"She didn't love me enough, I guess. Or... I wouldn't change."

Mostly because of the camp convo where he talks about his mom.

Because despite clearly holding affection for his mom, he also makes a slight against her, saying how she never saw how bad life was for the village

And he turned out EXACTLY like her.

Because its likely she was VERY aware of how bad things were. She was among those forced to watch as her brother and friends were brutalized and murdered for just talking about being given enough money to live. She was likely terrified of the same fate befalling her or her children but couldn't see a way out. So she tried to keep her kids in line. Their lives were horrible but, in her mind, at least they were alive.

But Javier never saw that. He only saw his mother as someone who bent to the will of powerful men.

And yet....by Chapter 6, Javier is doing the exact same thing.

Guarma likely shook him up already and, when they're going back on the boat, he has a moment of questioning Dutch

And Dutch replies.

Now, Javier may have heard this one of two ways. Either he hears 'I will do whatever it takes to keep us safe' or 'Anyone outside this gang is not safe from me'

Either way, it results the same. Javier is scared so he clings to safety. Its a horrid, transactional safety but its all hes got and he doesnt see another way out except to put all his cards on Dutch.

So, by Chapter 6? He wound up tighter then a jack-in-the-box and scrabbling to make sure Dutch has everything he needs to keep him safe. Including, demanding absolute faith and loyalty from everyone on Dutchs behalf

the wildflowers in bohemia page is finally done oh my god 💐💐never getting over jindra’s dream in chap 18 i think about it everyday..pretend that you can tell shes wearing the red hood lenka made her and a green kirtle looking like a poppy this is so serious to me

the scenes are from (left to right) chap 18, 10, 11(well not really but they def had smth going on),7 and 9

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