makindough

this anxiety is taking over my being can't wait until I can open it up and realign people are always more interested in your life after death can't wait until you take that last breath never did I dream I could escape this reality I don't remember how to dream, these days it's just one of those fucked up things shoot for a goal strive for a new world come to realization that it will never be found fuck that go back to dream world living in a fantasy only bleak to you wake up fool you're living living a lie but that's alright you can't hide forever dreaming of things acquiring things these things no longer have the same meaning so we'll start from the beginning rewind time and begin again open up to the sky one last time take a deep breath and smile maybe we've got awhile taken away stripped from the depths of your soul almost like it never happened so just cry until you laugh, then laugh til you cry don't be a fool wake up not knowing how to be where to be when to be who to be devoting these times to mysterious works dark times come from the mind realizing to late in time up and down the ladder never knowing up from down just want to be in the familiar view with you you find one true love in life and I found it when I found you doesn't matter now everything is a hazy hue living life from a fucked up view we'll make it through though me and you we'll see all the things our eyes ever longed to see we'll go everywhere our heart desires doesn't matter what we got as long as I got you but this isn't a confession of a dying love but a confession of our love dying I can tell when I look in your eyes I feel like hell the rush of emotions crashing like waves in my mind do I love you? do I hate you? do I admire you? do I loathe you? do I love myself? I can't tell wake me up when we're done in hell if you have to fucking yell scream at the top of your lungs just get me out of this place wait, no don't this is my comfort don't go why don't you stay awhile let the sunshine through awhile share independent thoughts let's elevate to a new location puke out these thoughts of mass devastation take the world to a new destination no matter what it takes we've gotta wake these fuckers up create them again destroy us how can you ever really know who you are when everything built was on a foundation of lies trapped inside of a familiar beating with every every punch brings the warmth of bleeding i've got a hunch that we're all wrong watch at the end we've got it all wrong fuck your money fuck your fame fuck your life that was built from destruction deception you users of people the only thing we've got is time how are you spending it wasting time writing rhymes or actually getting off your ass to save these people looking around at all the starving people we've got enough food to feed these people wasting so much time on trying to make a dime make fucking love beautiful, never yielding love let's set this shit straight before it's too late wait it's already too late I'm slowly scaring myself into isolation can't breathe around all these beings it's driving my mind insane I can feel each and every energy and it's overwhelming but trust me I'm trying to outrun these demons they're just so fast you can't outrun the past it'll catch up to you so so fucking fast but trust me I'm trying can't decide whether to run or hide now but I know either way I'm going down the fantasies I've created in my mind aren't real but it's better than real take just a second and try to feel just lay next to me and try to feel it the energy I create is it real I can feel feel you feel what you radiate and it makes me smile but I have to step back and let you go now it's sad I know but don't worry I hope you find someone that would stop time just to see that smile for awhile so I'll just fade and go away but know I'll be smiling from a distance because I know you're doing just fine love your life while I starve mine we make jokes in an attempt just to cope people are out dying in the streets smoking dope quit meddling with the world like you hold it in the palm of your hand you bastards are just mortal man I'm tired of seeing these man made devastations if there is a hell its your welcome to eternal damnation fuck your politics fuck your wars fuck your money and according to you fuck the poor enough food in one place to feed the entire human race but fuck it let's fly up to space I know most of us just can't wait to get out of this place take me away to a better place one with no hate one with no greed and one with no pride just a mass love spreading at the fastest of speeds remember the only way to get back good is to watch what you seed be careful out there it's a dark dark world dark times entering into damaged minds it's funny that the entire time we can bitch from the sideline then complain that we simply just don't have the time lay down your pride make up your mind remember these are dark fucking times there's no time to waste trust me we'll all get out of this place remember no one makes it out alive but in time, you'll meet someone that's never made you feel so alive they might come in disguised but when you look in their eyes you'll know that you no longer have to lie you've never felt so real you've never felt so vulnerable you know you'll do whatever it takes even if it's your life just to make the disguised feel like they're the biggest prize you've ever got baby, hush when we're together they'll be no lies take it off take off the insecurities take off the past leave it all behind float through my soul like a butterfly floats through the air like the ghost of your past demons flying through the night so open up the eyes of your heart one last time do it for me and I promise we'll be just fine all that matters now is what we've got now

titled//queen jane upon her throne of stem

forever searching for something more. a deeper connection. with myself. with others. i don't get satisfaction from the same boring conversations/tasks day in & day out. bring something more. bring your soul & I'll bring mine. a deeper connection. forever searching for something more.