Captive

Starting Jan 1st 2025, I live in a cell in the Guard's house. I'm always locked inside and/or chained. Usually both. I cannot get out on my own. I'm not allowed elsewhere in the house. And if I have appointments outside she has to physically release me.

I'm watched and controlled by a Committee who's known me and played with me for years, and by my captivity's patrons, who pay for me to live like this, to watch my security camera feed, and to control my hunger, my orgasms, my bondage, and whatever the fuck the Committee wants you to have fun controlling.

Asks are always welcome. So are threats. And money to force me to continue to live like this.

If enough money is gathered every month, I'll lose all humanity and become a near 24/7 isolated extreme bondage toy for your amusement and pleasure.

In this blog you can find years of written content. Most of my stuff is tagged with #text .

And here you can become a patron, see my long form video content, the security camera feed, and more pics!

More about who I am/was under the cut

Packaging and mummification are different, in the sense that on top of that, you're also compressing and joining the toy to itself. Which can be a great tool for intense sadism.

But there's another form of compression bondage that I'm newer to.

Ever since I got the corset, I feel like something was unlocked. It has the firmness of cuffs with that semi-flexible leatherette material; but the laces in the back change everything.

I usually think my favorite kind of bondage is solid bondage: metal, wood, boxes, fiddles, solid hoods. But this is a new way to appreciate semi-flexible bondage that I hadn't thought of before.

It's hard to compare it to anything else. When the corset goes from fitting ok, to tightly squeezing the life out of your body. It's quite unlike any other form of bondage.

I've only recently started putting it on myself, which is a whole different kind of journey; but when other people have tightened it for me, one thing always stands out: there's always someone around that says they could tighten it a bit more. Is this because i surround myself by sadists? Yes. But also, because it's true that you can keep tightening it more and more without many risks. At least not with this one, within these time-frames.

So, yes, now thinking a lot about "laced-tightened" bondage gear. Armbinders, hoods, legbinders, sleepsacks.... they all look a lot more daunting to me now.

This has the several advantages. For one, the torturer's re-entrance into the space represents, at the very least, hope of relief. Passivity also shows the unthinking sadism of it all. The torture continues, piles on, breaks the toy while the captor goes about their day as they please, like any other day.

A good next step, is to teach the toy what is expected of it in order to have relief from this, although the natural responses of begging and crying are perfectly functional defaults.

One great demonstration is opening a closet door to some contorted body that immediately begins desperate pleading, only to be told that it's clearly lying, and will be checked on in several hours to see if it has actually learned its lesson.

Small enclosures/cages are a basic first step; ideally the toy should not be able to fully relax or stretch its body. Then, stress positions and/or predicaments. Breath ones are fun, because the panic is deeply instinctual, and can imply to the toy that its captor is not too worried if lives or dies. Alternatively, adding an element of randomness, such as a shock collar which goes off every 5-10 minutes at a random strength. Some sort of constant pain such as rice on the bottom, grating audio, heat, etc are also fun.

Of course, any combination will always be more than the sum of its parts. 🥰

like, I'm doing my job, I'm looking up how to set up a camera in there. because patrons love the closet

but i hate it

it's impossible to get comfortable in there even without any extra restraints

the air gets increasingly heavier and hotter but never dangerously heavy, and not dangerously hot now that it's winter here

it's awful

i truly don't want to be there

100% truly don't want to be there

but...i know that's exactly why you want me in there so badly

fuck you all

fuck

I'm trying to do my job anyways

just do a nice old pit, some metal drain cover as the floor with a little plumbing to get the waste and water out from under it

and boom. an easy place to keep me alive and in hell for as many years as you want without ever having to let me out

i have a small health issue that requires pausing the food control. i think it should be resolved in a week or so if i take good care of it. nothing serious, just annoying 😅 but yay no starving! 😝😝😝

Today i'll let me body rest a bit from yesterday but I'll be making the poll for tomorrow

Since this month has been a very wonky numbers-wise, the Guard will have to focus on other work more during July. But some good news:

1. Monthly video with seven!

You will be getting at least one edited video a month that we'll be filming with Seven for his site. Storage and Encasement patrons will get them at pre-release a month early. You can check out that new site here: https://mymember.site/chains-and-pain

2. Regular livestreams!

You will be getting more regular streams, ideally 2 per week. This week we have Wednesday and Saturday scheduled (Saturday to be confirmed)

3. End of month session!

We'll be doing a long session at the end of the month, with an hour added to it per new Patron during that month! Or rather, an hour times their multiplier. For the duration of it, I'll either be either stuck in the vertical cage, or in the closet if I can figure out a way to put a camera there in time. Also added to that stream will be 10 minutes per already existing patron times their multiplier, which as of today means the session will be at least 9 hours long. Exact date to be confirmed. 

If you want to help add hours to it, get your affiliate link and invite people to join! With it you'll also make 50% of their first subscription payment, and 20% of all their monthly rebills forever! 

Feel free to sell me out and profit from my suffering.

4. The Guard's availability

Since June was our worst month yet numbers wise, because of our lack of work from my burnout, the Guard will have to focus more on other work during July. We'll also have her be available on streams for a maximum of 6 hours a day to avoid her own burnout. 

5. General goals and direction of the whole thing

I'll be shifting my focus somewhat away from life control and towards the livestreams and the content creation. But, the goals chart will remain active. Which means life control will be getting more and more intense, just a lot slower because now it's based on just subscription payments and not all payments. My hope is that this way we can have a lot more resources to be able to actually do life control without overextending ourselves and burning out. It think this balance will work out. 

This also means I've temporarily removed "add a rule" from the store. Once we reach full-captivity patron goals again that will most likely return, because the Guard will at that point be more likely to have some help to manage them. 

For sleeping arrangement and storage a coffin that barely fits so small it has to fold it's legs and kneel to fit inside it and of course I am covering the floor in rice so it's always in the blinding pain of kneeling on rice. Also blinding white lights on the inside almost m always on but randomly going off, giving a hint of comfort but also randomly turning back on. A hole in the top of the coffin that can be used to dump either really cold or really hot water at my will.

Food would consist of nutritional supplements, and the waste from around the house mixed in with some of my p1ss.

if body mods are on the table a shaved head with a suction cup dildo stuck on it at all times that others can use.

I think that would do I can think of worse things but idk if the audience can take it.

-ss

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i would love to hear more

let's say that's 1500 a month as a salary. that's 9k a month. then half of that again for another 5 or 6 people but part time, for some graphic design, crafts and building, AV and tech work. let's round that up to 15k

then just 1000 for the toy's living expenses and such, and the appartment and all of that. 16k

so, 16k a month to have a life become fully commercialized for your sadistic pleasure. that's if it's truly 24/7. remove a captor shift while toy sleeps and you can go down to 13k

doesn't sound like THAT much, honestly, when there's no competition that can compare to it anywhere basically. and it's something so many people are willing to pay for

i really do believe it's possible. but damn is it hard and slow right now. but i know there will be an inflection point where we either get the right momentum or slowly build up the production quality of the service, where everything will start looking up. i know it. i just hope the current design makes this last long enough sustainably enough to get us to that inflection point