Summary: Calumâs best friend internally pinned after him for years. At a party she finds out that Calum is seeing someone and her heart breaks. Except Harry Styles is there to make her feel better.
Calum and Y/N. A phrase heard so much to the people that knew them. Growing up as neighbors, they were the definition of a team. Y/N was the one who taught Calum how to whistle, he taught her how to ride a bike. Childhood memories engraved in their minds bonded the two together like magnets.
Calum took Y/N with them when they left as a band. She had a rough life at home and he wanted her out of there. Since then the Hoodâs and the band became her family.
âY/N, what are you doing? That is not how to hang up a balloon.â Calum laughed out, pointing to the balloon that was only half taped on.
She blew hair out of her face, her hands falling to rest on her waist. She gave him an exasperated look, âHow else do you suppose to do it, Hood? You canât put a tack in it, itâll pop!â
Calum playfully pushed her out of the way and tacked the part that was tied off to keep the air from zooming out. He successfully completed the task and gave her a smug grin.
âItâs almost like it worked...â
She shoved his shoulder as she walked past him to stir the Buffalo dip in the crock pot, âFuck off mate, I really tried my best.â
Calum paused at her words. He knew she was joking and her tone matched, but he did feel sort of bad. When he called her to ask about throwing a surprise party for Ashtonâs birthday, she immediately was on board. She bought decorations, the cake, and helped him invite everyone. She really was trying her best.
âYou are the most wonderful friend Iâll ever have.â He softly said, turning her to bop her nose before giving her a hug.
Her insides fluttered at the way his voice sounded so honest. She already loved him with all of heart and him saying shit like that didnât help it. Because she over thought things- well everything. Especially when it came to them and their friendship.
All the other boys in the band had serious girlfriends that they were building their life with. Sure, Cal had girlfriends along the way- much to her dismay, but he wasnât seeing anyone and hadnât in about two years or so. Maybe he was holding out for her? She knew it was a outlandish idea but was it really? They grew up together, did everything together, and she developed feelings so was it too wild if he did too?
She relished the feeling of his arms wrapped around her. He smelled so nice all of the time and the scent was uniquely just him. Her trust in people was hesitant due to her parents but Calum was the one true person who she was completely vulnerable to. The boys were close but not to the level of trust she gave to the man in front of her.
He pulled away when he heard the bell ring, âPeople are arriving, my lovely Y/N. Shall we go greet them?â Calum mocked in a posh accent.
An hour later everyone was finally at the party, well besides Ashton. Y/N saw that Harry Styles was there and she offered him a smile as he walked up next to her. He gave her a warm hug, his hands resting comfortably against her back. His warm skin burned through her shirt and she mentally sighed when he pulled away.
âItâs been a while since weâve seen eachotha love.â He said, offering his boyish grin that killed his fans.
Her and Harry hung out during the tour when 5sos joined them. While the boys were playing on stage, he would stand and watch with her. During that tour they became pretty good friends, and he did his best to keep up with her. Only a few noticed, but Harry always kept his eye out for her, but it was hard to get her without Calum.
âLast I saw you, you were just about to release Fine Line.â She spoke.
âI remember, ran into you while walking home. Have you listened to any of it?â He asked almost sheepishly, shoving his hands into his pockets.
Y/N now just noticed how nicely dressed he was. His black flowy pants went well his nice long sleeve butto up baby blue shirt. The first couple buttons were undone to reveal his beautiful chest. She felt her eyes drift, but quickly looked up at his green eyes.
She wasnât stupid, Harry was absolutely beautiful. His beauty radiated and his personality amplified that by one thousand. He was mature, deep, and kind but also had a playful boyish side. And sass, lots of sass added to it. He made sure to check up on her weekly and she knew that he would help her with anything she asked.
Sheâd fall for him if it wasnât for Calum.
âHarry, who hasnât heard that whole album in itâs entirety? Itâs amazing, man! Cherry melted me in the best way. Putting Camilleâs voice in it? Genius. You put your heart into your music and it really shows...â you blushed slightly as you realized that you just gushed over him.
He shrugged his shoulders at your praise in the humble way that only Harry Styles could. His green eyes twinkled in the light at the idea of Y/N adoring his album. Songs that were a part of him.
