College Caveman

So I’m having problems, not with the exercise and junk. I did the thing today, been eating healthy. Feel good so far. The problem I’m facing overall is purpose on the overall scale life and junk like that.

Yesterday I got up, got going, did some exercise did some prep work for the video game I’m working on. Video game only pays me for twenty hours of work a week. So I’ve got 148 hours, minus another 20 hours for mcdonalds job. Minus another 28 hours for sleep if I can start regulating how much I sleep better and doing polyphasic sleep like I want to. So that leaves at most 100 hours to just chill. What the fuck do I do with all that time man? Jesus. I have my wall of music projects, and all sorts of little things to be doing but I don’t really feel like I have this giant overarching goal that’s driving everything I’m doing. 

In highschool I was unreal levels of productive because I was working towards my goal of dream school. Always practicing always working towards a really hardcore goal. However now I’m in a situation where I don’t have that anymore.

So I think I’m going to take a day to really think about what I’m doing. What I’m reaching for, cause I have no idea what I’m doing right now. I know I’m doing something, but it’s not really conducive to an overall life plan. So what am I doing man? Really what’s the plan, what’s the goal, where am I going, yadda yadda yada. 

One month later and I am back. Well one month and eight days later. School got really crazy and I wasn’t sure I could keep it together. But now it’s one month and 8 days later. I kept up with working out while I was skipping. But my diet wasn’t strict, things weren’t bueno. I was just exercising and trying to be good at school. And I just got back from my summer vacation. I got an office job this summer doing music so that’s great. I’ll be doing McDonalds at night for extra cash to save up a bunch of money. Which adds up to about 40 hours per week. Which means if I count sleeping hours I have close to 100 hours a week for self improvement. Wicked right?

I’m doing kettlebells for 20-30 minutes a week and modified Slowcarb/Paleo diet. Trying to get down to 200 pounds and 32-34 inch waist. Trying to get back to being sexy. Want to look better than Chris Pratt and Chris Evans, sexy as hell. I used to have abs. But I need them again. 

Overall things are going to be good. Learning Japanese, Working on my music career, improving my ear, writing tons of music, hoping to win some contests. I’m doing Tim Ferris’ NobNom as well and that is the most terrible experience of my life, I’m a week in but I can already feel the changes. 

Going to shut down my computer and relax and do some reading for a while before I have to go to work. Going back to daily updates and going to making tons of progress! 

So I didn’t check in yesterday, and I figured now would be the perfect time. Cause fuuuuck my life. Essentially my downstairs neighbors are like having a party? So I can’t focus as I was trying to do my homework. 

On the fitness front I decided to incorporate a cheat day into my plan. Just cause I thought if I didn’t I’d go nuts. So I ate some pizza and mcdonalds yesterday. I recently got a physical copy of Tim Ferris’ 4 hour body. I had the digital copy and I’ve read it so many times but none recently. So I was excited and realized a “cheat/binge” day once a week was a little bit necessary. The problem was since my aunt visited today she randomly took me out for italian. Which you know, thank you so much Auntie. But jesus that was bad for my diet. Pain in the butt stuff. That as basically the only bad meal though. I made Tim Ferris’ three minute breakfast today and that was awesome. Tasted better than I thought it would too. I wound up having a small calzone and I’m having some coffee with grapefruit and some more coffee later to ensure I’m doing everything right there.

I’ve got my appointment with my Japanese tutor next week, so I’m trying to learn as much vocabulary as possible, some script based stuff. 

I recently got a new kettlebell, I used to do kettle bells a lot. But I haven’t had any in awhile, years really. I’m happy to have it back in my life. And more excited because I can start just primarily doing kettle bell workouts. I think they’re better for you than cardio and just standard workouts. 

Overall I’m doing good. I’ve got some new books, just a little disappointed in the way my diet went today.I think it’ll get better though. 

To be honest I feel a tiny bit sick and shaky which isn’t good. I’m hoping I feel better soon because I don’t like this at all. I’m going to go do laundry at the laundromat again later. Either way. I’m adjusting a few core things that I want to list

1. I’ll be incorporating a cheat day once a week from now on

2. I’ll be incorporating kettlebells as my primary workout for about 20-30 minute workouts

3. I’m going to be measuring my body fat consistently using calipers, and measuring parts of my body. 

Day 3 is feeling quite bleak. I stayed up all night composing music and working on projects. Well that’s not completely true. I got in about 2 hours of sleep before my 8:30 class. So That all worked out. The kicker was that after class I decided I needed to go to the laundromat. It’s been a while since I went, I usually do my laundry by hand since I don’t have a washer/dryer in my apartment and don’t own a vehicle. This was the hardest part, because I hadn’t eaten yet as I usually eat around 10 AM after my first class for breakfast. I managed to pull through and just get a bag of peanuts as I felt I was going to pass out. Not really paleo. But better than you know. Passing out. Or Candy. I’m almost done at the Laundromat as I’m writing this. Going to go home and do my workout after this. 

