social structure of white and nonwhiteâ.
plessy vs ferguson: a distinctly creole case
a fact sometimes forgotten in discussions of the advent of Jim Crow, is that Homer Plessy, the man who fought a case against segregation all the way to the Supreme Court in 1896 and lost, paving the way for the advent of âseparate but equalâ and Jim Crow, was creole, born in New Orleans. and, if you look at his picture, he was very light-skinned.
this was no accident! homer plessy was specifically picked by a group of Black and creole of color advocates to press his case because he was racially ambiguous. Louisiana had a brief stint of good government during reconstruction, they even elected the first Black governor, PBS Pinchback. however, with segregation beginning to tighten once more, a french-speaking citizens group decided to act, using the racial fluidity of some (though not all! lotta diversity in the creole community, even within families) mixed race creoles in an attempt to undermine binary American definitions of race. plessy had to tell the conductor of the train car he was mixed race to be removed and, as one (sympathetic) newspaper put it, he was âas white as the average white Southerner.â
this legal strategy and other similar ones failed, with the Supreme Court siding against the Louisianans. however, the nature of their arguments is tellingâfor New Orleans, race had long been fluid and it took efforts from up top to make the lines strict.
the kicker? on the 1920 census homer plessy was identified as white.
english vs french a crucial dynamic
another critical element is the dynamic between English speaking and french speaking people of color in New Orleans. the âold moneyâ of the free Black and creole populations, whose wealth carried over from the French and Spanish eras, whoâd had generations to establish themselves in the city, were invariably French speaking. creole, the language, carried its own social connotations; wealthier creoles (of all ancestries) might be educated in France and speak a more continental french than their city-educated counterparts. newspapers and public notices were also invariably in this âcolonial frenchâ vs creole or cajun. the first Black owned newspaper in the state was in French, followed up by a bilingual successor. as more English speakers flicked to the city and more Black citizens came to speak English and English alone, french became both a status symbol and a locus of othering. âCreoleâ as an identity was partially defined by being francophone/creole-speaking and being creole was, as weâve previously covered, not the same as being Black (though it could and can overlap, depending on how an individual chose to identify).
americanization slowly began to transform New Orleans into a microcosm of the south in legal codes and racial definitions but creole society continued to favor french fashions and their french dialect as a way of maintaining their unique culture. In 1915, however, french education in public schools was banned, beginning the marginalization of the language.
today, language is the primary signifier of continued creole identity as more and more descendants of the creole community identify with American racial categories. the preservation of french and Louisiana creole has therefore always been crucial to the continued preservation of the distinct identity of creoles of color.
secret societies, mutual aid, debutantes, clubs, and colorism
community organizations have always been a core part of new orleansâ social fabric. in the 19th century, organizations started by creoles of color provided opportunities to both socialize and engage in charity. these groups offered medical and dental care, covered burials, held Sunday socials and waltzes. after emancipation, many more English-speaking Black social organizations were formed, identical to their creole counterparts but usually kept separate. this wasnât a hard and fast rule but language and religious differences limited overlap). homer plessy was a prominent member of a benevolent aid society.
two regular events kept societies and benevolent organizations crucial to the development of jazz in New Orleans: balls and burials. balls were events with live music, meant to encourage socialization and often intended to introduce newly of age young people to the community. from the 1890s, debutante balls around Mardi Gras were an opportunity for young ladies to show off and elaborate themes, costuming, and courtly manners were de rigeur. burials were also a critical chance for societies to flex; with members parading in formal wear, accompanied by brass bands and lines.
social clubs were also a key part of the picture. one location, the autocrat club, was particularly notable as a collectively run creole venue, hosting dance and music events with less harassment from the police. however, these venues were not free of internal prejudice. the autocrat club was accused by performers and locals of barring entry to those with a skin tone âdarker than a paper bagâ. the club itself (which still stands) has pushed back against this claim but concedes that these policies might have been implemented by any of the many aid societies, dance clubs, and other organizations who used their space. scholar Henry Louis gates jr. claimed that he first heard of the âpaper bag testâ from university classmates from Louisianaâif it did not originate in New Orleans its association there goes deep.