He wanted to admit that Sunflower, Vol 6. and Golden were about her. That she inspired him to form lyrics that made people feel the same love he felt. She was his muse and she didnât even know it. Harry wanted to tell her, but he wasnât blind. Something was between her and Calum.
He respected Calum and didnât want to interfere, but it was hard when his feelings never went away. And not there she stood so pretty in front of him, telling her that she listened to his music. That she loved Cherry. It was ironic that she mentioned the one about his ex but not the the two written solely about his thoughts surrounding her.
âMeans so much to me that you enjoy it. I was actually wondering if you wanted to co-write a song with me for my next album?â He said, his left hand playing with the rings on his right.
Her lips quirked into a pure smile, âMe? Harry..â
âDonât be bashful, I know you help write with the boys, even if you donât let the public know.. Ash told me about it when we got drunk a year ago.â He admitted.
She scoffed, âIâm gonna hurt him....â
âSo, what do you say? It can literally be about anything. Itâll be perfect. Iâll even buy you dinner over it.â
She paused before replying. Helping Harry with a song sounded fun and like a good opportunity to actually work with other artists, but it was a vulnerable thing. Sure, the two have had deep talks while high or drunk, but this would be a whole different thing. The last song she had worked on was Best Years and she thought of Calum the whole time writing it. Thatâs why it was so easily to spill out because he was across from her the whole time.
âIf I write a song with you, do you promise to make sure I donât get too drunk tonight? Because I have to go grocery shopping tomorrow and doing that hungover would just suck...â she said, making Harry clap in excitement.
âWe have a deal, love.â
He extended his hand and they shook on it.
Y/N glanced over to where Calum was when she saw an unfamiliar woman standing beside him. She didnât recognize her and honestly she was confused. Calum always told her when he met someone and he never told Y/N about her.
Harry followed her gaze and noticed the woman too, âWhoâs that?â
Y/N crossed her arms, âNo freaking clue...â
Calum caught their eyes and waved before grabbing her hand and brining her to them. Y/Nâs eyes widened at their intertwined fingers, emotional pain twisting around her guts.
âHey guys, this is my girlfriend, Maya.âHe said, raising their joint hands as they both smiled from ear to ear. Y/N wanted to puke.
Maya was wicked beautiful. Her short baby blue hair matched Harryâs button up shirt. The color suddenly seemed unappealing to Y/N. Not only was Mayaâs hair cool, but she had a dope septum piercing and had piercings and tattoos. Her beautiful hazel eyes smiled with genuine kindness and Y/N wanted to run away.
Calum was dating someone, but it wasnât her. Y/N scolded herself for not preparing herself for this exact situation. Calum Hood was a beautiful man with a beautiful heart and wicked talent, of course he would find someone. She had just been dumb enough believe it wouldâve been her.
Calum sensed Y/Nâs unease and he suddenly felt bad for not giving her a heads up. He started seeing Maya two months ago and wanted to make sure it was solid before he had her meet the people so dear to him. He realized that was a mistake.
âI didnât know you were seeing anyone.â Harry stated what Y/N wanted to but couldnât.
Calum sheepishly shrugged as he looked at the hurt on his best friendâs face, âSometimes things are better kept a secret.â
Anger swirled around Y/N like quicksand encapsulating her entire body. She wanted to punch him. Couldnât he see the pain in her eyes and he had to joke about it and say something stupid like that? How could he be so daft about how she felt for him? He was her world.
She loved him with all of her being; however, at this moment she wanted to never see him again. She wasnât the best at handling her emotions, so this pain transferred to anger.
Y/N rolled her eyes, âSometimes friendships arenât what you think they are. It was nice meeting you, Maya. Come on, Harry.â
She grabbed Harryâs hand and stalked off to the balcony of the house. The British lad followed silently behind her, willing to do anything she needed. As selfish as it was, he was glad to be the one she seemed comfort from.
Crocodile tears slipped out of her eyes as she wiped at them in an embarrassed and frustrated manor. She looked out at the hills of California and grumbled under her breath about love being dumb. Harry quietly shut the sliding glass door and walked over to lean on the railing beside her.
âYouâre in love with him.â He softly stated.
