Dude Girl

Holy shit I am so glad to be back on lexapro 😭. Not only is it helping my mood a bit already but I forgot how much it helps suppress my appetite. This past month I had been struggling to stay in a deficit bc I just felt hungry even tho I knew realistically I wasn’t and found myself snacking unconsciously every now and then before snapping out of it and stopping myself. 🥲. I am proud of myself that I was able to snap out and stop myself from doing damage but damn like I am so thankful for lexapro lol. I’m starting to regain hope that I can lose these last 20 lbs w out having to fight against myself as hard as I had been this past month.

If anyone is curious he did compare people saying don’t use ai to write a book to Umbridge’s speech where she is wanting to take authoritarian control over hogwart 🫶 bc these two things are totally the same thing. Somehow….

I’m in disbelief. This guy really heard this cute story about this other couple and everyone and even the creator (who is an aspiring author) was saying it should be turned into a book, and upon hearing that he went and ran her story idea through chat gpt despite even his own girlfriend saying it was a bad idea. THEN he sends the op an email about this and said she’s free to use it if she’d like. Then when she doesn’t respond bc yeah that is an absolutely ridiculous message, he goes online and tries to publically blast her for that???? And then says he’s gonna release the story for free for everyone to read bc “it deserves to be read” I’m just.

I want to feel bad for Amber Lynn Reid but like. I just can’t. Not even just bc she is just a terrible person in general but like. She did this to herself full stop. And she’s never gonna stop until she dies. She has had so many reasons to truly wake tf up and fix herself. So many chances, but she keeps choosing “comfort”. It’s why she is still w her feeder gf, it’s why she is at her highest weight ever, it’s why she keeps trying to do the lolcow stuff and tik tok and it’s why she doesn’t put in the work to actually get her channel back 🙄.

Bro. Why tf did my cat put her paw in my hand on her own accord and then proceeded to growl at me for it????? Like girl??? If you didn’t want to hold hands then why put your paw there????? So rude.

So the premise of the story I'm writing is there is this princess who has been raised to believe women have a delicate and soft nature, only for these ideas to be tossed into the air when she is to welcome the first ever female knight into her kingdom and gently picks up the idea of trying to learn sword fighting herself, especially as she finally considers the idea that's always been in the back of her head of running away and being free from responsibility. But the knight herself also has her own ideas that were etched into her that she is different from women, even perhaps better than all women she has ever met although this might be a thought she uses to cope with because the way she has been treated for being different than her peers has othered her, but you don't become a knight without some form of confidence, and these two collide into each other and are forced to change the other's mind on what they believe.

Why does loneliness have to creep on the edges of my existence like vines overgrown on an abandoned building.

Ready to watch my dad fall into weight cycling again lol. When is this man ever gonna understand that jumping into some diet and increasing his exercise with no acceptance of this becoming an actual maintainable lifestyle is just going to lead to failure. Like I’m setting myself up to make my fitness a life style. He’s doing this just to lose the weight. 🙃. But of course he never listens to me so like whatever. It’s not like I’ve lost almost 50lbs 🥲.