Overall Japanese is coming along, my house I’m working on getting really clean today as well. My aunt is visiting. Plus I found my strawberries and grapefruit I had bought had molded. And so I just want to make sure there’s nothing going on in my house that is going to kill me as well. Practice is going well. Overall as long as I get to my workout today I’ll be right on track to achieving my goals. The key is if I get myself to workout I’ll get myself to get everything else done.

I also think I finished my first movement of my “Symphony Zero” work. So that’s neat. 

I think the hardest part of the laundromat today is there’s an awesome pizza place right next door, and cheap candy vending machines in the store. And an awesome soda machine. But hey, I’m not eating it and spending money on it. So I’m doing good.

I’ve posted a few times today, which has been pissing me off because I hate posting on social media, even though this is an anonymous blog and likely nobody will know who this is cause I really don’t use my name or do anything like that. So no problem there. But posting here is helping me maintain self control and focus on stuff and be productive. I’ve actually been getting a lot done today. I actually ran for an hour. Even though I didn’t stick to my water fast (Felt like I was going to vomit and I’m not about that life)  I still ate healthy, just had a super small steak and went and did cardio for an hour today. Which is great. But it’s already wearing on me because I want a pizza so fucking bad.

So just got back from the Gym from an hour of cardio on the elliptical machine thing. Sounds like fun on a bun. It was not, terrible, but I brought my phone watched anime while I was working out and managed to get through it. The hardest part for me is coming down to not ordering a pizza. But, thats okay. Just have to relax and get through it. The worst part is the fact that talking about Pizza I can imagine the pizza taste in my mouth, which is terrible when you’re trying to lose weight.

My goal for today before I get back to the diet grind was to do a full water fast for a few days. I think it’s important to do that because of the fact that I need to break the mental connection with food that I have where I get bored and order food and order unhealthy food and pig out. I think doing that is going to  help me make the connection to eating healthier faster. After the three day water fast I plan on getting back into gear with a sort of modified Paleo/slow carb diet. So that’s cool I guess. 

Along with this and my learning Japanese in 2 months challenge I’ve decided to set up regimens for making a years worth of progress in ear training, music theory knowledge and piano in 8-12 weeks. This is going to be a pain in the butt but I think it will be worth the work this summer. I’m also going to have to learn psych 101 in 3-4 works in the next day or two. Along with the composition of the first movement of my symphony zero. Going to be an eventful day. After I shower and go to class I’ll get home, practice guitar, create my plans for the two projects tonight. I also need to probably get Aurallia. I need to set up a system for the ear training and get right to work, as well as the piano and theory. 

So this is my little blog for my new journey as a biohacker/paleo enthusiast weirdo blog. I used to be a 34 inch waist, with a six pack, big muscles, super fit douchey looking motherfucker. Unfortunately after I left home and went to my first year of college (I had a meal plan) Pizza every night, french toast and eggs in the morning, chicken nuggets and hot dogs for lunch blah blah the same old spiel. Unfortunately that had adverse consequences. Almost 50 pounds heavier, I’m about a 40 inch waist, and I definitely do not have a six pack anymore. 

After a certain amount of time this becomes not okay, you know? I started working out a month ago and I was doing it every day, then every other day, then every couple of days, until I’m at about once a week now? And that’s definitely me being generous to myself. I’ve recently been rereading old books, Tim Ferriss, Tony Robbins, those guys. It’s inspired me to get fit and get my life completely back on track. Because sure I’m doing cool music stuff lately, I’m a musician by trade, and it’s been great but I haven’t done enough to feel good. My sleep cycles are weird, I’m overweight, I have like two friends and I hardly talk to them, my life in general isn’t great. So I want to work towards getting things back on track and this blog is going to be part of getting my life together and not being shit. 

About a month ago I thought I was going to start making some serious changes, but that genuinely lasted like two weeks. And now I’m back in my old trashy habits and that’s not okay for me. I want my life to get back on track so I’m starting this blog and going from there.

The goals I have are for the next 30 days are as follows

Do 30 days of strict paleo

For the next 30 days an hour of exercise

Write in the blog every day

Find a nootropic regimen that works for me

No more mastrubating

Begin a serious polyphasic sleep regimen

Lose 3-4 inches off my waist

These are just some personal development goals that I’m going to achieve at all costs, I’ve got a set of body fat calipers coming in soon, along with a kettle bell (used to do kettle bells A LOT) the bottom line is these are going to take a serious amount of commitment. I’ll be posting a diet regimen and a workout regimen that I plan to follow. For now, I’ll just be doing a light workout for now (probably only twenty minutes before I start seriously 100% tomorrow) but going from there, here’s a picture of my ‘Last Hurrah Pizza Box’

“Oh Steve <3″