She let out a pitiful laugh, âThat obvious?â
He didnât reply for a moment. Instead he took the time to observe her, and his heart stung at the sight in front of him. Her eyes were no longer the vast universe before him that made him believe that life was eternal, instead they were a sunken wasteland filled with sorrow.
Her knuckles were white from how hard she was making fists and her leg was bouncing up and down with anxiety. Harry recalled the one other time he saw her like this. It was when they got a late dinner together and her mom somehow called her.
He hated seeing her upset then and he hates it even more now.
âIf you donât show that you care about someone, youâre not human. Calum is your best friend that has been by your side, itâs natural to catch feelings. And you shouldnât feel ashamed about it either, hun. Your feelings are valid, itâs understandable to be crushed right now.â His hands gently took hers and flattened them out so that hers would no longer be in fists.
âIâm in love with him.â She choked out, turning to maneuver herself into his embrace. His strong arms wrapped around her back and she clutched tightly to his shirt. She felt the skin of his chest against her cheek as she nuzzled into him.
Sobs shook her body as his left hand rose to lovingly play with her hair. Y/N was glad that Harry was there for her in this time. She knew she couldnât go to one of the boys because it wasnât fair to put them in the middle of this.
âI know, I know.â He muttered, glancing inside the house to see that Calum was standing with Luke and Michael. The three boys were starting back at him, all of their faces held regret.
âI-I thought that maybe he loved me too. Every song we wrote, I thought of him. His little gifts and sudden spurs of adventure he whisked me away on, I thought that it was special between us..â
Harryâs heart felt like it got punched. The girl he was head over heels was currently heart broken over his friend. He wanted to tell Calum off for missing out on what he absolutely wished he could have. Calum had his dream girl wrapped around his finger and the dude didnât even know it.
Harry himself was surprised that Calum wasnât in love with her too. She was just.. the best. She was adaptive to their life style, good with the fame aspect of their life, she was nerdy in the best ways, so humble and grateful that it was intoxicating to be around her, and she was so genuine. Calum was a fool to not see what was right in front of him. Blind not to see that such a wonderful human being loved him with every fucking inch of her soul.
He saw Calum move towards the door and Harry felt an instinct to get Y/N the hell away from him. He didnât want her to have to see him and he knew that he couldnât even look Calum in the eyes without feeling anger even if it wasnât exactly fair.
Calum hesitated when he saw the death glare that Harry was unknowingly giving him.
Calum knew that Harry was smitten with his best friend. It was apparent that Harry always went out of his way to call her or get drinks when he was home. Hell, Harry had sent her a gift when he went to Japan because he knew it was her favorite place when she went with the band. It was zero surprise that he would feel protective over a crying Y/N.
Calum just wanted to talk to her.
Luke and Michael walked over with somber eyes as they noticed that this situation would not be dealt with tonight.
âCalum, donât go out there. Sheâs hurt, man. Give her some time.â Luke gently warned, grabbing his arm.
âI feel so bad. I know sheâs hurt but I didnât think she would be this hurt from me not telling her that I met Maya. I thought maybe she would be a bit happy for me..â he trailed off at Lukeâs facial expression.
âSheâs fucking in love with you, mate. Why are you the only one who doesnât see that?â Luke raised his hands in an exasperated manner.
âWhat?! No? Y/N? Sheâs not in love with me. Itâs not like that.â Calum defended, glancing over at his best friend in the world sobbing in Harryâs arms.
âSeriously Cal?â Michael deadpanned, âYou canât be that stupid.â
Calum rolled his eyes, âWouldnât I fucking know if my best friend was in love with me?â
Michael laughed sarcastically as Luke awkwardly shoved his hands in his pockets. Calum sighed at their behavior.
âApparently not mate. You know how itâs obvious to us that Harry fancies Y/N? Well we could tell when it came to her with you.â Michael explained.
âWhy didnât you say anything? Why couldnât I tell?â Calum asked.
Luke blew air out of his mouth as he tried to think of how to explain it, âCal, it wasnât for us to say. God, you and Y/N pick the worst times to be in love with each other.â
Calumâs tongue poked out to wet his lips. He was annoyed that Luke even brought that up. Growing up Calum was enamored by his beautiful Y/N and he knew that he was in love with her when he was about sixteen years old. She was so supportive and always there, and she made the rough times optimistic and fun.
