phannieing out all by yourself, beautiful?

I’m so fucking scared.

lol girl okay...

what is the point in using a site where every 3 days my follow list is cut in half because ppl's blogs constantly get deleted? what is the point in using a website where 70% of the interaction you get is someone doing the "so you hate waffles?" tweet on your posts?

never thought this would happen as i've been here since idk 2012 or something and i always found something new to enjoy about the place but it's starting to look like there is nothing left for me now. this place is so miserable and antagonistic because of it's management's ridiculously hostile attitude to feedback. i'm not interested in trying to curate my experience here into an enjoyable one anymore when it becomes more difficult with each passing day.

i feel like part of why it comes across as empty platitudes or vague liberalism is because they’re scared of getting too specific? like if they’d had a longer conversation about trans rights and the way trans women in particular are treated in the uk, then there could’ve been a place for a comment like that. but they’re scared to get too far into it beyond a vague statement so it comes across feeling hollow. idk.

i joined the phandom right before they did several fundraisers for palestine at a time when a lot of creators were scared to even touch the topic with a 10 foot pole, and maybe that gave me the wrong idea because i guess i thought they were actually about that life. i really respected them for that. but ever since then they’ve kinda given nothing. so yeah i guess maybe i just have unrealistic standards and i need to accept they’re unserious youtubers at the end of the day 😭

you spilled a bit in your tags about how they are fundamentally not normal well-adjusted people, and it comes across in how engaged they’re able to get with actual boots on the ground activism. having said that i do think it would fix dan. i think he needs to join extinction rebellion and glue himself to an airport runway and get the shit kicked out of him by cops or some shit it really would fix him. i said this in my original post but sometimes when you’re in the individualist doomer mindset that dan seems to be prone to, it’s like catnip for your parasympathetic nervous system to actually physically Do something about it. i have literally seen it fix people before

i've been here since like 2011/2012 and i was really pleasantly surprised by their palestine fundraisers! they are generally extremely shy about politics and try to remain uncontroversial so i do think the fact they did it at all shows that fundamentally their hearts are in the right place. but i think they have had such strange and fucked-up lives that it's going to take ages for them to feel comfortable dishing potentially controversial opinions. also considering that the establishment media in the UK (which they still work with/in from time to time and probably have connections with that they don't want to completely and utterly fuck to shit) are strenuously transphobic to the point of it distorting to other countries how the UK public actually feels about trans people, i can understand that they wouldn't want to say like, "let's string up wes streeting and let the fish in the thames graze on his corpse" or whatever.

personally i'd be more inclined to prefer that if they're not going to be bold they don't say anything at all, or really do keep it to platitudes or interpersonal appreciation for trans ppl instead of trying to be political about it and failing miserably lol, but i can also see that other fans including UK based ones find the mere addressing of it very comforting. i do find it touching that people can find so much solace in them doing that in the end. i think i'm naturally cynical and politically aggressive but maybe also a bit traumatised from being trans+other things in this world and therefore kind of incapable of appreciating that stuff the way other people can 🥲

and yes i think dan would profit immensely from joining a Bash Back or Just Stop Oil or even XR group indeed. though i don't know that there'd be an option for him to do so relatively anonymously and well, you know, the british tabloid press absolutely hate gay people and they hate activists even more and if you put those two factors together with being a public figure you can bet your mother's grave on it that they'll hound you down for the rest of your days, so i understand that he'd be hesitant about it even if he could cast aside his depressive-anxious approach to life long enough to try it 😭. again i think the individualism is likely due to all the social isolation he's been thru + probably looks larger than it is because of the lack of specificity + he loves a slogan like i can't wait for these old fucks to die lmao.

the future is clear, it's pretty queer // the future is bright, so stay hopeful

his friend KNEW he was gay and closeted and MADE A GUY FRIEND FLIRT WITH HIM AS A JOKE ?? GET A JOB LEAVE HER ALONE.

can this boy ever GET A BREAK ??.