in short, although social organizations and Black led venues provided respite from Jim Crow society and were crucial to jazz age New Orleans musical development, they were not immune to internal prejudices and were often stratified along gender, religious, cultural, or color lines. even within the Black and creole of color community, divides were carefully policed and membership in organizations, which provided a protective shield against the deprivations of segregated society, could be segregated themselves.
geography and insularity, maintaining the creole identity
having established that creoles of color historically classified themselves as distinct from Anglo-African Americans, used their racial ambiguity and white ancestry to attempt to undermine segregation laws, and yet sometimes favored lighter skinned and francophone (especially those who could speak âcontinental frenchâ) individuals within their own communities, letâs discuss the community altogether.
following the civil war, creole families spread out from the city center, landing in the 5-9th wards, but especially the 7th. there, families lived in close proximity, with creole churches, schools, and stores close together. many could avoid leaving their enclave for days at a time.
close knit, creole neighborhoods shielded members from interaction with outsiders. life was structured around church, school (many creole children of color were sent to (segregated) catholic schools, in part so they wouldnât have to interact with non-creoles), and social clubs. both white people and non-creole Black people were distrusted and held at arms length. it was a tightly tied community, patriarchal but bound together by female labor. Natalie McPherson notes that in contrast to Black women in New Orleans, who often had to take domestic work, creole women of color made every effort to stay homeârenting out rooms in their houses and taking on sewing work to do so. this allowed them to draw further lines between the groups. it also kept them within their already enmeshed communities.
this is not to say that creole of color and Black communities were completely at odds. early civil rights leaders united the communities in both discussion and action. from 1925-1941 community leaders favored the so called âracial progressionistâ approach, focusing on anti-lynching efforts and advocating for better schools, parks, and facilities. working within the limits of Jim Crow to avoid the the violent backlash from the white supremacist establishment, the NAACP and Federation of Civic Leagues pushed for gradual, steady change. these efforts were often controlled by a few, unelected community leaders, making strategic choices on the behalf of their people. later, during the 1930s, younger civil rights advocates in New Orleans pushed for more dramatic and democratic change, paving the way for later civil rights actions.
creole of color communities in Louisiana tended to stick together; even when they left. the devastating economic impacts of Jim Crow (those âold moneyâ creole of color families increasingly had the storied history but limited wealth due to restrictions on economic activity and periodic mass racial terror, such as the 1900 riots which burned down Black schools and property) and the depressions of the 1920s (Louisianaâs economy began faltering before the 1929 stock market crash) sent many creole families of color headed elsewhere; to urban centers like Los Angeles and Chicago. even outside of lousiana, they made efforts to preserve their culture through ritual; clustering around catholic schools or french speaking immigrant communities, cooking traditional foods and taking every chance to visit home.
bringing it back to alastor hazbinhotel
thatâs a lot of history! letâs break down how, specifically, it might apply to alastor.
1. heâs light-skinned but not white passing. heâs not going to be barred from a colorist club but neither can he escape segregation entirely. the texture of his hair, the angle of his nose, all those things will have been picked apart not just by white bigots but also by his own community. as a man the scrutiny on his appearance might have been slightly lesser than it would have been for a mixed-race woman trying to make it in entertainment⌠but not much.
2. he can speak in a generic trans-Atlantic accent and his French (that we hear) is good but he doesnât use it much. his linguistic flexibility means that he could maybe pass as either creole or a anglo-Protestant Black person (how french/spanish his last name is would be the deciding factor). conversely, that mutability might mean heâs distrusted by both groups.
3. we donât get a lot of detail on his background but he does show up in a fucked up little cottage WAY outside of the city center. when he designs a retreat he designs a bayou, not a bustling suburb. thereâs a good chance he doesnât come from money and a VERY good chance that he didnât come from one of the central nola wards. not having those connections to the city community would have been a major barrier for him, one heâd have to charm hard to overcome.