Unluckily for him, at the time he realized they were on tour with one direction and she went off with Harry a lot. Calum felt like he couldnât compete so he didnât say anything. Plus he felt sick at the idea of scaring her off. Over time he got over it and moved on because he was sure she didnât feel the same way.
Now years later she falls in love with him?
âThings wouldâve been easier if I wouldâve went for it as a teenager... huh?â Cal asked, dumbfounded.
âProbably. Do you... do you still feel the same way? Because you got Y/N out there crying and Maya over there trying to talk to people she doesnât know.â Luke pointed over to Maya.
Calum couldnât help but smile over at his girlfriend. He felt so warm and fuzzy around her. She was so fucking cool, and he was proud that she was here with him. But that feeling was dulled down when he looked out on the balcony. Seeing Y/N cry could ruin his happiness at any time.
But it wasnât because he was in love with her. He used to be, but now he fiercely loved her in a family kind of way. He forced himself to move on from her and the damage was already done. He desperately wished that she wouldâve felt the same back in the day because maybe things wouldâve worked out. But now he has a girlfriend and sheâs out on his balcony crying.
âIâm not in love with her, but I care about her more than probably anyone else.â Calum admitted, âIt fucking hurts to see her so upset.â
The door opened up and Ashton walked in, his hand came up to his chest from being startled at how many people were in the apartment. He grinned as Calum walked over and gave him a hug.
âHappy birthday, mate.â He said.
Ashton giggled, âYou fucker!â He pulled Calum into a tight hug of appreciation.
Y/N stopped crying when she saw Ashton walk inside. Ashton deserved this party and she wasnât about to ruin it. He was the type of friend that would do anything for anyone. He was the sun coordinating the planets, making them more efficiently. At the same time he was the moon, luring over loved ones in dark times to offer any sort of help; emotional or physical.
Ashton deserved all the good in this world and she wasnât about to fuck it up over crying over a man. She thought about all the tik toks joking about gagging after crying over men, and that made her feel a bit better.
Y/N would suck it up for now and go give Ashton a hug because he was worth it.
Harry pulled away slightly when he saw that Ashton arrived too. He glanced down at Y/N and she gave him a small nod and a smile.
Harry once read that your body naturally rejects a potential mate that isnât a match. Effects are; nervousness, unease, and weariness. Apparently the theory goes that if someone is right for you, being around them gives off a sense of contentment and peace. You donât have to get overly excited around them to the point that you feel sick. Rather you sense of feeling at home with them.
Thatâs how Harry felt with Y/N. His past girlfriends he loved-sure. He was heartbroken when things ended with Camille, but he didnât have that sense of calmness with her. Not like he had around Y/N.
He was utterly fucking stuck on her. She was the one.
He managed to feel this way for years without it ever going away. That had to mean something. His mom once told him that shit happens for a reason. Calum not loving her back like that could shift her to Harry. And as fucked up as that idea was, and how down right cruel it was, he hoped it was true.
âI need to go see Ash..â she paused, glancing up into his green eyes. Right then Harry knew that she was about to ask him to go along with her.
âLetâs go, câmon love. Iâm right here with ya.â He soothingly assured, grabbing her hand.
Together the pair made their way inside to where the party was happening. Y/N noticed that Maya was standing beside Calum, his arm wrapped around her waist. She clutched tightly onto Harryâs hand as a sharp pain zapped her in the chest. His thumb rubbed against her skin in reassurance.
âY/Nâs coming.â Michael whispered to Calum. He immediately dropped his arm from around his waist and shot a look to Maya saying that he would explain at a different time.
He tried to offer a smile to his sad friend but she refused to meet his eyes. Instead she moved to stand by Ashton, causing the groups attention to go to her. No one failed to notice Harryâs hand was gripping Y/Nâs.
Harry seemed like a protective guard dog that was on edge when a stranger walked past its owner.
âThere you are! I was wondering where the hell you were! Also, Iâm gonna kill you, Cal said you did most of the work for this.â Ash teased, making Y/Nâs lips quirk into a genuine grin.
âYouâre gonna kill me? No buddy, itâs the other way around! You told Harry that I helped write your albums.â She accusingly joked, jabbing the black haired man in front of her on his chest.!
