we're all mad here

(a meeting in a cafe, a letter eagerly torn open, a burst of laughter revealing the teeth, a tone of the voice, an intonation on the phone, a style of handwriting in a letter, a parting in a train station, and each time we say that we do not know, that we do not know if and when and where we will meet again)

“When you surrender, the problem ceases to exist. Try to solve it, or conquer it, and you only set up more resistance… The most difficult thing to admit, and to realize with one’s whole being, is that you alone control nothing.”

“In old age we should wish still to have passions strong enough to prevent us turning in on ourselves.”

“To go to the ends of the earth to talk… to see people before for talking and to see people after for talking, this is a monstrous image, it’s a cheap rupture… a trip is not enough to create a real rupture. If you want rupture, then do something other than travel… nothing is more immobile than a nomad. Nothing travels less than a nomad. But there are trips that are true ruptures… in a sense, I feel no need to move. All the intensities that I have are immobile intensities… there is a geo-philosophy, I mean, there are profound countries, my very own foreign lands that I don’t find by traveling.”