4. we donât hear where he went to school but given that after 1915 only private schools taught in french (and many children of his generation who went to public school lost their french-language abilities), it was probably a catholic school. if his family was poor, his tuition might have eaten up the bulk of their income, but, as previously discussed, cultural transmission was prioritized in creole families.
5. given his overall confidence he might have been mistaken as a child of one of the old established creole families, but crucially not for more than a few hoursânew Orleans was insular in that era and it wouldnât take long to check the aunt-cyclopedia.
6. depending on the details of his background he may or may not have defined himself as Black (though heâd have still been subject to the same limitations placed on Black citizens, regardless). the answer may have even changed over the course of his lifeâadult alastor, steeped in the multi-cultural, constantly shifting world of jazz, may have thought of himself differently than rural creole baby alastor.
7. thereâs a very good chance he was involved in social organizations; not just for networking but for self preservation! health insurance didnât exist and he was working an unstable entertainment job, Black and creole mutual aid organizations WERE the social safety net. he may have also been involved in a church for the network and social camouflage (Louisiana was religious enough that heâd have raised eyebrows if he wasnât) and, depending on how altruistic he was feeling, an early civil rights organization. his choice of affiliation would have mattered a lotâeven just which mass a person chose to attend back then was a matter of status signaling. all this having to socially schmooze and depend on others probably shaped his issues with independence and perceived loss of control.
8. once he moved to New Orleans, where he chose to live would have been significant as well. some neighborhoods were associated with specific cultural groups, specific churches, and, as previously discussed, could be pretty insular. others, like tremĂŠ, were mixed.
most useful/chunkiest references
Spoken: A Documentary on Colorism and the New Orleans Creole
Defeat but Not Ignominy: The New Orleans Afro-Creoles Behind Plessy vs. Ferguson
Skin Color and Social Practice: The Problem of Race and Class Among New Orleans Creoles and Across The American South
I Am What I Say I Am: Racial and Cultural Identity among Creoles of Color in New Orleans.
Attacking Jim Crow: black activism in New Orleans 1925-1941
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BRO THANK YOU so much for the PowerPoint!!! And yeah, people are so fucking stupid, they really want to make Alastor a white sexy man and erase racism from his motivations of being a serial killer, and like, it really shows how white fans are so obsessed with the idea of fandom of this neutral place free from the bigotry of the world, when really it's just an erasure of non-white identities and experiences. "how do we know he was being racist?" Are you so stupid you need him to call Alastor a slur? Literally if Alastor had been a white man, he would've likely apologized, but since Alastor was a mixed Black man, he just doesn't give a shit because he views Alastor as a subhuman piece of trash he's allowed to walk upon.
Exactly. Itâs like they need the show to explicitly say the guy was being racist because fuck context clues I guess.
Itâs like a huge part of this fandom is allergic to seeing Alastor as a victim because he doesnât act like a âgoodâ victim.
Because he wears a mask through his smile and hates being seen as weak.
Like they can pick up on Voxâs internalized homophobia being a product of his time.
Or how Luciferâs memory and avoidance issues are a symptom of his depression.
Or that Angel makes sexual jokes as a coping mechanism to deal with his situation.
But you have to drag them kicking and screaming to admit that Alastor coming from a time period where he could be beaten for merely looking at someone white wrong could have an impact on his character.
It drives me insane.
Especially since masking is a huge part of a lot of POCâs experience (take it from a black woman who desperately tries to avoid âthe angry black womanâ stereotype)
âJust because you see a smile doesnât mean you know whatâs going on underneath â after all.
I don't relate to a lot of "realizing I'm asexual" stories because most of them boil down to "I always felt like something was different about me in regards to sexuality" or "I thought I was normal and the horny people were the weird ones"; meanwhile I got cheated on at 16 and I sat there on my bed sobbing and googling "why do people cheat with strangers???" and came across a couple of people describing that some people are tempted due to sexual attraction which is apparently something most people experience and then the search turned into "why no sexual attraction?"