Ashton burst into laughter, âHarry, mate, that was a secret. Cant trust no one..â
Harry smiled in his charming boyish way, his red nails on show as he lifted his hands to shrug as if it was no big deal, âMaybe I wanted a share of her writing talent.â
Michael looked at Luke with wide eyes. Holy shit, Harry just pulled out a wild card. Could the British man not even hide how enamored he was with their friend? Michael admired his confidence to ask Y/N to write with him. Writing was something you had to have complete trust in with a person, and the proccess undoubtedly bonded souls.
Y/N blushed after Harryâs claim that her writing held any sort of talent. She usually went with the flow and the words poured out.
âYou gonna do it? Help him write a song?â Luke asked
âShe said yes. Unless she was fuckinâ with meh.â Harry said, side eyeing the woman next to him. He saw her laugh and he internally gave himself bonus points for being able to do that while she was so down in the dumps.
âDinners involved with the deal so I jumped on it.â Her attention turned to Harry, âAs long as itâs not Chick-tik-A. Their food sucks and theyâre a company against homosexuals.... thatâs a no from me dawg.â
Harry smiled, knowing that Y/N was feeling better.
âThatâs great, bub. Iâm super proud of you. I know the song will be a fucking hit.â Calum said, shifting his head to look at her.
For the first time she raised her eyes and sadly smiled at him, âThanks Cal...â
Months later and Y/N was truly doing better. Her heart still hurt a bit from Calum but she was gradually getting over it. Seeing him wasnât to the same point of familiarity as it used to be, but the two friends were working it out as best as they could.
And truth be told, Y/N liked Maya. Maya was honestly a good match for Calum, as annoying as it was.
And Y/N didnât have time to be upset because Harry had her too busy with constant adventures and late nights. She appreciated it. She appreciated him.
Tonight he took her to the poetry cafe that they liked. Itâs small little place at the end of L.A. He said he found it one day when he was walking alone, pretty sad and feeling alone. Stumbled across the joint and found a deep connection to it. He explained how much it meant to him and it soon became important to her too.
The dim glowing lights brought upon a comforting blanket of support and trust to whomever dared to enter such a vulnerable place. Those who stood on the pedestal of expression compiled their feelings into a glorious ballad.
Harry and Y/N sat at the small table in the back, matching style ball caps sat upon their heads. His a pretty purple and hers a yellow. He told her that it would be better if they kept their identies more hidden.
Their chairs were moved to sit closer next to each other so that their hands could intertwine. They held hands a lot because it was comforting and felt so so so right. His thumb rubbed against her hand as another young woman stood up to go.
Ate dinner for one and cried tears enough for two
But something changed in my life
Y/N stopped listening as the womanâs words soaked past her skin, muscles, bones, and swirled to embed into her soul. These words were ones that she personally related with. Sure she had friends but she was so lonely when it came to romance. Until recently.
She wasnât certain what was going on with her and Harry, but she felt herself caring more and more until the point that he became her number one. She talked to him the most, saw him the most, and for fucks sake she thought about him the most.
He seemed to always be on her mind. If she found a cute sweater she would think about how Harry would wear it with his pearl necklace. Saw a dog? Awh, he would love to pet it. Tasted red wine? Sheâd think about the time that he spilled it on his counter and acted surprised when she licked it off, claiming that it couldnât go to waste. If she looked at anyone attractive, she couldnât help compare them to Harry.
It was exciting. Moving on from Calum and to Harry was new and it brought upon a lot of foreign feelings. As great as all that was, there was a worrisome idea lodged in her head. Could Harry just be acting as a good friend like Calum had? She wasnât sure and she was too much of a wuss to figure it out.
Harry detached his hand to start clapping along with the crowd as the woman said her thank you and walked off the stage. Y/N blinked back to reality as Harry turned to her.
âThat was beautiful, really raw and genuine.â He spoke, offering a smile that showed his perfectly arranged white teeth.
âYeah, it- it really was.â She was doing a horrible job at convincing him that she actually paid attention to it.
âLove, Iâm not incompetent , I know you werenât listening- youâre too caught up in ya head. Whatâs going in there?â His fingers slotted within hers, his blue nails the same shade as hers. She painted both sets last night when she went over for dinner.
How could a woman look at a man and explain that she was falling in love with him, but she was scared because last time she was in love she got hurt- she thinks she loves him but she doesnât want him to think he was a rebound.
