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I look at his knuckles, he has two good hands.

He says ‘She was older than me.’

I ask ‘How old?’

And he says ‘It’s better that the girl is older, that’s how I learnt all things I know’

He licks his lips.

I ask again ‘How old?’

He says ‘I could use one finger to make you sob’

I think of my brother in prison and I can’t remember his face.

I ask again ‘How old?’

He says ‘Boys become men in the laps of women, you know?’

I think of my mothers faced lined with her bad choices in men.

He says ‘If you were mine you wouldn’t get away with this shit, I’d eat you for hours, I’d gut you like fruit.’

I think of my cousins circumcision, how she feels like a mermaid, not human from the waist down.

He says ‘I’d look after you, you know?’

I laugh, I ask for the last time ‘How old?’

He says ’34.’

mark is a grown ass man and should know better. also mark himself has voiced his opinions and beliefs before and this collab contradicts everything he has spoken for. i have been supporting mark nonstop for the past 5 years and this really felt like a slap in the face. just because he is my ult doesnt means i will stand for this, because i do not. he should be held up to his actions. as much as i have respect and love for mark he should not be defended right now. this is a HUGE screw up on his part.

ive seen many people say that he needs to be educated, well no! Mark is 26. he is grown. also fully fluent in english and very open about being online. he doesn’t need to be educated cause he obviously already should be/is. especially when doyoung got backlash for this exact thing in 2023. on top of that renjun, taeyong, and winwin all posting support towards Palestine.

Mark has multiple times supported and donated to charities, he has had multiple good deeds (last damn month even.) which makes this whole situation more infuriating as it is and out of character of him. in no way am i trying to defend mark (just incase it seems i am?) but i am also not trying to spread hate to him. mark needs to be held accountable for his actions that are not morally right.

i have also seen a lot on how korean mcdonald’s doesn’t fund israel since they’re owned by a Qatari owner/group that funds to Palestine and Gaza, though that is true i am also pretty sure they have to pay royalties to the actual mcdonald’s regardless.

i have admired mark for years but this suddenly happening is so disappointing. both Mark AND SM are to blame, it has been known that SM sets up their artist and most of the time the idols don’t have a say in what they do, but besides that point mark could have fought the most he can to decline and said no. hopefully he speaks up soon and realizing what his actions have caused.

please make sure that us as people as well are educated properly, don’t just mindlessly follow stuff. boycott the mcdonald’s & mark collab. call him out on his (& SM’s) actions.

remember to have morals and compassion. lots of hopes and prayers towards the innocent souls & people in Palestine and Gaza. FREE PALESTINE FREE GAZA

(also my apologies if i worded any of this weirdly!)

You sometimes just need fluff and not smut.

the way it opens with this distorted deeper voice (isaiah) and you hear the sound of flies buzzing in the background underneath the voice, thats such a cool detail. and while isaiah is singing, you hear ethel incoherently mumble (you literally hear her say “mama?” its so 😭😭) as she’s waking up from the drugs. when we finally hear her voice, it’s high pitched, raw, and vulnerable. because of how vulnerable of a situation she is in, but she doesn’t realize it yet because of the drugs she’s on. so this whole beginning is echoey and it captures the whole aloneness she’s feeling.

and then we get a beat drop at “even the iron still fears the rot,” where the instrumentals are a little heavier, her voice is still high and raw but there’s a sense of knowing in it. (“hiding from something, i cannot stop. walking on shadows, i cant lead him back”) as her hallucinations and the drugs start to wear off, she’s facing this darkness that’s been eating away at her with “daddy’s left and mama won’t come home,” which is something she rarely comes to terms with.

then we get that dark distorted voice again saying “you poor thing, sweet morning lamb. there’s nothing you can do, it’s already been done,” which is incredibly terrifying. not to mention that deafening crash of the drums, god the way those drums thunder so intensely like you can feel the dread in your bones. and then we hear ethel’s voice again saying “what fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me? please dont look at me..” which refers to when isaiah tells her to “show me your face,” during that line. and she’s pleading for him to stop looking at him, you can’t hear it because it’s in the background but he says “come here,” and right after you hear ethel say “i can see it in your eyes, tell me, what have you done?” which then goes into a sea of begs and pleas for him to “stop, stop” until the final “stop” is not sung, but instead a bone chilling shrill shriek. which is cut off by “i am the face of love’s rage.” and if you listen to the acapella, during “i am the face of love’s rage,” right underneath that main vocal, you hear a second high pitched scream, you hear bundles “no’s” and even a “no! please!” which i think ties the story really well together.

in the acapella, while “blessed be the daughters of cain,” is being read out, you can hear the gargling and choking noises as ethel is struggling to breathe and as she’s literally dying its really sickening but so well executed from an artist perspective. and then at the very very end, you hear a death rattle like that is INSANE

i love ptolomaea, i love how the instrumentals create such a unique atmosphere that makes it as terrifying as it sounds and how hayden uses her voice in different ways to tell the story effectively. and it works, it all works.

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