She felt humiliated, her eyes avoiding his. The open sign on the window was suddenly the most amazing thing to look at.
âY/N, dear? Talk to me.â His lips were so close to her ear that she could feel his breath when he spoke.
âMy heart is in your hands and thatâs fucking terrifying to me because, well, we saw how that went last time.â She muttered, still not looking at him but rather the other people there with their significant others.
Harry was suddenly standing up and pulling her out of the small cafe during a poetic interpretation about being bound to your family.
Her heart dropped to her stomach as the wind bit at her soft skin. She fucked up. She really stupendously fucked this good thing that was going on between them. She mustâve misinterpreted his good nature for feelings and was a stupid bitch that fell for it.
He pulled out the outside patio chair and sat her down. She gave him a quizzical look as he moved her legs apart so that he could sit in between them on the concrete.
Reseda green windows to the soul gazed into her, tears pooling around them. His cheeks were puffy and red. He was visibly upset.
âIâm so sorry, Harry. I didnât mean to make you cry like this, I shouldnât have said anything to you-â she rambled in desperate need to fix this situation before she lost him completely.
âShhh. Not the least bit upset, âm crying because youâre my soulmate.â
Her eyes widened in shock, a forceful cough ripping out of her throat at his confession. He soothed her, handing her his water to take a sip. She waved his hand away to signal that she was fine.
âMum told me that Buddhists say if you meet somebody and your heart pounds, your hands shake, your knees go weak, that's not the one. When you meet your soul mate, you'll feel calm. No anxiety, no agitation. First time we shared a conversation i only felt peace and contentment. When Iâm not with you, my mindset is off. I donât like being away from you for long. I worry if youâre okay or I wonder if you are reading a book thatâs making you sad. You get so into your books, love. The empathy doesnât stop when it comes to characters.â
She slightly laughed as she recalled the time he waltzed in on her crying because your character in your book was alone on their birthday. He immediately was making her a cup of tea and bugging her about if something happened with work.
âIâve been waiting for you for years. Honestly was hopelessly pinning after you. Like everyone knew but you. So when you admit you feel the same way...I got emotional.â He softly said, playing with the rings on his hand.
Her hands itched to be the ones twisting his fingers around. So she did. His hands melted into the skin of hers as he grabbed them. Her thumb twirled his left middle fingerâs black band. He blushed at the feeling. She did tend to do this when they were submerged in a deep conversation.
âYouâre an emotional man, Har. Endearingly so. I admire it more than youâd think.â She retorted.
Harry sat up so that he was sitting more on his knees so that he was closer. His face closer to hers. She could smell his cologne infiltrate her senses. She wished she could bathe in his sun-like presence forever.
âI happen to admire that you admire me.â He teased, blinking as more tears fell down his godlike sculpted face.
âYouâre still crying, youâre gonna make me emotional.â She laughed as tears were starting to build up in her own ducts. This was really intimate and she was getting mushy.
âCanât help it. Jusâ soft cuz of you.â
Her hands shifted to grab the collar of his coat, pulling it until his lips were melting into hers He hummed is satisfaction, his hands shifting to cup Y/Nâs face to bring her closer. It was a desperate kiss, the kind where emotion tries to convey the feelings not able to form into words.
His lips molded to her, trying to memorize the taste for the rest of his days. His nose was shoved against her cheek as he slipped his tongue in, sliding it against hers greedily, finally doing this after dreaming of it for years. She pulled away for air, his lips chasing hers in a drunken daze.
âLet me breathe for a sec.â she gently pushed him away with her palm pressed against his face. He laughed, leaning back.
âUsed to think singing on stage was the best feeling, but that was before I got to kiss those sweet lips. Just one more peck?â He made kissy faces in her direction.
His face scrunched up in confusion, âwhat?â
âThank you for.. being there. Taking care of me like you do. Making me laugh by being dumb. Especially for buying pizza rolls in bulk. I know you donât like them as much as you let on. But I do and you do it for me. Means a lot.â
âAnything for you, mâlove,â He stood up and led out a hand, âMe and you. Please let that be the rest of my life.â
Y/N decided in that moment that Calum Hood getting a girlfriend was the best thing to ever happen to her.